2010.05.23 01:00 - Rageing monkey of past

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    Moon Fargis: greetings cos :)
    Moon Fargis: hi cal
    Stargate Tone: Hello cos cal and moon ******
    Moon Fargis: ^^
    Stargate Tone: hearts
    Stargate Tone: oh what a beautiful morning *
    Moon Fargis: *smiles
    Calvino Rabeni: Hello Cosmic, Moon, Star dears :)
    Moon Fargis: so how is everyone today?
    Stargate Tone: feeling wonderfull *
    Stargate Tone: how r U ?
    Moon Fargis: ok :) must prepare tea then i feel good too :)
    Stargate Tone: ahhh
    Calvino Rabeni: I feel good tonight :)
    Stargate Tone: how about candy ?
    Moon Fargis: ah got cake :)
    Stargate Tone: woooooooow
    Moon Fargis: but cake without tea is just half fun :)
    Stargate Tone: ahhh
    Stargate Tone: and the other half would be ?
    Moon Fargis: tea ?:)
    Qt Core: hi all, good morning
    Moon Fargis: morning qt
    Darren Islar: good morning everyone
    Stargate Tone: good morning Qt
    Moon Fargis: morning darren ::)
    Moon Fargis: ah phone one sec
    Stargate Tone: ah...sry; read wrong Ur line Moon
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: hello
    Stargate Tone: good morning Darren *
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: was afk, having cup of tea
    Stargate Tone: how r U ?
    Calvino Rabeni: Ah two more in the bush, welcome Darren and QT
    Stargate Tone: **
    Darren Islar: feel more in balance then the past few days
    Moon Fargis: re
    Stargate Tone: re *
    Qt Core: that's nice
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Stargate Tone: well...
    Stargate Tone: dont feel balanced at all, but sparkling *******
    Moon Fargis: ahh good thing those grass dont burn
    Moon Fargis: grasses
    Darren Islar: :-)
    Stargate Tone: *yes*
    Stargate Tone: so wish that it wont breake Ur balance Darren :)***
    Darren Islar: hmmmm, well always having problems with a good balance
    Stargate Tone: as I had two such discussions this morning, that makes me sooooooo happy
    Moon Fargis: ooh?
    Darren Islar: :-)
    Qt Core: so you can't really balance when you are flying, star ? ;-)
    Stargate Tone: true
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ;)
    Stargate Tone: well; dont fly atm
    Stargate Tone: am soooo strongly in my body that it's luxury to me
    Stargate Tone: but yes; have so huge much reasons to feel happy now
    Stargate Tone: even before these discussions I felt so bad that I thought that this time I simply must ask when it's asked 'how r U', that if I may share my so bad feeling that why that is
    Stargate Tone: so...feel still need to ask if I may share why I felt so bad ?
    Darren Islar: sure
    Qt Core: yes if you like to share
    Moon Fargis: ok
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: please
    Stargate Tone: as that happened that I went to meat a friend who so often invites me and I cannot go...so I thought I'll have only pleasent night and could continue helping myself...but...
    Stargate Tone: this my friend had a vistior ...who's got this MS illness...so...now I'm MS ill....
    Darren Islar: oh
    Qt Core: MS ?
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: How we can releaseYou?
    Moon Fargis: OMG MicroSoft ill! poor man
    Darren Islar: still suffering from it Stargate ?
    Stargate Tone: when one cannot use hands and feet normally...and by time it kills cuz that leads to worse things
    Moon Fargis: but satar is i really good thing you got that multiple sclerose now ?
    Moon Fargis: star
    Stargate Tone: for a while untill the patient is well or for some other reason leaves me, but as he happened to fell in love with me,,,,he's not to leave me very easily
    Stargate Tone: meaning my my existence
    Stargate Tone: yes Moon ?
    Moon Fargis: hmhm
    Stargate Tone: ah yes; that's sure the prob that it sure is not good tihng at all
    Darren Islar: wow
    Stargate Tone: but...to him...
    Darren Islar: you can't protect yourself form these influences Star?
