User:corvi

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This one is making me think....It's about all the reasons I can't meditate..all the things I've told myself, and are true about why meditation is impossible.  I can't if I'm depressed, distracted, busy, hurting, scared..all these things are true, really they are!  Surely one cannot begin developing a practice when one is...

It would be better to write, to make a list, to solve a problem..I don't know how to meditate.  These things I have said, so far.  I can't sit still that long.  There's a reason I am a grocer and not an office worker, I say.  These things are true, too.  I'm ADHD or ADD or sumthin...I know I am!  Probably true, too.

This month I haven't even done the 9 seconds..my mind wanders so fast that three breaths is not enough to still it to dropping.  But yesterday, I took a walk sat under a tree and did 50 breaths..it's easier for me to count breaths than time.  I shut my eyes for those breaths and heard my body speak it's "mind".  I let the thoughts wander in and out, my emotions play me.  I appreciated for a moment the being that is depressed, distracted, busy, hurting, scared.

And I did it again today.  Today I did it twice.  Who knows..tomorrow I might try it again.

From Shakespeare's As You Like It, 1600:

JAQUES:
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

I am very much not an expert in role play, but I do it, and I'll share what I have learned with anyone who is interested.  

http://playasbeing.wik.is/User:Corvi/Role_Play