Notes on Apapb
Table of contents
No headersFirst, a quote shared by Eos:
"If the meditator is able to use whatever occurs in his life as the Path, his body becomes a retreat hut." Jigme Lingpa
Sessions (the following is actually Pema and Maxine, on dreams):
2/7/10
This day, I sent out in colder-than-usual weather, to take a long walk. I resisted the urge to wear a jacket... just wanted to dive into the weather and 'notice what I noticed'. It was similar... fresh and light and I with a great sense of the world... as though I could feel my feet walking along the ground... as the ground...
The exercize extended itself organically into what I was considering, also, as I saw that I could appreciate, and See that the appreciation is separate from wanting to 'keep' what is appreciated. It was interesting to think that self can try to 'own' appreciation itself as an accomplishment/doing.
2/24/10
I came away from Time Workshop today having talked about not holding onto insights/fear/worries/ dreams/validations/insults/etc., and appreciated that sharing itself can be offering up, too... though maybe doing so becomes more and more refined as one is not the center of the sharing? Then there is *just* the sharing?
Pure Motivation. Truly no formulas. The experience of sharing can be 'pure' for want of a better word, in the same way as the glimpse or hint itself.
My son, on our little walk home today, showed me how to run through deepish puddles without making a splash. It was fascinating to watch. He's worked on walking without sound for a while, but this I thought was new. He tells me he's been doing this since he was six but never thought to show me before. It was a pebble/little bird moment.
3/8/10
Worked with a TSK exercize yesterday... chose as my 'object' a memory of eating grapefruit a few days before... was astounded at how easy it is to step into a so-called 'past' experience from where one is supposedly 'now'. I spent quite a few minutes with the grapefruit, opening up sensations and the playful experience of continuing to eat something I wasn't sure tasted 'good' but tasted so 'different' and 'interesting' that I couldn't help but be more and more curious about those components of it... a 'nice' taste sensation along with all these others and watching my own dance. Hah... looking at it now I'm really struck by how much we already notice that we didn't notice we noticed... how much experience is in every little experience.
I like getting friendly with memory.
07/11/2011
About to go on retreat, just in time. Am feeling grateful yet somewhat frayed these days, possibly a tad discouraged. Stop. Stay with that. Moment ago lost my temper with someone; hours before that, a small car accident; few days before that, a more private situation causing turbulence. Yet admidst these things, somehow presence of mind. Somehow me sitting here, writing in this spot, and thankful for it. Stop. Stay with that. Smiling.