    Darren Islar: must be hard if you can't
    Stargate Tone: as he's truly honestly willing to work with himself, as I told him of them earlier experiences I've helped
    Stargate Tone: that's the point; I cannot
    Stargate Tone: but
    Darren Islar: and gettng out of balance ......
    Stargate Tone: why I thought I'de share this here in Pab is, that I thought that all good advises would be good thing
    Stargate Tone: ah well...sharing them phenomenas for this illness sure again makes limits what I can do ...even I'de need ...for example the houseworks
    Stargate Tone: but yes;
    Stargate Tone: in case anybody here can give advises how to release rage out of oneself....
    Stargate Tone: that would help
    Moon Fargis: often words can be good
    Stargate Tone: as this person truely 'got it', what's the prob
    Moon Fargis: damn shit fu**
    Moon Fargis: this gives ease to pressure of the rage
    Qt Core: for releasing rage i always found helpful to watch a violent movie/anime
    Calvino Rabeni: Rage is to make the future different
    Moon Fargis: sure it wonttake it away but then you can start to dealwith it more easy
    Stargate Tone: you know what; that's something that wouldn't ever occure to my mind to advise this person, but Ur sooooooo right
    Calvino Rabeni: What I feel is it helps to know what one wants and focus the power on that instead
    Calvino Rabeni: Then believe in oneself
    Stargate Tone: well; that's the point; as MS is based on that one cannot release ones rage cuz dont want to share anger around...
    Darren Islar: I think both need to be done
    Stargate Tone: and declines that completely
    Darren Islar: the focussing on what you want, but also feeling the rage
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: if there would be an ocean nearby
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: go to yell there on the beach
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: if that beach is empty
    Calvino Rabeni: The thing to release is the weakness behind the rage
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and no people there
    Darren Islar: ah, nicely put Cal :-)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: let the ocean take it
    Calvino Rabeni: Then the anger would not be needed
    Stargate Tone: he lives in Helsinki; so; hard to find place but home where is not people around
    Darren Islar: but if rage can take over in your body, it also needs to subside
    Darren Islar: that is how the body works
    Calvino Rabeni: It sounds simplistic but I think it works that way
    Moon Fargis: well rage is the monkey in us being angry
    Calvino Rabeni: Well I think Darren it's not good to be completely "taken"
    Stargate Tone: as I'de like that I wouldn't this time need to suffer so long for this illness...and feel hope that advising him is possible
    Stargate Tone: that he could make his own work better
    Darren Islar: right, but at some point the monkey is getting boring to our mind
    Moon Fargis: sure its not only to take good care of animals when dealing with our mind
    Darren Islar: it is difficult, because if people don't know the techniques they probably don;t know how to use it
    Calvino Rabeni: To take responsibility for the Monkey
    Calvino Rabeni: treat it well :)
    Darren Islar: and reject them
    Darren Islar: yes, making the Monkey less angry :-)
    Stargate Tone: ah yes; this guy is genius of his mind, so I believe that advises shall work out
    Stargate Tone: oh if human mind would be such that one could just swich off such motions with some certain technic
    Stargate Tone: *sigh*
    Moon Fargis: well
    Moon Fargis: human mind is adpotable
    Moon Fargis: hmm
    Moon Fargis: adaptable ?
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: hmm, well maby some day human braing is fully used ;)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: wondering what kind that day might be
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ;D
    Moon Fargis: hmmm would say heavy times :)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ? why
    Stargate Tone: ah well...might it be the sugar and salt of life of human kind being, that such buttons are not there...
    Darren Islar: well, the technique is not to switch it off, but to deal with it
    Moon Fargis: cus of much pore possibilities for humans to make crap :)
    Stargate Tone: but yes; when something turnes to be the illness, something special is needed
    Moon Fargis: it dont need a full used brain to have compassion
    Calvino Rabeni: Crap is something on its way to becoming fertilizer :)
    Moon Fargis: or to feel love
    Darren Islar: and sometimes you need to to that a lot of times, I'm afraid
    Stargate Tone: ah yes; told him that forgiveness is the key
    Darren Islar: :-) Cal, reminds me of the Lotus
    Calvino Rabeni: yes
    Stargate Tone: which he fully 'got it'
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: <3
    Stargate Tone: but all plus to work with the rage is sure for help
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: Simo also woke up to say Hi to You
    Moon Fargis: ^^
    Moon Fargis purrrrrrsssssssss
    Stargate Tone: big smile *
    Stargate Tone: give a kiss for me too ?
