Day 13

That sounds like meditation to me! I just sat outside for half an hour and noticed how noisy it was but also how pleasant and sunny. I checked on my body by doing a body scan and felt a a lot more relaxed after it. I should do a body-scan meditation more often – it's a great way to get your focus onto and give your body a little attention, to notice how it feels, instead of thinking.

Hey are you accusing me of tricking you Zen? lol

Allow your true self to go forth and multiply, Eliza :)

There are so many aspects to the question of where I am. Different scales (this couch, this house, this country), different things that make this place into this place. And all of them have different energies, different influences. The couch is solid but the room is spacey, this house feels different in the morning than in the evening. And it all influences me. Sometimes I notice that and usually I don't.

What you are.... The labels we live with every day, the shadows beneath the labels. In the deeps of me I am there, an existence of me in the quiet of the day in the shadows of the night.
The breath on the wind, a whisper on the lip, the rustle on the ear. All of this me in the moment, being the moment , knowing somehow both inside and outside that everything will be ok. That there is nothing to be done, no action needed, just patience to hold the center.
Hold tight but hold light in the center of the night and it will be well
Breaching the whales breathe deep, moving across unimaginable distances.

Many places in this one place ... not typically a meditation spot but somewhere out in the open where I like to write when the house is empty or quiet. Have often noticed the different qualities of places, finding that some books ask to be read outside before they will unfold, or that the energy of a cafe' somehow facilitates with finishing things, for me. But today...

At first I noticed how responsible I feel for everything in the room, when I stop... that the love seat in need of repair is me, as are the shoes near the door off the shoe shelf. When not in the writing or in the computer in some other way, the next default is to be tidying/fixing. That gives way after a blink and the stuff in the room begins to feel more spacious and friendly... less demanding of attention.

Between sheer curtains i can see a small buddha statue outside on the patio and notice that I am there, too. We are peaceful together and though I am inside looking out, I am experiencing the outside fully as well. It was a gift, this buddha, and I felt it a bit generic at a time when my meditative life was becoming more known to people. i seemed to have been accumulating them for every room... buddhas with fountains, holding candles, etc. :) I know that sounds terribly ungrateful...that wasn't my only thought about them and in any event this little buddha has become particularly special company. I forget about him, but whether the curtains are opened or closed his silhouetted profile appears, and settles me. Maybe he was found at Target... that's okay... there is treasure everywhere and in every thing. Namaste.

Night falls a few minutes later and I remember that he is there, whether I see him in the dark or not. edited 00:21, 4 Apr 2013

Picture attached is "winter in krakow" marcin ryczek

Thank you Zenji - so true about being aware and focus on the body - it makes such a difference when one focuses regularly on how the body feels, what it needs and what it doesn't. Makes a big difference.

Sometimes I find it hard to write here - because I am really conscious about not wanting to do it - just because I have to - another task on my list ticked off - kind of thing. I find the "exercise" itself easier to focus on each day....but find it hard sometimes to come and write about it. I decided if I am not up for it - I won't do it ...and then I felt better about this decision hehe. I have something in me that rebels against something that is repeated each day ... I want to improvise and not do the same thing ... in the same time - this 15 days is different from the 90 days project - since each day is different.

About noticing the space around me....today I was totally overcome with this feeling of being in SL building my club. One can really disappear in SL so deep .... really not easy to come back to a more balanced state. Especially when one gets into building or creating. So when I sat in front of this wiki page .... it was hard to get into this rhythm. After a few minutes of reading your responses ... I felt so much more in the mood ... I really appreciate everyone's explorations and thoughts/feelings about each day's exercise. Truly great to see others pondering similar things and finding similar things important ... and the fact that we are from all over the planet ....just reinforces this feeling in me about us all being similar, just human ...

<3

Sense of place time, one square meter, 15 minutes, sitting still, looking out. That's all.