2009.05.17 01:00 - Just be !

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    The Guardian for this meeting was Moon Fargis. The comments are by Moon Fargis.

    Moon Fargis: morning sophia
    SophiaSharon Larnia: morning :))
    Stargate Tone: good morning Sophia :)*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: love your tag Moon lol


    (Monk(ey) of light)


    Moon Fargis: :-D

    SophiaSharon Larnia: and what is this lovely visal here?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: visual*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :)
    Moon Fargis: ah visal ?
    Moon Fargis: where?:)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: heheh
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i must be seeing things again
    Moon Fargis: could be :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yay!!!
    Moon Fargis: ahh hi exploding susi
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Susi, you came in a cloud of sparkles
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    Moon Fargis: so someone got a nice topic in mind this morning ?:)
    Susi Alcott: starpower
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :))
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes it exists so now what??
    SophiaSharon Larnia grins
    Stargate Tone: them little devils ?
    Stargate Tone: which for example changes ppls titels :)***
    Stargate Tone: (love them)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: actually jumped there for a min
    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol
    Stargate Tone: you Sophia like them too ?
    Moon Fargis: meep
    SophiaSharon Larnia: im sorry , like what? (jerks herself awake)
    Stargate Tone: lol
    Stargate Tone: such tiny delvils; with very very tiny red horns on the forehead
    Stargate Tone: which apperes now and then
    Stargate Tone: like such appered into Moon to change his title :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: holy moly what the heck!!!!!!
    Stargate Tone: as they do such things :)*
    Moon Fargis: *mews*
    Moon Fargis: *mews*
    Stargate Tone: yes; sometimes they play to be this big too :)
    Moon Fargis: *giggles*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: /purrs
    Moon Fargis purrrrrrsssssssss
    Stargate Tone: but somehow they always do something that ppl can see that they in fact are only tiny *
    Stargate Tone: not mening to hurt anybody
    SophiaSharon Larnia: well
    Moon Fargis: hmmm yummy auto recording device
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there is nmore than meets the eye in that isnt there
    Stargate Tone: yes
    SophiaSharon Larnia: im scared all of a sudden
    Moon Fargis purrrrrrsssssssss
    Moon Fargis: amazing what visuals do to humans :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: this is surreal
    Stargate Tone: you scared ?
    Stargate Tone: seriously ?
    Moon Fargis: *giggles*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it tied into my thought
    SophiaSharon Larnia: stream
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and then it was a bouncing cat
    Moon Fargis: and now youre awake ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: perhaps not yet show me more lol
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahha
    Moon Fargis: ok:)
    Stargate Tone: so you released yourself from some fear feeling it ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it does not compute
    Stargate Tone: sry I dont understand 'compute'...
    Moon Fargis: *mews*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am reading too much into things i just had a thought is all
    SophiaSharon Larnia: the beast moon turned into is ugly, like the thoughts ive been having
    SophiaSharon Larnia: pets moon, soft furrrrrrrrrrr
    Moon Fargis purrrrrrsssssssss
    Moon Fargis: ohh n the beast is not ugly as your thoughts arent too
    SophiaSharon Larnia: nice and warrrrrm on my lap
    Moon Fargis: but you pretent it to be ugly
    Moon Fargis: he is a loving beast you know ^^
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it is the ugliness in the world it is just too much, to open my heart is to see it all, i see enough as it is
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am a nurse and i work in a huge inner city hospital, i see suffering up close and personal
    Moon Fargis: yes but do you call them ugly ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and that is just the beginning of this conversation
    SophiaSharon Larnia: sometimes it gets really ugly
    Stargate Tone: ...I've met that more than much as the healer...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but to think that what i see of ugliness is something lse in another form is beyond me yet
    SophiaSharon Larnia: in practice
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am so tired
    Moon Fargis: yes theoretical you know that everything is same beutifull, just your mind who judge about it
    Moon Fargis: how early is it for you ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes! i keep hearing that and it makes me cringe judge judge judge
    SophiaSharon Larnia: judge judge judge
    Moon Fargis: *giggles*
    Moon Fargis: you know faith ?
