Restless

Lila Darkmatter: well when you feel deep restlessness is it that you feel unexpressed in some way?
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: or unheard
Lila Darkmatter: yes, that's it... unheard even by oneself in some cases
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes, unheard and ignored
Lila Darkmatter: I feel I'm not "getting through to myself"

Lila Darkmatter: SL taught me to let others into secret places a bit more than I was used to doing
Catrinamonblue Resident: I do that too much and have had to learn to refrain from such in SL
Catrinamonblue Resident: on second thought I think I'm not doing that, I live my life so much an open book so as not to have people look too closely at me
Lila Darkmatter: a shield of openness?
Catrinamonblue Resident: I think of myself as having no secrets and yet I think maybe I do but they are secret even from me
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Lila Darkmatter: this I relate to deeply.. that's the "getting through to yourself" feeling in a way, too
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes and this talk has made me understand that maybe I have not gotten through to myself yet
Lila Darkmatter: sharing "too much" can be a way of making sure no one pries deeper where you don't want them to

https://wiki.playasbeing.org/Chat_Logs/2013/02/2013.02.22_07%3a00_-_Restless_Fairies