2010.09.07 07:00 - The Title is you (so see yourself)

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    The Guardian for this meeting was Riddle Sideways. The comments are by Riddle Sideways.  Who by self sat and enjoyed more of the time to adjust to returning to what (might) 'become'.
    Eventually joined by Yak and Eos (and watchers).

    The title says it.
    (eventually) we present the play.
    You, the (supposed) audience must see it.

    --BELL--
    Riddle Sideways: good Morning, OaB Listener Master
    --BELL--
    --BELL--

    Riddle Sideways: Hi Yak
    Yakuzza Lethecus: hey riddle
    Yakuzza Lethecus: good morning to you
    Riddle Sideways: was just sitting here

    BTW - just tested spell checking on a section.  It does not work on selections.  It continued on to the entire article and does not like av names.


    Yakuzza Lethecus: are you attending this weeks theme session ?
    Yakuzza Lethecus: since ur also kind of from that field of profession
    Riddle Sideways: I think I now can attend
    Yakuzza Lethecus: what you mean ?
    Yakuzza Lethecus: did you retire ?
    Yakuzza Lethecus: :)
         How close you are, Yakuz.  Heard so many this weekend that have "retired" (funny word :)
          Have paid into funds for so many years the undergrad should be paid for my new Berkeley freshmen daugther.  Maybe, I could retire.  Would somebody bring me puzzles to work on? like I get in software jobs?  Somebody named "Riddle" needs a large diet of puzzles daily.

    Riddle Sideways: was always busy at 1pm my time
    Riddle Sideways: am now laid off and back to contracting
    Riddle Sideways: for the last 2 year was needed to be in their office at midday
    Yakuzza Lethecus: sry to hear
    Riddle Sideways: don't be. It was an unhealthy place
    Riddle Sideways: was nice to have a steady income, but...
    Riddle Sideways: oh well. Now on to better things

         /me under breath screams F-word

    Yakuzza Lethecus: good morning eos
    Riddle Sideways: Hi Eos
    Eos Amaterasu: hi riddle, yak
    Riddle Sideways: I have been in the woods the last 5 days.
    Eos Amaterasu: are you lost?
         Not a retreat.  But, maybe retreat is the correct word.  For 21 years, (son was 2 years old the first time) my family have spent Labor Day weekend at a blue-grass-ish music/camping festival (www.strawberrymusic.com)
         Spent a long weekend in the Redwoods and Pines.  Camping close to 5,000 of my new closest friends.  Go to a high Sierra meadow for a concert by Arlo Guthrie, Keb Mo, Tommy Emmanuel, Carolyn Wonderland, Martin Sexton, The Tuttles, Del Castello, Railroad Earth, et.al.
        There are 13,653 pickers at Strawberry that are better then me, but I still love them all.  Most will still jam with me.


    Riddle Sideways: please remind me what the theme session is?
    Eos Amaterasu: the theme session on Thursday, 1 pm SLT, will be on using language/concepts from scripting/programming as metaphors for PaB

    Eos Amaterasu: btw, I'm showing PaB and SL to some friends of mine, so am just here briefly
    Yakuzza Lethecus: nice
    Riddle Sideways: thanks.
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i never got friends of mine into SL
    Eos Amaterasu: :-(
    Yakuzza Lethecus: only a few new contacts into pab
    Riddle Sideways: I already have ya'll as friends in SL
    Yakuzza Lethecus: the curve from RL to SL through the MMORPG prejudice and then into something contemplative is just to high
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i mean RL friends :)
    Riddle Sideways: :)
    Riddle Sideways: Yes, only a couple have ever continued in Virt worlds
    Riddle Sideways: most politly listen to me
    Riddle Sideways: then go away :)
    Riddle Sideways: most think SL might be a shoot-em-up vid game
    Riddle Sideways: and some wonder why it isn't