    Moon Fargis: "faith wunderlan"
    Moon Fargis: (wunderland)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: no
    Moon Fargis: she is a nurse too and went throught the same as you do now
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i dont deserve how nice you are
    Moon Fargis: and she made up herselve
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it goes much much deeper than i can say easily
    Stargate Tone: we know her yes
    Moon Fargis: yes i know what you mean
    Moon Fargis: as if there where a bad voice inside you who tells lots of worse things
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am seeing the world as an infinite number of parrellel universes comensing at the same 'time', all trying to work on a problem, much as a computer would...and this world is a failure
    SophiaSharon Larnia: when i stop to appreciate, i hear ONE ONE ONE
    Stargate Tone: or full of possibilities
    SophiaSharon Larnia: like a gong
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Gong ONE Gong ONE
    Moon Fargis: a gong can put you into a state of emptyness for a short time
    SophiaSharon Larnia: am i living in them all
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but that is the part of buddhism i have the most difficulty with
    SophiaSharon Larnia: ohm = ONE
    Stargate Tone: what is that one to you ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: just what i see
    Moon Fargis: hmhm but maybe ONE doesnt mean one being one thing
    SophiaSharon Larnia: sorry i can only talk about this so many times I am so boring
    Moon Fargis: ic an mean ONEness
    Stargate Tone: Ur not boring
    Moon Fargis: no you talk about this the first time to me
    Stargate Tone: pls 'drop' that *
    SophiaSharon Larnia smiles
    Stargate Tone: well...Sophia
    Stargate Tone: you are talking about something we are aware of...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oh yes there is so much
    Stargate Tone: that's been my 'life' for ages...
    Stargate Tone: life
    SophiaSharon Larnia: this is the real wall
    Stargate Tone: is always chaos
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i have been deluding myself about what the wall is
    Stargate Tone: the more you see, the more that is chaos...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i hear screaming
    Stargate Tone: *
    SophiaSharon Larnia: not literally
    Stargate Tone: understand
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but sometimes literally
    Stargate Tone: *
    Moon Fargis: yes and you know also where that screaming come from
    Moon Fargis: do you ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i think i do
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and that is too much
    Moon Fargis: so where does it come from ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there are many sources
    Stargate Tone: *
    SophiaSharon Larnia: some of it is physical some of it is emotional
    Stargate Tone: and the difference is ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahah rubs moons tummmmy
    Moon Fargis: so sophia, you screamin not becasue you see suffering, i belive you scream because you lnow that what you think about that what you see is totally wrong about the truth you know
    SophiaSharon Larnia: physical is either a natural result or harm inflicted to others, emotional is social reasons, hugggggely simplied of course
    Stargate Tone: but where's the difference how you experience them ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: have to read that several times moon
    Stargate Tone: Moon means that you have learned certain thought models of what is ugly , wrong and so
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes i know what i think is as bad as what i see
    SophiaSharon Larnia: ok
    Stargate Tone: so; that is not always as you think that something is..like screaming
    Stargate Tone: but to see 'behind'...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it would be easy to see behind, if what is behind is something as adorable as a bouncing cat
    Stargate Tone: but...imo...it would be quite urgent for you to notice that what is the purpose that you see so widely
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes it concerns me too
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i dont know why
    Stargate Tone: so; you have taken the steps to open yourself to see
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i explored learning what a 'heart' path is a year ago
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there is no such thing really, but when i did that that is when this started
    Moon Fargis: heart path
    Moon Fargis: can you explain this ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i concerned myself in theological and philosophical aspects of reality, but this is thinking from the head ie from how we are taught to think
    SophiaSharon Larnia: so wanted to know what it would be like to circumvent what i was taught
    Stargate Tone: and now you wrote the reason
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i cant explain it really
    Stargate Tone: the reason why you opened yourself to see
    Stargate Tone: to see what there is
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it is very easy to say not judge
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but my judgement are not based on what i was taught
    Stargate Tone: but based on how you feel
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it is what i know to be just dead wrong do i need to list these things
    Stargate Tone: but that is much based on how you think
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there are things humans should never do to humans