    Calvino Rabeni: <3 to SImo
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: yesss much kisses for Simo
    Stargate Tone: hm...might it be time for me also to have something to drink; brb
    Moon Fargis: *slurps his tea*
    Moon Fargis: jnamm
    Stargate Tone: b
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: wb Dear
    Stargate Tone: ty
    Moon Fargis: hmm just loked a bit throught, drinking earlgray now but people cheat at 70% of the oearl grays that they dont add real bergamotte oil to it to give him his flavour but some chemical aromatic substances
    Moon Fargis: anyway out of topic :)
    Moon Fargis: so hmm star btw i found some bad primeaters yesterday on angelscry
    Stargate Tone: hm
    Stargate Tone: sound like star has made a mess again ?
    Moon Fargis: ah no this time it was me :)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: primeaters? What is it?
    Moon Fargis: a mahjong table that didnt worked anymore
    Moon Fargis: stuff that eats prims away ^^ such as a mahjong table
    Stargate Tone: ahh...sad
    Moon Fargis: njam njam njam like pacman :)
    Stargate Tone: ahhhhhhhh
    Stargate Tone: likes that also specially
    Stargate Tone: but only to wach somebody else to play ****
    Qt Core: the solitaire or the real game ?
    Stargate Tone: real game
    Stargate Tone: hm
    Moon Fargis: hm well there are sure manny pacman clones
    Stargate Tone: in case that's such in which such 'ball' eats other items
    Moon Fargis: i liked "bombpac"
    Moon Fargis: where he could place bombs
    Moon Fargis: hehe
    Stargate Tone: that was the first computergame I truly liked to see...'few' years ago :)***
    Stargate Tone: my son played it so well in such big machine in the publick place
    Calvino Rabeni: "QBert" I remember
    Stargate Tone: ah; one minute and I'll get my special tea *
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: sec, I go also for few min afk
    Stargate Tone: could U Darren share any reason/s why you had lost Ur balance ?
    Stargate Tone: and or why U now found back to it ?
    Darren Islar: sorry, got a bit distracted
    Darren Islar: well, I was confronted with the past
    Stargate Tone: no need to sry
    Stargate Tone: ohhhhhhh
    Darren Islar: I feel a lot of grief about that
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Darren Islar: and having put myself in a position
    Darren Islar: in which I need to allow other people to decide about what is going to happen to me
    Stargate Tone: well...past is never past; we carry it in our spirit ...no matter what kind it is
    Darren Islar: being partly disabled
    Stargate Tone: **
    Darren Islar: and depending on financial benefits
    Darren Islar: giving them the right to tell me what to do
    Stargate Tone: so there's sure sorrows to deal with...
    Darren Islar: It is still not gone
    Darren Islar: but we talked about nurturing yesterday morning
    Moon Fargis: well you are your past even all what made you dont exist anymore
    Darren Islar: and somehow that stuck with me
    Stargate Tone: and shall not go, but can change by Urself *
    Darren Islar: so I have been following my body, trying to listen better to it
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Darren Islar: and with that making more space for my mind
    Darren Islar: putting it to rest
    Darren Islar: a abit more that is
    Calvino Rabeni: _/!\_
    Calvino Rabeni: also Darren
    Stargate Tone: it's sure good to rest also...but....it's not rest that changes/purifies ...
    Darren Islar: but being able to talk about it now here,
    Darren Islar: shows that it is not that overwhelming anymore
    Stargate Tone: so very right U r
    Darren Islar: true Star, but it gives me a little bit of space
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Darren Islar: being able to address the process a bit better
    Stargate Tone: *able to breath better*
    Darren Islar: creating space to deal with it
    Stargate Tone: so...can U feel pitty to these ppl ?
