2012.02.20 01:00 - I finally decided to post this… unedited. I will probably regret it, but it’s three AM and I am sorta drunk.

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    Eliza originally posted this session from the auto-listener database. It was then edited and retitled by Korel. Thanks.

    [01:11] Korel Laloix: Three AM and I can't sleep again.
    [01:11] Korel Laloix: Lots on my mind.
    [01:13] Korel Laloix: Will wait a couple more mins, then might go for a walk.... a bit tired for another run. Just wish I was sleepy.
    [01:14] Korel Laloix: Osiyo
    [01:14] Raffila Millgrove: hi Korel
    [01:14] Korel Laloix: Good to see you again.
    [01:15] Raffila Millgrove: you too, annoying woman?
    [01:15] Korel Laloix: I don't fit into a lot of people's thought boxes, so I get labled a lot.
    [01:15] Korel Laloix: And I don't mind.... smiles
    [01:15] Raffila Millgrove: did someone actually call you an "annoying woman"...
    [01:16] Korel Laloix: Several times, so I just addopted it.
    [01:16] Raffila Millgrove: strange
    [01:16] Korel Laloix: Usually it was not with the word "woman" though... usually with other interesting terms... lol
    [01:17] Korel Laloix: What you up to today?
    [01:17] Korel Laloix: Just trying to clear my brain so I can get to sleep.

    [01:17] Raffila Millgrove: nothing interesting.. my cable company keeps dropping my connection.. and even went totaly out.. kinda wrecked my day.
    [01:18] Korel Laloix: I hate that.
    [01:18] Korel Laloix: I use a celltower connection.
    [01:18] Raffila Millgrove: yes.. i am new to them.. i was so happy to be blazing fast.. which i am.
    [01:18] Korel Laloix: SO it is evenmore eratic I think.
    [01:18] Raffila Millgrove: but the service is unbelievably.. unreliable.
    [01:19] Korel Laloix: Myabe needs a few weeks to sort out things.
    [01:19] Raffila Millgrove: no it's been like this for six months.
    [01:19] Raffila Millgrove: so.. that's that.. i guess i get my neighbor on it.
    [01:19] Korel Laloix: OH well.
    [01:20] Raffila Millgrove: he's a man who worked for a cable co.. he really reamed them.. when he first moved in here..

    [01:20] Korel Laloix: There is life outside the internet.

    [01:20] Raffila Millgrove: and that's why i have cable.. he got them to upgrade it...
    [01:20] Korel Laloix: Great.
    [01:20] Raffila Millgrove: so. i think he should call them.. since they listen to him.
    [01:20] Korel Laloix: So it should work.
    [01:20] Raffila Millgrove: i'm prety sure they won't listen to me.
    [01:20] Korel Laloix: I am sure you can convince him.... sounds like the sort that would not mind.
    [01:20] Korel Laloix: WHy?

    [01:21] Raffila Millgrove: oh are you a Guardian?
    [01:21] Korel Laloix: Yes.
    [01:21] Korel Laloix: Are you?
    [01:21] Raffila Millgrove: how's that.. what's that entail.
    [01:21] Raffila Millgrove: oh gosh no. i am brand new.
    [01:21] Korel Laloix: After you have been in the group for quite a while, they will ask.
    [01:22] Raffila Millgrove: mm. ok i hope it's a long while cause i don't like responsbility these days. haha
    [01:22] Korel Laloix: I am not really a good one as I don't donate and I never schedule sessions.
    [01:22] Korel Laloix: But I will pick some up like now.

    [01:22] Raffila Millgrove: i just resigned this huge job i had here.. for four years.. of volunteer staff work. i am using that time to do new things like PAB
    [01:23] Korel Laloix: RL or SL?
    [01:23] Raffila Millgrove: Sl
    [01:23] Korel Laloix: Mind if I ask what that job was?
    [01:24] Raffila Millgrove: oh it was a staff job.. medical director and duchess (adminstrator) on a sim.
    [01:24] Raffila Millgrove: discpline, education.. even planning. that kind of thing.
    [01:24] Raffila Millgrove: event planning that was. policy.. etc.
    [01:24] Raffila Millgrove: usual stuff
    [01:24] Korel Laloix: OH... like a medical RP thing?