    Stargate Tone: could you 'name' some things that are dead wrong ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: rape incest, destroying innocence in any way
    Stargate Tone: (been raped many times)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: to accept that this all part of the one is just a huge noncompute for me
    Stargate Tone: do you completely judge the raper ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: no of course not there are many reasons how situations like these come to pass
    Moon Fargis: sophia, this reminds me, met a women wich son was raped and she sure judged him for that, but , she made up her mind and awake , then she felt compassion with the raper
    SophiaSharon Larnia: iunderstand this
    Moon Fargis: cus her sun just growed stronger out of this but the reaper will stay weak and driven by his emotons
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes i understand
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it is the fact that it exists at all
    SophiaSharon Larnia: this line of thought is poison and i dont usually voice it
    Stargate Tone: yet; there is much to judge; deeds
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i understand it is situational
    Stargate Tone: in case nothing shall ever be judged, nobody can change anything
    Moon Fargis: yes judgement is needed for the social life
    Stargate Tone: if nothing is judged to be wrong; there's no new learning
    Moon Fargis: but its poison when it affects your inner self deeply
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that is an aspect of judgement i havent thought of
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am poisoned
    Moon Fargis: so, sadly the antidode can only be produced by yourself
    Moon Fargis: we can just help you to figure ut how if you wish
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i can not stress enough it is not the individuals who perpetrate these things, it is not the innocent for whom i rage, i rage because i refuse to accept this things
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that they exist
    SophiaSharon Larnia: so
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i know starpower exists now what
    Moon Fargis: i know alien exists now what :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahah
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i feel i was never supposed to be here on this earth
    Stargate Tone: why so ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: blah blah blah
    Moon Fargis: ahyes ans still, i am laying on your lap now and susi mixes up your hair
    SophiaSharon Larnia is shaking
    Stargate Tone: wouldnt' you want to work for that the resons for example that some turns to be the raper would change ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes of course
    Stargate Tone: ...so...can it be that it's the reason why Ur here ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i hold the old world and the new in my hands :)
    Moon Fargis: and you are a nurse, a woman who does good and help so manny people, you know they are most thankfull that you are be on their side and nurses are so important, sadly they recive so soldem a thankyou
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Moon Fargis: *cuddles sophia "thank you"*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i dont want a thank you i just dont want to be sworn at
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :)
    Stargate Tone: so; to accept, that there are wrong things
    Moon Fargis: too late *puts the thank you in her bag and closes it *
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oh missed that line, thank you!
    Stargate Tone: that does not mean that you'de need to accept them
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but i thought thats what appreciating the presence of appearance was
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oops you know whay i mean
    Moon Fargis: now trhow away this pab stuff for a second :)
    Stargate Tone: only in case you chooce so
    Moon Fargis: (ill better delete this from the log :)
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :)
    Stargate Tone: thank you Moon for reminding that yes; you can delete lines :)**
    SophiaSharon Larnia is listening
    Stargate Tone: yes Dear Lady
    Stargate Tone: you never need to accept bad things; never
    Stargate Tone: only to accept that they are...that's realizing that they are
    Stargate Tone: and try to have peace with all you cannot do anything
    Stargate Tone: so; dont judge yourself that you feel bad for bad things
    Stargate Tone: the saying, that there is not bad or good; that's more than laggy
    Stargate Tone: cuz sure there are bad and good things
    Stargate Tone: that's just that nobody can name the certain thing to be bad always and under all of them circumstances
    Stargate Tone: all depends on so many things
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes i does
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it*
    Stargate Tone: so; as well as you can set your hands onto your ears not to hear the physical screaming
    Stargate Tone: you are allowed to close your ears of the motionat screaming too
    Stargate Tone: but you need to want that yourself
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but it is all one, everyhting
    Stargate Tone: but because you want to learn to understand
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that is what i do not understand
    Stargate Tone: but that all is not anyting such one, that there wouldn't be one's own
    Stargate Tone: understand you Sophia
    Stargate Tone: you have let yourself to think too much that there would be such
    Stargate Tone: even it in fact is only one saying of something that ppl have not figures out how to describe
    Stargate Tone: as well as that 'nothing is bad or good'....