    Darren Islar: I seem to have past the anger
    Stargate Tone: **
    Darren Islar: haven't felt that this time, until now
    Stargate Tone: so the truth of their uncapability/weakness has somewhat reached Ur heart
    Darren Islar: more my own grief of feeling trapped
    Darren Islar: an not listened at
    Stargate Tone: **
    Moon Fargis: hmmm you drink tea darren ?
    Darren Islar: no, in the mornings mostly coffee, I'm afraid :-)
    Stargate Tone: could U think to try what tea can bring ?
    Moon Fargis: ah no worrys :) but one says that you can feel natures voice over the tea
    Stargate Tone: so nicely expressed *
    Stargate Tone: I myself have had soooo beautiful adventures with them teas as Moon has guided me
    Darren Islar: yes, I think I get the feeling :-)
    Stargate Tone: and when to smell and taste and feel how this tea goes to sholders and help there, and this goes to the middle of the body and this brings more easy back to balance and so on :)***
    Darren Islar: hmmmmm
    Stargate Tone: even still misses coffee too; specially when needs to wake up to human world
    Stargate Tone: ah yes; I'm an 'old fox' to deal with huge various probs, cuz I am what I am
    Darren Islar: right, only drink coffee in the morning :-)
    Stargate Tone: but there's huge wide world of teas :)***
    Darren Islar: there is a part in my body that wants tea in the morning,
    Moon Fargis: ahyes people invent more and more and more but i prefer the natural, unflavored ones often
    Darren Islar: but I'm afraid the coffee part mostly wins :-)
    Moon Fargis: (except earl gray and some others:)
    Moon Fargis: lol
    Stargate Tone: **
    Moon Fargis: hmm aslong you dont mix tea and coffee together its ok
    Darren Islar: :-)
    Stargate Tone: well; also the add to earl gray is natural stuff; and special good 'holy' stuff
    Moon Fargis: i once hadm ust to make hot water throught a coffee machine for the tea
    Moon Fargis: god it was awfull
    Calvino Rabeni: ACCK
    Darren Islar: yes, you can't mix those
    Darren Islar: ACCK?
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Moon Fargis: brb phone
    Qt Core: time to start the day, have fun... and tea or coffee ;-)
    Darren Islar: :-) bye QT
    Darren Islar: and I will
    Stargate Tone: was nice to feel you again Qt; enjoy Ur day
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: Have a good day Qt
    Qt Core: Ciao!
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I drink only tea
    Stargate Tone: ciao
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I have never learned to drink cofe
    Stargate Tone: I did that up to almost 30's; then one freind teached me that when the visitor comes, one must make coffee to him; that way I started to drink coffee
    Stargate Tone: and it's price was even doubled soon after that,,,so...not good change...
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I was a awfull cofe maker, when did not drank it self, but learned also to prepare cofe to visitors ;)
    Stargate Tone: **
    Calvino Rabeni: Calvino Rabeni likes coffee
    Calvino Rabeni: Calvino Rabeni likes tea also - green
    Stargate Tone: some 'magic' there must be in coffee too cu
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ah
    Calvino Rabeni: But also it can be and "addiction
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: now I remember
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: there have been one cofee I tooked to be good
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: one old woman made a cofe
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: with pot
    Darren Islar: all right that's it :-), I am going for my second cup of coffee
    Calvino Rabeni: Have one for me Darren
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: not with original cofe maker machine
    Stargate Tone: Stargate tone likes many kind of teas; as even that very common yellow Lipton tea remained as the peace making drink with a friend
    Calvino Rabeni: I can't right now :(
    Darren Islar: I will Cal
    Calvino Rabeni: ty
    Darren Islar: espresso, expansive, but really nice coffee :-))))
    Stargate Tone: was nice to met you; enjoy coffee :)***
    Darren Islar: I mean real espresso :-))))
    Darren Islar: cu all, and thanks :-)
    Stargate Tone: ahhhh; got that in Italy; can enjoy that too
    Stargate Tone: cu *
    Calvino Rabeni: The real stuff, Darren.
    Calvino Rabeni: YW Darren, have a great day
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: Simo just got milk, now he is smiling with open month without teeths, his blue eyes open wide
    Stargate Tone: ???????????????????????????
    Stargate Tone: TEETHS ???????????