    [01:25] Raffila Millgrove: well the sim is the largest femdom sim in SL.... but yea.. as med director ... i was in charge of a center where you could rp medical tho that wasn't the main purpose of it.
    [01:25] Raffila Millgrove: anyway.. that phase of my time is over... i resigned.. so what d oyou do here.. when you are not at PAB being a guardian?
    [01:26] Korel Laloix: Love that stuff RL, my first RL girlfriend was/is an MD.
    [01:26] Korel Laloix: And we has some interesting times.
    [01:26] Korel Laloix: Mostly just chat.
    [01:26] Korel Laloix: I mainly do SL when I am bored at work.
    [01:26] Korel Laloix: But use it for study breaks and insomnia as well.

    [01:26] Raffila Millgrove: i used to boss the drs at a hospital.. and both my children are in med field.. so i have real interest in it.
    [01:27] Raffila Millgrove: can you say what you do... rl .. at work?
    [01:27] Korel Laloix: Well, my official title is Exectutive Assistant to the Managing Partner.
    [01:28] Korel Laloix: But what that means is that I am a receptionist that does dry cleaning.
    [01:28] Raffila Millgrove: oh. a law firm?
    [01:28] Korel Laloix: Working on my masters degrees as well.
    [01:28] Korel Laloix: Financial Services.
    [01:28] Raffila Millgrove: cool. what field?
    [01:28] Raffila Millgrove: for your... masters?
    [01:29] Korel Laloix: Studying Biostatistics and Epidemiology.

    [01:29] Raffila Millgrove: ooooh
    [01:29] Raffila Millgrove: that's intersting stuff. my daughter who is a scientist took a lot of biostatistic classes. they were. hard.
    [01:30] Raffila Millgrove: she had to use in her work.
    [01:30] Korel Laloix: I have a good stats mind I am told.
    [01:30] Korel Laloix: But My undergrads were Psych and Math/Stats....
    [01:31] Korel Laloix: So i sort of had to teach myself theBio part.
    [01:31] Korel Laloix: That was painful.
    [01:31] Raffila Millgrove: ah.
    [01:31] Raffila Millgrove: my daughter was biology.. and then genetics.. so it was the statistics math part that was a bit hard on her.
    [01:31] Korel Laloix: understandable.
    [01:31] Korel Laloix: It it not for everyone for sure.
    [01:32] Korel Laloix: I just think it will be a good meaningful job when I graduate.
    [01:32] Korel Laloix: How about you?
    [01:33] Raffila Millgrove: oh i own a small business these days.. i retired from writing a weekly newspaper column.
    [01:34] Raffila Millgrove: so.. does PAB.. do you practice the nine second.. like at work?
    [01:34] Raffila Millgrove: does it help you out any?
    [01:34] Korel Laloix: I do not.
    [01:34] Raffila Millgrove: yeah i evisions this. that if you are working for some demanding person.... how are you going to get away with.. nine seconds. they will notice.
    [01:34] Raffila Millgrove: big time.
    [01:34] Korel Laloix: But I am not of the same background as most here.
    [01:34] Korel Laloix: Well, I do a lot of SL at work really.
    [01:35] Korel Laloix: My boss is fully aware.
    [01:35] Raffila Millgrove: neat that he lets you do it.
    [01:35] Korel Laloix: We almost all our business via email and phone so we rarely have clients in the office.
    [01:35] Raffila Millgrove: ah