    Moon Fargis: " To one awarenes to be awake is to see throught the clouds of the mind, breaking its chains to see and feel clearly oneness in many"
    Moon Fargis points at the oneness
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: _/!\_
    Stargate Tone: so; to see and feel, is not to be ...
    Stargate Tone: oneness; to be in contact, to share; to expereince what other ppl feel and experience
    Stargate Tone: simple word; emphaty
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes
    Stargate Tone: you have charachter to share; to ease other ppls pains sharing them....
    Stargate Tone: that is you; that is what you are
    Stargate Tone: ...that is to be the healer....
    Stargate Tone: to love and share sufferings
    Stargate Tone: but there's limits...
    Stargate Tone: as also human body has the naturall limit
    Stargate Tone: as well human brain has....
    Stargate Tone: it 'takes time' to prosess new things
    Stargate Tone: new thoughts, sayings
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i have a naturakl empathy that i have blocked off through the years
    SophiaSharon Larnia: why i felt i needed a heart path
    Stargate Tone: understand
    Moon Fargis: but with this heart path your empathy growed even stronger
    Moon Fargis: as its not comping from your mind
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but i cornored myself
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: your saying i am thinking about it too much
    Moon Fargis: no :)
    Stargate Tone: nope
    Moon Fargis: but yo chooses a way that frees your "empathy"
    Stargate Tone: you've been taken certain thoughts to be 'clear' even they have not been
    Moon Fargis: thats why you heard the screaming since you where on this heart path
    Moon Fargis: and maybe you choosesn this by instinct
    Stargate Tone: yet; it was Your choice and you did it for the reason
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am here to be a warrior but am so damaged myself
    Moon Fargis: youre here to be
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i do things but it is not enough
    Stargate Tone: well; nobody is above that natural laws
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am here to be
    Stargate Tone: for youself and for the ppl you wanna help
    Stargate Tone: for yourself cuz you suffered to see so much suffering on earth
    Stargate Tone: so yuo decided to come and help
    Stargate Tone: to bring your best to do what you can
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that ios what they say
    Stargate Tone: so ; you cornered yourself for the reasons you didn't know
    Stargate Tone: then you opened yourself to see why
    Stargate Tone: now you know more
    Stargate Tone: you have been able to see more wider what's hurted you always
    Stargate Tone: but see; you didn't judge the raper even before; but you judged the deed
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes
    Stargate Tone: so ; dont judge yourself to judge the bad thing
    Stargate Tone: you dont judge the person who did/do so....
    Stargate Tone: ....took tens of years for me to understand, that those men also loved me; they just couldn't hold themselves....
    Stargate Tone: still I'm not healed of my those experiencies
    Stargate Tone: so sure such deed IS bad and wrong
    SophiaSharon Larnia: stargate i am so sorry you deserve so much
    Stargate Tone: many women lost there whole life to pain for such
    Stargate Tone: well...I'm only one 'example'....
    Moon Fargis: sophia, take a look here too, http://picasaweb.google.com/Sylvio.Kurze its my webalbum where i tryd to capture the beauty of this world , espcially look at the Impressions album please
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there is so much beauty here too it hurts to look at it
    Moon Fargis: why do you think it hurts ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that i can lose myself to
    Stargate Tone: cuz the beauty brings up the sadness there's blocked...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i think i am too attached and dont know how to break free i can not let go unless i know it is safe
    Stargate Tone: and naturall wish from loving heart rises that 'oh if all could be only this beautiful'
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes
    Moon Fargis: youre safe now and here sophia
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes and dont deserve such kindness
    Stargate Tone: you do
    Moon Fargis: ohhh you do :)
    Stargate Tone: you deserve
    Moon Fargis: everyone does
    Stargate Tone: just cuz you are what you are
    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol, well can not argue that everyone does
    Moon Fargis: i can :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: eh?