    Yakuzza Lethecus: I like the stability of the ppl here, i know the same individuals are comming back and that makes it better to buy into it.
    Yakuzza Lethecus: I have so many flat contacts in skype/icq/xfire
    Riddle Sideways: flat?
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i don´t know that much about them
    Yakuzza Lethecus: and if they are mostly only for gaming and not the full person most of the time
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i mean in SL i also have a lot of contacts i don´t really know much about :)
    Yakuzza Lethecus: but at least nobody ever told me around SL ,,put the dig out of ur head someone is fucking ur brain"
    Yakuzza Lethecus: that was an experience from an IRC chat called #philosophy in quakenet
    Riddle Sideways search chat logs and does not find phrases like that here
    --BELL--
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i do not particularly like my own level in contemplative subjects so i try to just read most of the time
         /me thinks of the "leveling up" Avs.  (Hopefully you do NOT know to what I refer)
    Yakuzza Lethecus: take care eos
    Eos Amaterasu: thanks guys, I need to leave
    Riddle Sideways: ok, Eos have a great look about

    Riddle Sideways: ? is there somebody that judges our level of contemplative subjects?
    Yakuzza Lethecus: myself and the issue that when i can´t share something ppl are interested in they stay away propably
    Yakuzza Lethecus: or don´t open up and share, i think often about moderation
    Yakuzza Lethecus: how to mediate between the fact that ppl like me know so little, the fact that we don´t have to know that much and that we have to know a lot to attract facinating ppl...
    Riddle Sideways: me thinks wrong, right, wrong
    Riddle Sideways: 1. you know a great deal
    Riddle Sideways: 2. true you do not need to know much
    Riddle Sideways: 3. attract facinating !!!! not needed to be done
    Riddle Sideways: listening, attracts many ppl
    Riddle Sideways: shating, attracts others
    Riddle Sideways: sharing
    Yakuzza Lethecus: ah, it´s this feeling that some of the ppl set their priority´s lower to attend pab, at least that´s my feeling, there were ppl i always liked to listen too pila,gen,doug
    Yakuzza Lethecus: sry, that is of course an ideosyncratic feeling, i always ask myself what i am getting attracted by and i don´t fit into that schema myself

    Yakuzza Lethecus: hehe, so i think about this groucho marx joke :)
    Yakuzza Lethecus: I refuse to join any group that would have me as a member.
    Riddle Sideways: lol

    Riddle Sideways: moderation might be good
    Riddle Sideways: you seem to be too strict, judgemnetal, etc with yourself
    --BELL--

         That should have been the hour and I would have needed to run away to put on business cloths and drive to a job.  All the best chats start just as I needed to leave, but no today.
         Attend kind audience.

    Riddle Sideways: I have a great time with you
    Riddle Sideways: until you put yourself down

    Yakuzza Lethecus: it´s a tricky thing, i mean i really put myself down a bit since i have the feeling that i am not stupid but i have stupid habits and chains of thought, then i think what´s envrionmental and what´s maybe bio me
    Yakuzza Lethecus: so finding good groups of individuals whom actually try to really communicate is a good step for me, still how not only to take
    Yakuzza Lethecus: how much can i share while me is an extremly selfpitty me
    Yakuzza Lethecus: nobody likes to talk against this selfpitty misantropic stuff, still i believe that there is truth in positive psych
    Yakuzza Lethecus: but hell, i don´t like overconfident ppl :)
    Yakuzza Lethecus: it´s tricky, i simply try to learn how to preserve the ability to communicate everything on my mind, but usually i hope that others are asking my questions
    Yakuzza Lethecus: because once a picture is burned in, it´s hard to change it and i dislike usually to give an actual picture of me
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i lost 5 years of school btw because i initially wanted to to attend college but didn´t do it after i was terrible in math and electical engineering, i was never great in the humanities...
    Yakuzza Lethecus: so i am scared to start anything that cost me more years and actually i see happyness related to the fact of being able to communicate everything that goes through my mind in an elaborated way and bring these thoughts to actuality
    Yakuzza Lethecus: hmm, maybe a lot of words for selffullfillment :P

    Riddle Sideways: I can agree AND argue with all that you have just said
    Riddle Sideways: which shall we do?