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: without
    Calvino Rabeni: :)))
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ikenet paistaen
    Stargate Tone: AHH
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: do not know how to put it on english..
    Stargate Tone: sry; read wrong
    Calvino Rabeni: loool
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: lol ;)
    Stargate Tone: (have still not got my own eyesight completely back)
    Calvino Rabeni: A toothless smile from a small child
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: yes ;)
    Calvino Rabeni: The picture is in my mind
    Stargate Tone: ah; you wrote exactly right, but >I read wrong
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ;)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I wanted to share
    Stargate Tone: yes; sadly the smile of old person's toothless mouth is not nice
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: so qute ;)
    Stargate Tone: *yes*
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: do you want to hear a dream?
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: two night ago
    Calvino Rabeni: :)) yes
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: it was about my rl brother, blood brother
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I went with kids and with one of my cousen to visit him
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: to see him and his New apartment
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: it was a flat on second or more up floor
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: we woke him up
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: the walls was very white
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: there were one room and a kitchen
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: no much furnitures
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: in kitchen food table
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: he was sleeping on it
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: he had also that other room
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: there where a bed of his
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and a huge fire place
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: a size of one wall
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: it was
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: like painted
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: there were ceramic tiles , it was made from tiles
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and those tiles vere painted
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: some kind of flowery figures
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: much windows
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: the building it was a bit older
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: not new one
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: but apartment was lightfull
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: hmm
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: that
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: fire place
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: there were doors closed
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: he had not used it yeat
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: or not sleeped on that room on his bed
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: then I woke up
    Stargate Tone: so there was no fire ?
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: no, the fire place was there so he can warm it, but he had not used it. those fire place doors were closed
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: but fire place was very beautifull, kind of romantic,
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: or the kind what royalty might have had in old times
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: or some hundreds ago
    Moon Fargis: re
    Moon Fargis: phew
    Moon Fargis: ohmy
    Moon Fargis: as older people get as more theyn eed to tell it seems :)
    Moon Fargis: greetings from traute , star :)
    Stargate Tone: thank you
    Stargate Tone: greetings back
    Calvino Rabeni: your dream place had a good feel I think Cosmic
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: yes, there were, wery lightfull apartment with white walls
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I was wondering why he did not sleep on his bed, but on the kitchen table
    Calvino Rabeni: Sleeping on kitchen table :)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: yes
    Calvino Rabeni: Maybe he was dreaming there
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and I was a bit wondering also why he haven`t try his fire place
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: beacause it was so beautifull
    Calvino Rabeni: It makes me think, in a new house, it would be good to sleep in several of the rooms
    Moon Fargis: hmm also in the toilet ?:)
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: ah, yes there were also toilet, I assume it was a door of toilet
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: did not look at there
    Stargate Tone: well; do you understand the message of that dream ?
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: no
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: thats why asking
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and sharing
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: I know the apartment is One-self
    Stargate Tone: ah...well..sry I didn't read any question *
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: and take it to be his higher
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: *grings* sry
    Calvino Rabeni: Maybe not in the toilet moon. But the bath...
    Stargate Tone: yes; and he still sleeps in his own, but have not loved...and this his 'own' is the reason that he's not well...
    Stargate Tone: so; the issue is that U and kids do something that he wakes up to that
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: should go to visit him
    Stargate Tone: _/!\-
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: <3
    Calvino Rabeni: Forgets to sleep in own bed - focused on the children then?
    Stargate Tone: so many people seek love from others, not noticing that they themself should love at first....
    Stargate Tone: dont reveive from outside himself...
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: yes
    Moon Fargis: well my friends a bad tiredness catched me now so ill reatreat now and rest a bit still
    Moon Fargis: was nice to see you again ^
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Calvino Rabeni: _/!\_
    Calvino Rabeni: yes Moon
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: rest well Dear
    Stargate Tone: I need also to lay down a bit so I'll retreat also *
    Stargate Tone: wishing U good time dears *
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: Thank You for everything Dear
    Stargate Tone: very dears *
    Cosmicflower Ushimawa: Rest well <33<33<33
    Calvino Rabeni: Very nice meeting :)))
    Stargate Tone: hearts

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