    Stargate Tone: me too :)
    Stargate Tone: ah yes Sophia; such persons that wanna own and rule over other equal beings, dont deserve love
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but that is judging
    Moon Fargis: cus for me the differences from people are there, but i dont let them affect my mind
    Stargate Tone: cuz they only uses that force to be more tough rulers
    SophiaSharon Larnia: do you mean no love at all, or t"ough love"
    Moon Fargis: ah maybe we mexed up things now
    Moon Fargis: mixed
    SophiaSharon Larnia: no im here
    Stargate Tone: I mean that one who uses the force of love the wrong way
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes
    Stargate Tone: do not deserve to be loved
    Stargate Tone: to use the wrong way is to own and rule over other ppl
    Moon Fargis: well i see that in a slight different way but sure thats stars opinion
    Stargate Tone: cuz all of the ppl have right to be free
    Stargate Tone: that's the highest law of that nature/Universe
    Stargate Tone: love can be the key and the answer for such person to change him/herself
    SophiaSharon Larnia: you mean use peoples love to control
    Stargate Tone: hmm...well; that can be one way
    SophiaSharon Larnia: you just described the abrahamic church
    Stargate Tone: so many ppl are used only cuz they love
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes that is true
    Stargate Tone: but nobody is ment to be the slave even in the name of love
    Stargate Tone: everybody sure has the right to chooce to be...
    Stargate Tone: so; here we come to the saying; nothign is good or bad....
    Stargate Tone: cuz ppl have free will to chooce
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it could be argued that these people who let themselves be controlled this way, 'chose' this before they were born to earth
    SophiaSharon Larnia: for a reason
    Stargate Tone: Ur right; that's why it is not easy to say if such phase is right or wrong
    Moon Fargis: well some even do it by there own will.. i think its called sado maso.. but .. thats another story :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes
    SophiaSharon Larnia: again a choice
    Stargate Tone: in a way,,,cuz that phase can be come based on too much bad experienced without own choice
    Moon Fargis: oh reminds me
    Stargate Tone: so; who's to know who's choice has been what....
    Moon Fargis: fael did once a golden sentence... or was it ade..
    Moon Fargis: 'Brokenness' is an inability to effectively find good responses to situations because of interference caused by previously learned responses.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes true, that
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but i believe that we chose to born in this earth for a reason
    Moon Fargis: well
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i just dont know how much control our higher selves commence once we are here
    Stargate Tone: we make that choice each time we wake to the human world....
    SophiaSharon Larnia: or how vieled it really is
    Stargate Tone: ah; nobody knows the answer to that but knowing all of the individual
    Stargate Tone: but..as U've been looking around; you've seen how much ppl hurt each other
    Stargate Tone: very seldom that has the true purpose
    Stargate Tone: only the reason...
    Moon Fargis: morning fael
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Hi Fael!
    Stargate Tone: as yes; there's huge difference if there's a reason only, not the purpose
    Fael Illyar: Morning Moon, Star. Hi SophiaSharon :)
    Stargate Tone: but that's also something that ppl mix very often to be the one and the same; the reason and the purpose
    Stargate Tone: Good Morning Fael
    Stargate Tone: but...just like Freud said; 'sometimes cigarr is only a cigarr' :)
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    Moon Fargis: so sophia, lots wof words went throught the last hour
    Stargate Tone: (Moon may have much work to foreward the log today :)*)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :) yes thank you so very much
    Fael Illyar: Well, unless he passes on commenting it :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i can not say
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i do feel like im whining though :))
    Stargate Tone: well; we have been spoken very freely :)
    Moon Fargis: i think no comments are needed :)
    Stargate Tone: nope
    Fael Illyar: Ah, needs lines removed.
