Guardians of the Void

Genesis talks to Adams about the way that her participation with PaB changed over time...

genesis Zhangsun: for me the way I relate to it has changed a lot
genesis Zhangsun: objectively hard to say
genesis Zhangsun: we are still sitting around talking about the same/similar topics
genesis Zhangsun: just from different angles as we did in the beginning
Adams Rubble: would you care to say more about you relating to it?
genesis Zhangsun: sure...in the beginning there was a freshness to everything
genesis Zhangsun: it was as I said earlier mysterious and mystical
genesis Zhangsun: the experience of becoming a part of PaB
genesis Zhangsun: I knew that something had happened to me
genesis Zhangsun: the way I saw the world had dramatically changed
genesis Zhangsun: and I was seeking others who could help me understand what had happened
genesis Zhangsun: it was thrilling
genesis Zhangsun: I felt like I had fallen down the rabbit hole: Alice in Wonderland
Adams Rubble: :)
genesis Zhangsun: there was almost a high about the whole thing
genesis Zhangsun: which had to end for me: and I knew it the whole time I was riding it
genesis Zhangsun: there were various points through the year where the feeling of bliss returned
genesis Zhangsun: but never like in the beginning
genesis Zhangsun: I sort of yearned for that bliss
genesis Zhangsun: spent a long time grasping for it
genesis Zhangsun: until I realized I could never return to it by grasping
Adams Rubble nods
genesis Zhangsun: and so slowly I learned how to let go
genesis Zhangsun: and then something more real started to emerge
genesis Zhangsun: nothing as exciting but closer to what was really going on
genesis Zhangsun: who I really am
genesis Zhangsun: which had nothing to do with that bliss
genesis Zhangsun: or everything to do with it :)

(snip)
Adams Rubble: Pema is helping us to test our skills--to learn to fly where we have never flown before :)
genesis Zhangsun: yes :) like a raven into the void :)
Adams Rubble: It is interesting that we have such different perspectives on things and at the same time so similar
Adams Rubble: yes, hehe: I hadn't caught the meaning
genesis Zhangsun: ravens are mythically messenger birds
genesis Zhangsun: they bring news from the "other side"
Adams Rubble: ah: so this one is going the other way?
genesis Zhangsun: no this one is not going in either direction, it protects the void
genesis Zhangsun: the place beyond form
genesis Zhangsun: the place of potentialities
genesis Zhangsun: we are those protectors
genesis Zhangsun: the Guardians
Adams Rubble: :)
genesis Zhangsun: making sure no one form starts to dominate
genesis Zhangsun: whether as an idea, as a person,: to preserve the fertile void
genesis Zhangsun: :)
Adams Rubble: :)
genesis Zhangsun: I am getting kind of spooky
Adams Rubble: hehe, I was just going to ask to leave this in
Adams Rubble: It is very poetical :)
genesis Zhangsun: ty :)
genesis Zhangsun: kind of makes sense though no?
Adams Rubble: yes: food for thought
genesis Zhangsun: that the moment someone traps it, names it, puts it into form
genesis Zhangsun: and calls it the "answer"
genesis Zhangsun: it is wrong
Adams Rubble nods
genesis Zhangsun: so the "answer" is formless
genesis Zhangsun: and we must preserve that
genesis Zhangsun: and protect one another from forgetting that and destroying it
Adams Rubble nods
genesis Zhangsun: and encouraging one another to keep exploring the places where no light shines in
Adams Rubble: yes, the hardest of all
genesis Zhangsun: hard and marvelous, anything less is a lie
(https://wiki.playasbeing.org/Chronicles/Chapter_04%3a_The_First_Months/C._Genesis)