    Korel Laloix: I have an odd situation, I actually work for his wife.
    Korel Laloix: Part of the bargian for her staying after his last affiar was that she got to hire the office help.
    Raffila Millgrove: oooooh
    Raffila Millgrove: whoa that's uncomfortable. but i guess you are ok by her then since she hired you.
    Korel Laloix: So in a walked... 4'9, acne, no chest, fishbowl haircut and chemically labotomized with retalin.... and I could type.
    Raffila Millgrove: ooh you are a dainty girl.. how cool
    Korel Laloix: SO I got the job.. that was 9 years ago now.
    Raffila Millgrove: you ever see this Lolita fashion stuff from Japan. you'd be perfect for it.
    Korel Laloix: 4'9 and 89lbs... dainty might not be the word.
    Raffila Millgrove: really. i think dainty is perfect word.
    Korel Laloix: I keep my inventory under 333, so I don't collect a lot of things.
    Raffila Millgrove: like a little doll.. might as well go with it.
    Korel Laloix: 78lbs
    Korel Laloix: Sorry, bad typo.
    Raffila Millgrove: this lolital look.. it's very hot.. in that it's kind of a mix.. of.. a doll like girl. but who is older.. so you know she's a woman.
    Raffila Millgrove: so it's not really pervy at all.
    Raffila Millgrove: very sweet. and fun.. and cuteness. Play stuff.
    Korel Laloix: Not waht I am into anymore.. But thank you.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh ok. well it was a cheerful thought. Raffi loves lolita looks.
    Korel Laloix: A while back when I was sort of renting myself out, I played that.
    Korel Laloix: But I am RL, not SL.
    Raffila Millgrove: it was on tv today. a great new show from Japan.. celebrating Japanese fashion influnece globally. they did lolitas today.
    Korel Laloix: You should see me tring to get into bars RL... lol.. that is funny.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh i was talking real life. not sl...
    Korel Laloix: Yes.
    Korel Laloix: Not a SL fashion person really.
    Korel Laloix: RL I just go with soft butch.. I am way not a girly girl.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh
    Raffila Millgrove: i do a soft butch sometimes.. but.. i don't think i am too believable in it.
    Korel Laloix: It takes effort for me.
    Raffila Millgrove: i usually forget to take off my dangly earring or something and screw it up that way.
    Raffila Millgrove: i go to this bar here.. and they have seats.. labelled fem and butch and i am never sure which one to get on.
    Korel Laloix: It is difficult playing the part someteims, but i am told I make up for my shortness with my attitude... grins
    Korel Laloix: It is a silly distinction actually.
    Raffila Millgrove: well i am not a lesbian. i am bi.. so i don't really.. know .. i never exactly was either one.. just a person who liked women.
    Korel Laloix: I am gold star lez.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh nice.
    Korel Laloix: Well, pain int he ass really sometimes.
    Korel Laloix: But it is what I am.
    Raffila Millgrove nods.
    Korel Laloix: I find I either drift butch or femme depending on the reltationship.
    Korel Laloix: Right now, my gf is very femme...
    Korel Laloix: SO I am butching a bit more... not by plan though.
    Korel Laloix: I just happens.
    Korel Laloix: Ru is also twenty years older than me, so that might have something to do with it as well... smiles
    Raffila Millgrove: oh. so you havea gf. do you live together?
    Korel Laloix: No... but... I am sort of the Uhaul type.. so I want to.. but....
    Korel Laloix: I am looking for the woman to spend the rest of my life with at the moment... so not wanting to rush into things.
    Raffila Millgrove nodes.
    Raffila Millgrove: nod
    Korel Laloix: nodes... smiles
    Raffila Millgrove: so does the age difference.. does this bother you?
    Korel Laloix: Been in a lot of read recently.
    Korel Laloix: It does.
    Korel Laloix: And it does not.
    Korel Laloix: Still thinking about it.
    Korel Laloix: She is my bestreinds Aunt.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh. is your friend aware of your relationship with one another?
    Korel Laloix: So sort of a strange situation.
    Korel Laloix: PEg introduced us.... smiles
    Korel Laloix: But it is working out well I think.
    Korel Laloix: Ru is rather passivie in somethings, and I tend to be very bossy, so it works.
    Raffila Millgrove: ah.