    Stargate Tone: maybe some
    Moon Fargis: well only if wished to be so
    SophiaSharon Larnia: funny, i keep thinking 'i did not sign up for this!', when in fact i think i did
    Moon Fargis: sophia. you did sign up for sl
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahaha
    Moon Fargis: silly :)
    Fael Illyar smiles 'Yes, I've found myself doing that sometimes.'
    Stargate Tone: so pls Sophia, notice your open heart and mind, that you can also say the wrong thing and notice that it was the wrong thing/thought
    SophiaSharon Larnia stomps the floor
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes stargate your right
    Stargate Tone: so just trust more to yourself and let you to 'hear' all of them teachings by your heart
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that means i have to open it
    Stargate Tone: and you'll find them answers much quicker
    Stargate Tone: and that happens with less thinking with brain :)***
    Moon Fargis: yep
    Moon Fargis: and please look at my pictures
    Stargate Tone: well,,,most of them 'teachers' are men..and man's brain are different...
    Moon Fargis: *mumblegrumble*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: *giggles*
    Moon Fargis: we are.. thinking more simple i know :)
    Fael Illyar: more simple? ... not always :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i agree Fael
    Moon Fargis: well
    Stargate Tone: not always, but more often
    Stargate Tone: but sometimes that's also 'wrong'...
    Stargate Tone: you know
    Stargate Tone: for that
    Moon Fargis: lets say like this.. when mens what a coffe they say "honey can you make me a coffe please?" when woman wants a coffe they say "ahh i think i could have a coffee now"
    Stargate Tone: it's ment for women and men to work together...
    SophiaSharon Larnia: theyre beautiful, Moon
    SophiaSharon Larnia cries
    Stargate Tone: (see them bees :)***)
    Stargate Tone: and let joy to rise too :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i take pictures too (note i did not say photography)
    Stargate Tone: well...who sais what' pic and what' photography ?
    Fael Illyar: snapshotography?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yupper
    Stargate Tone: in a way kidding now
    SophiaSharon Larnia: heheh
    Moon Fargis: sophia take your time but kow that such beauty is always every second everywhere on the world
    Stargate Tone: but...well...that's one way we lower ouself...
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    Susi Alcott: shall stand up....
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :))
    Fael Illyar used to say she's not an artist when people called her that.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: thank you for your kindnesses
    Susi Alcott: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i appreciate it more than i can say
    Susi Alcott: starpower
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahaha
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    Moon Fargis: ring the bell please sophia :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i dont show my pictures, no particualr reason, i just think they mean something to me and no one elde
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahaha
    SophiaSharon Larnia: clicks all over mooon
    Fael Illyar: that no-one else is bound to be false :)
    Moon Fargis: nuuu
    Moon Fargis: the templebell :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: clicks all over moon like a maniac
    Moon Fargis: *giggles* heeeey that tickleS!
    SophiaSharon Larnia: ONNNNNEEEEEEE
    Moon Fargis: manny
    SophiaSharon Larnia: LOL
    SophiaSharon Larnia: many???
    Moon Fargis: ^^
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oh yes
    SophiaSharon Larnia: that is awesome i can make that
    SophiaSharon Larnia: just learned how
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but didnt think of that
    Fael Illyar giggles.
    Stargate Tone: ah; would U Moon return Susi's pillow as he forgot it ?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: perhaps not the anim
    SophiaSharon Larnia: been building here like a fiend, i think it is an escape from rl
    SophiaSharon Larnia: should join a sl 12 step program
    Moon Fargis: 12 a magical umber:)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :))
    Fael Illyar: escape ... or perhaps simply choosing to do what has you feel better? ... Well, not sure if there's a difference :)
    Stargate Tone: ah...goes to make some morning coffee....
