Presence to Self, Part 2

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    Last meeting we did a theme called Presence to Self
    and today, we can continue with that
    or if you like,
    be present again freshly.

    Our presence now includes thoughts and memories
    from the last session
    from two years of sessions
    that have become part of what we are
    and how we are
    in the full present moment

    We might take a moment to reflect
    And see if we have a sense of ...
    some aspects of the experience
    of who we are and what we do.

    What is the group for, for me?
    Are there familiar
    What is the "check-in" for?
    What do I find myself doing with it,
    and with my opportunities
    when I speak with the Talking Stick?

    We speak, even if it's not clear
    what we are going to say
    and discover something emerging
    from that speaking
    including all the abilities as well as restrictions
    that come together to create the expression.

    Are there questions, ideas, themes
    that come up repeatedly?

    We talk a lot about things
    like mind, self, experience
    and different perspectives
    and qualities in experience.

    By now we know
    two main perspectives, two different experiences
    are taking about something
    like it is an object over there
    and observing or describing an experience
    from the inside

    We've gotten good at each of these ways of speaking

    "Talking about" is always a temptation
    because it seems like "knowing something"
    while direct experience has two faces
    the known and the emerging
    and feels a bit dangerous, but more alive.

    I think we can listen to ourselves and notice
    when the talk is about an actual experience
    and when it is hypothetical.
    For the contemplations we do here
    it's favorable to speak from experience,
    to go for descriptive rather than hypothetical or abstract language

    Temptations include a pull to idealism
    towards fantasies
    (or even a legitimate faith)
    in correctness and perfection.
    But there is no "trick", no final answer,
    No amount of cleverness
    can make us immune to the risks
    and suffering that may come
    along with being present and engaged
    with what is and what we are.

    And what we're up to
    is not to understand someone's theory
    but to find different ways to appreciate
    the full and present experience
    that is already there.

    This isn't an either/or choice
    and we learn from others, and tradition,
    but you could do worse
    than to adopt a policy
    of "this and only this"
    to become expert
    in the exact, precise event
    of one's own experience,

    You might discover, investigate, and name
    your own states of mind
    and find it opens doors
    to something much more
    than you thought.

    Overall,
    we're up to a lot of different things here.
    As part of life,
    we're learning things,
    hopefully to engage in more conscious, effective action
    including its suffering
    and to avoid unnecessary suffering.

    Sometimes we're learning options for change
    or ways of approaching things
    we might want to talk about
    things that have this strong "problem" perspective:
    stress,
    depression,
    aging...
    name your own concern(s) here!

    Though as we know
    this can "sink" one's attention
    and lead one to lose sight of the whole

    So we often explore various images
    or metaphors of wholeness
    which are not just "talking about"
    but also templates for an actual encounter
    a direct experience with facets
    of that wholeness.

    We spoke about several qualities of mind,
    called Beginner's Mind,
    Abiding Mind,
    No-Mind
    these are like colors of the spectrum
    which without a prism, appears white.

    The mind can be used as that prism.
    On a given day we might not notice
    without it being pointed out
    that everything is "red".

    The Wheel, or circle
    is one image of wholeness
    there's a still point at the center
    we can explore the spokes
    which go in different directions
    or the rim.

    Or we could "turn" the wheel
    and go through the changes it represents
    or the other way around
    note the position of the wheel
    at a particular time.

    We could also divide the circle in other ways
    and practice cultivation or awareness
    on that basis too, for example,
    mind-of-thinking and conceptualizing
    mind-of-feeling and sensing
    mind-of-movement and action.

    The wholeness that the Wheel represents
    is a lopsided wholeness
    in some degree fractured or broken

    It's a matter of perspective
    whether it's wholeness inside fragmentation
    or the other way around.
    or as complete and perfect as the wide sky
    nothing missing, nothing extra.

    Meditation can create a regeneration
    a re-construction of new wholeness
    after the deconstruction and dropping away.
    This is the turning of the wheel.

    The "thinking" we do here
    can be a vehicle
    to re-engage with the whole
    and with awareness
    and then it can be let go.

    It's a "way", but its not necessary
    maybe we have that awareness already
    and more directly

    If so, we keep on "thinking"
    just like we keep on breathing
    because that's what mind does:
    it's either moving, or still.

    We came up with some important insights
    or rather, reminders
    at the last session

    You likely remember some of yours;
    here are some that I recall

    It takes a very relaxed state
    to see the fragments within the wholeness
    and a friendly attitude
    a welcoming
    to all that shows itself.

    There's a sign or signal
    of this growing fullness of awareness and presence
    which is a sense of Beauty
    that's not touched or reduced by suffering.

    It's a bundle of many qualities
    including one some have called mercy
    as in "the quality of mercy is not strained".

    It's possible that in the case of depression
    the sadness might come to be accepted
    as a friend and support
    although the ideas and stories about it
    the thoughts that go along with it
    might be let go.

    As time goes on
    we can explore more ways
    to enter and explore these areas of mind.

    You may recall
    some place you were intrigued
    or wanted to go deeper
    or something that was like
    part of a bigger circle.

    And as always
    what we do here
    is like plowing up the earth
    of our past knowledge and experience
    softening it, perhaps
    or bringing new things to the surface.
     

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