    Riddle Sideways: I also lost 5 years of college due to the revolution coming to town
    Yakuzza Lethecus: hehe, of course argue :)
    Riddle Sideways: when ever I have dreams of grandure, I listen to recording of myself
    Riddle Sideways: nobody ever sounds right to themselves on recordings
          Take a breath and read the next section as fast as you can.  It was produced as fast as we could type
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i mean i know it´s senseless but still i circle such thoughs around
    Riddle Sideways: of course you circle them. That's what thoughts stuck in brain channels do
    Yakuzza Lethecus: Actually that´s where i think of "dropping".
    Yakuzza Lethecus: Disassociating and having an environment where ppl are capable to express emotions in words, i even think of projects like the ,,dreamcicle" and everthing that let´s you free associate in such positive ways.
    Riddle Sideways: and 'Play'
    Yakuzza Lethecus: i can play games, still i have a rough time ,,playing life"
    Yakuzza Lethecus: playing as being
    --BELL--
    Riddle Sideways: that image you have. stuck. wanting to drop. circling.
    Riddle Sideways: being Played with
    Riddle Sideways: go ahead and play (like we are doing) with it
    Yakuzza Lethecus: yes, of course i try to get rid of the stuckness in individual patterns i have
    Yakuzza Lethecus: when ppl are talking about freshness and naturalness this playfullness comes to mind
    Riddle Sideways: go ahead and write to me that you are [stuck, stupid, pitty, fresh, dropped, wonderful, etc.]
    Riddle Sideways: about something
    Riddle Sideways: play is
    Riddle Sideways: not always fresh
    Yakuzza Lethecus: fresh means to play
    Riddle Sideways: we repeat the same game over and over
    Yakuzza Lethecus: fresh means not to be stuck in a pattern
    Yakuzza Lethecus: for me
    Yakuzza Lethecus: because it´s not yet a clear pattern i went though
    Riddle Sideways: fresh means that, but play does not
    Riddle Sideways: we can play the same over and over
    Yakuzza Lethecus: yes :)
    Yakuzza Lethecus: anyway, thx riddle!
    Riddle Sideways: even watch the Play again and again
    Riddle Sideways: and get something new out of it

    Riddle Sideways: yes
    Yakuzza Lethecus: have a good morning
    Riddle Sideways: you too

    Epilog:
    Near Yosemite you can stare up past the tops of Sequoia (the tree giants) to the dots in the sky. [some say the sky's fabric is so old that it has moth holes in it that the astrophysics call stars).

    "Dance beneath the Diamond Sky, with one hand waving free" - Dylan

    These are camps of Religious fanatics that have found kindred spirits.  They play their music throughout the night.  Working up a furvor that shall carry them another year.
    The entity that I have joined goes with a group.  We become a group of 10-20 (ever changing) gorilla harmonizers.  We charge into a camp for peaceful religious musicians doing what they do in their drug/alcohal/joyious/long-day induced psycho state of ../
    And we sing one chorus of what they are doing.  Harmonizing the best we con.  If we know not.  If we can not guess the closest.  If it does not 'come' to one of us.   We sing "Meow, meow, meow, moew, meow..." then leave that camp for the next.
    On (who knows) the tenth (maybe) camp, we hit the Broadway musical camp.  They sing (what they collectively/collaboritively remember) of all Broadway hit songs.  They are finishing one.  They look at us (maybe 17 of us) jumping into the midst of their 10 with deer in headlights eyes.  A stereo-typed Jew is starting Fiddler on the Roof's "If I were a rich Man".
      We (group) have arrived.  I (as Jew and Broadway/Movie goer) know all the words/dance/feeling join in.  Sing to the heavens.  Dance as if no tomorrow. Dance/Sing/shout/Do/Be in that moment.  To hell with any other.  No Judgement.  No Restraint.  It is "Now".  This "Dance". This Being. This is "IT".

     

    If you do not know what the previous means...

    Then spend a really long Time on the Matra,

    "I don't waaaant a Pickle...
    Jusst wanta ride on my Mootoor Cycle".

    "It will do your soul good".

     


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