    Stargate Tone: brb
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am a touch agorophobc
    Fael Illyar: But, you're doing it because you feel a need to.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it is fun too
    Fael Illyar: Unless you find another way to meet that need, stopping is going to pose a lot of problems.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: omg now im gonna here One Many One Many thank a lot
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahah
    Moon Fargis: *giggles*
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: have to start selling stuff just to pay for my sl habit jones
    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol
    Moon Fargis: ^^
    Moon Fargis: *ponders who cleans up the mess*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i want to make house like those in romantic joy, but a hell of a lot cheaper for people
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahaha
    SophiaSharon Larnia: messy toys
    Fael Illyar: how much does the house in romantic joy cost?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: anywhere from 1200L to 4000's
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and more prob
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but theyre gorgeous
    SophiaSharon Larnia: if youre into that sort of thing
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and a lot of time goes into them, and skill, but that is just too much $L
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i want to make drums with anims for a drum circle but Good ones
    Fael Illyar: Yes, takes a lot of skills to make those all by yourself.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: made some but my scripting skills are not that good
    SophiaSharon Larnia: still on rotations and such
    Stargate Tone: b
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but the houses are pretty easy, the textures are the hardest part
    Fael Illyar: wb :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: wb
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i want to use pab land to build, removing everything of course but have been unwilling to 'use' it
    Stargate Tone: ty
    Moon Fargis: meep:? [3:04] Second Life: Your object 'Object' has been returned to your inventory lost and found folder by Governor Linden from parcel 'Protected Land' at Gukyeol 227, 215 due to parcel auto return.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: my own land is so laggy
    Fael Illyar: unwilling?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: what?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: checks about land
    Fael Illyar: perhaps a part of the temble bell?
    Moon Fargis: seems some part of the bell exploded at the next land :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol!!
    Fael Illyar: things sometimes fly a bit far when you explode them like that :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: whoops
    Stargate Tone: *
    Fael Illyar: to avoid such, the objects need a script that handles it.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes, i dont want it to seem like i am part of the group just to use the land
    SophiaSharon Larnia: same with claiming a parcel
    Moon Fargis: ahwel ive been called for meal now
    Moon Fargis: will be right back ^^
    SophiaSharon Larnia: go eat :)) enjoy
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and i do not really need it
    Fael Illyar: Well, you're obviously in the group because you were invited :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: would use the land for group stuff, like a drum circle, a game table, and a lace with a bookcase with peoples poems :))))
    SophiaSharon Larnia: place*
    SophiaSharon Larnia: not that anyone would go there
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but it would be fun anyway
    Fael Illyar: You could always ask Pema or Storm about it :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: sure
    Fael Illyar: It's not like there's a shortage of land PaB owns
    Fael Illyar: plenty of that left still mostly unused.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: (one many)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: onemany
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hmmmm
    Fael Illyar: onemany?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Stargate and Moon reminded me that one is many i was thinking the other way around
    SophiaSharon Larnia: did i have it backwards?
    Stargate Tone: Sophia 'taking' an other look to 'oneness'...
    Stargate Tone: well; think you can say it both ways :)
    Fael Illyar: but if you need to do something to consider yourself eligible for that, you can try to see if someone would want to give you their Guardian timeslot. Or perhaps ask Pema/Storm if there's something else.
    Fael Illyar: if you take any one way, it's backwards :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oh i would love to take a slot, but i do shift work
    SophiaSharon Larnia: 12 hours
    SophiaSharon Larnia: alternate days and nights
    Fael Illyar: no predictable schedule?
    SophiaSharon Larnia: so there is no time at all that i am dependable
    SophiaSharon Larnia: no what is predictable is every third weekend
    SophiaSharon Larnia: but it may be on day shift, or night
    Fael Illyar: wow, that's quite unpredictable
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i should scribe though
    SophiaSharon Larnia: it suits me
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i have never worked in an office in my life
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i have always been at the bedside
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i have a lot more time off than most people, but when i work, i disappear for several days
    Fael Illyar: Scribing seems to be perhaps a bit more work than having a regular time slot.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and i mean that "I" disappear
    SophiaSharon Larnia: oh that is very good then
    Fael Illyar: another option is of course volunteering to do slots for others when they request replacements.