    Korel Laloix: Another reason why I annoy people.
    Korel Laloix: Short dyke syndrome.... if you let me, I will take over... grins
    Raffila Millgrove: mm. well i will let you.
    Korel Laloix: Tease
    Raffila Millgrove: that's cause i am a domme and i dont' bother to exert my authority unless i need to... i save up my energy.
    Raffila Millgrove: seriously.
    Korel Laloix: I know exactly what you mean.
    Raffila Millgrove: i am a great team player .. i am happy to let other people lead.
    Korel Laloix: When I said while ago about renting myself out, that is exactly what I was doing.
    Korel Laloix: Did that for a year or so and it really took a lot from me.
    Raffila Millgrove: in fact.. that is exactly why i am over here.. so i dont' have to.. be .. center of anyone's attention.. can listen to others... i got quite a reptuation by accident of being an expert.. a wise voice. called "yoda".. this freaks me out. i have always been one to direct from behind scenes.. not in front.
    Raffila Millgrove: this is in sl? you were escorting?
    Korel Laloix: No, RL.
    Raffila Millgrove: you were an escort in real life? is that what you mean by renting self out?
    Korel Laloix: Well, with age you learn things and how to tell thing.
    Korel Laloix: Yes.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh.
    Korel Laloix: And that does draw people to you.
    Raffila Millgrove: well.. i don't have any experience in that.... but... my friend who is one in holland had interesting htoughts on it.
    Raffila Millgrove: but it does seem like it could pull/drain a lot of energy from you.
    Korel Laloix: It was not good... long story...
    Korel Laloix: But ended up doing that more as an addition than fun or the like. Was very not healthy.
    Raffila Millgrove: you mean addition?
    Korel Laloix: addiction.
    Raffila Millgrove: like to your finances.. an additional income?
    Korel Laloix: Sorry.
    Raffila Millgrove: or ok. addiction.
    Raffila Millgrove: mm.
    Korel Laloix: And an addition.
    Korel Laloix: Did quite well really.
    Korel Laloix: But I got out of control, ended up in jail from a client that thought I went to far.
    Korel Laloix: Bad news... had to get out.
    Korel Laloix: Ended up in court ordered counseling.
    Raffila Millgrove: did it help?
    Raffila Millgrove: the counseling?
    Korel Laloix: Very much so.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh.. that's good to know.
    Korel Laloix: I did not have the most nurturing childhood.
    Raffila Millgrove: well you must find it soothing around here then? you find PAB kind of peaceful and soothing.
    Raffila Millgrove: ?
    Korel Laloix: And it all sort of came out then.
    Korel Laloix: It is good for a chat.
    Korel Laloix: Something I will chat about and some I wont.
    Korel Laloix: Am with you as you seem to know the business.
    Korel Laloix: But I will heavily edit this log.... lol
    Raffila Millgrove: oh ok. i was going to ask you.. if you were ok with some of the things you said.. to be up on the net.. but you are a Guardian.. so i figured you knew what you were doing.. if you can edit? maybe that's a good thing.
    Korel Laloix: OH I will.
    Raffila Millgrove: ok i hug you goodbye and hope you get good rest tonight.
    Korel Laloix: I have my life mostly straight now.
    Korel Laloix: Ciao.
    Korel Laloix: do na da go hv i
    Raffila Millgrove: ?hug Korel
    Raffila Millgrove: /hug korel
    Korel Laloix: Sorry, I don't hug.
    Korel Laloix: One of the things I am still working on with my shink.
    Raffila Millgrove: you want to hug me?
    Raffila Millgrove: /hug korel
    Korel Laloix: Funny, you even asking got me half way to a panic attack.
    Raffila Millgrove: oh ok.
    Korel Laloix: No, sorry I don't hug.
    Raffila Millgrove: most people like to hug me.. i am a good one.
    Raffila Millgrove: that's cool.
    Raffila Millgrove: i don't hug much real time.. only people i know have healing hugs.
    Korel Laloix: It is a serious phobia for me.
    Raffila Millgrove: maybe another day. you take care. bye now.
    Raffila Millgrove: no problem...
    Korel Laloix: Ciao. 



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    I feel it was brave of Korel to post this original recording, removing the editted version. It
    also was an honor to be entrusted to listen to her thoughts. Raffi
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