    Moon Fargis: ^_^ *Nahm Nahm Nahm!* ^_^
    Stargate Tone: wb
    Fael Illyar: wb Moon :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: there have been severla requests in the last few eeks, and you may not beleive this....but i had to work Every One of Them, it is weird
    Moon Fargis: thx
    SophiaSharon Larnia: wb Moon that was fats you mustve googled yur food
    SophiaSharon Larnia: fast*
    Fael Illyar giggles.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: goobled* oh god
    Fael Illyar: Well, it happens :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: nvm!!!!!!
    Moon Fargis: instant vene delivery :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes it was weird
    SophiaSharon Larnia: like it was 'on purpose'
    Fael Illyar: Also, the "deadlines" for Scribings are a bit strict but it doesn't seem uncommon that people miss them by a few days.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: i would just be leery of putting my own interpretations on things for starters
    SophiaSharon Larnia: second, i realize there are a lot ofpeople in the group that think differently
    SophiaSharon Larnia: even from a simple sentence interpretation
    SophiaSharon Larnia: so would have to be carefu;
    Fael Illyar: Who says their interpretation is the correct one? (or if there even is a correct one)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes i understand, but there may, or may not, be tender toes, i am conscious about such things
    SophiaSharon Larnia: perhaps too much
    Stargate Tone: _/!\_
    Fael Illyar: Well, that is up to you to decide :)
    Fael Illyar: what I can say is that it does make working with a group of people difficult.
    Fael Illyar: can't please everyone, no matter what you.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: :))
    Fael Illyar: and often people only tell you when they don't like what you do.
    Moon Fargis: often but seldom
    Moon Fargis: :)
    Fael Illyar: Although, at PaB I've seen a lot of praise going around too :)
    Fael Illyar: yes, true, people seldom tell you even if they don't like what you do.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes Fael, i have felt once or twice that i have been gentlely slapped but that is my oversensitivity
    Stargate Tone: but they speak behind your back
    SophiaSharon Larnia: this i did not know
    Fael Illyar: well... there are many people who aren't even aware when they slap someone, unless it's a big slap.
    SophiaSharon Larnia: no i know it was intentional
    SophiaSharon Larnia: not*****
    SophiaSharon Larnia: intentional
    Fael Illyar used to do that more than now.. slap people without knowing it.
    Moon Fargis: sophia
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes??
    Moon Fargis: you ate breakfast already ?
    Moon Fargis: or got some coffee?:)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: nope
    Moon Fargis: hush
    Moon Fargis: atleast coffee:)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes coffee
    SophiaSharon Larnia: why Moon???
    Moon Fargis: you will see when you slurped the first bit of the hot coffee :)
    Fael Illyar had jasmine green tea.
    Stargate Tone: just slurped her coffee *
    SophiaSharon Larnia: slurppp
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    Moon Fargis purrrrrrsssssssss
    Fael Illyar purrrrrrsssssssss
    SophiaSharon Larnia: ^VV^^V^PuRRrSss^VV^^V
    SophiaSharon Larnia: ^VV^^V^PuRRrSss^VV^^V
    SophiaSharon Larnia: geez
    SophiaSharon Larnia: giggles
    Fael Illyar: yes?
    Fael Illyar: chain purring :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: hahaha
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    Moon Fargis: hihihihi
    Moon Fargis: again again again!
    Fael Illyar purrrrrrsssssssss
    Stargate Tone: well; something there is that I can also do :)*
    Stargate Tone: I DIDN'T DO IT
    Stargate Tone: I DIDN'T DO IT
    Stargate Tone: I DIDN'T DO IT
    Fael Illyar smiles.
    Fael Illyar purrrrrrsssssssss
    SophiaSharon Larnia: the only gestures i used where the ones when i was on the pole
    SophiaSharon Larnia: LOL
    SophiaSharon Larnia: "But i like a cookie."
    Fael Illyar: what sort are those? :)
    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol
    Moon Fargis: Cookies!
    Moon Fargis: C is For Cookie
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Mashed potatoes!
    SophiaSharon Larnia: gravy
    SophiaSharon Larnia: and cranberry sauce!!!
    SophiaSharon Larnia: Whoooohooooowooo
    Fael Illyar smiles.

    Stargate Tone: *

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