2016.06.16 13:00 - "supposed to be"

The Guardian for this meeting was Mick. Eliza posted this session.

--BELL--
Bleu Oleander: hiya Mick
Mickorod Renard: hi Bleu
Mickorod Renard: seems so quiet without Eliza
Bleu Oleander: yes :)

Bleu Oleander: are you going to do a building session today?
Mickorod Renard: have you been busy?
Bleu Oleander: oh yes!
Mickorod Renard: well..i would like to
Mickorod Renard: what are you busy with..if i MAY ASK?
Mickorod Renard: oops
Bleu Oleander: I work full time which keeps me busy!
Mickorod Renard: ah yes..It would
Bleu Oleander: and fill in with projects
Mickorod Renard: he he
Bleu Oleander: :)

Mickorod Renard: I stopped work as I didnt have time for it
Bleu Oleander: not too much time for sl these days
Mickorod Renard: he he
Bleu Oleander: nice!!!
Mickorod Renard: well, it just gets filled up with other stuff
Bleu Oleander: how are you coming on your art project for here?
Mickorod Renard: a disaster
Mickorod Renard: I need to try harder
Bleu Oleander: oh no ... what happened?
Mickorod Renard: well..i am a bit rusty ,,I have lost a thing that allowed me to make helixs
Mickorod Renard: so I made another shape.that was ok
Mickorod Renard: then I wanted a ball to roll around inside it
Mickorod Renard: so that needed its own gravity
Bleu Oleander: sounds complex :)
Mickorod Renard: but it kept falling throgh the shape i put it in
Mickorod Renard: and I also wanted to give it some inertia but otherwise would have been happy if it had friction or drag

Bleu Oleander: hi Wol :)
Wol Euler: evening all!
Mickorod Renard: what i used to do was raid ..HI Wol
Mickorod Renard: nice to see ya
Mickorod Renard: has it warmed up there yet?
Bleu Oleander: very colorful Wol ... nice!
Mickorod Renard: I used to raid the contents and scripts out of stuff others had made and adapt them for my use

Bleu Oleander: hi Cat :)
Mickorod Renard: Hi Cat
Catrinamonblue Resident: hi guys :)
Wol Euler: hello cat
Mickorod Renard: its chill out time
Catrinamonblue Resident: :) could use that
Wol Euler: thank you bleu, I wanted a change from monochrome
Mickorod Renard: have we got any more exhibits displayed Bleu?
Bleu Oleander: makes me want to go through my inventory and color up :)
Bleu Oleander: no more yet Mick

Mickorod Renard: erk..when is the closing date?
Bleu Oleander: I think mid July?
Mickorod Renard: ah ok..still hope yet
Bleu Oleander: :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: :) I wish I had the time/energy/know how to do one
Catrinamonblue Resident: but I don't... especially the energy part
Mickorod Renard: well,,,i am struggling with mine
Wol Euler: I'm sure you could find people to help build, if you had an idea for it
Wol Euler: wow, that is colourful
Bleu Oleander feels better now :)
Mickorod Renard: I had an idea I was working on
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Bleu Oleander: a few good builders in our group to help
Mickorod Renard: I wanted a ball to travel from one place to another, preferably but not has to in a spiral
Wol Euler: spiral is tricky because of the geometry
Wol Euler: but movement itself is not so tricky
Mickorod Renard: so i was gonna use a double helix and make it transparent
Mickorod Renard: hollow and run the ball inside of it
Mickorod Renard: then i tried just two cones joined together
Mickorod Renard: but the ball kept falling out or through
Mickorod Renard: in the end I got frustrated and kicked it and went to bed
Bleu Oleander: ha!

--BELL--

Mickorod Renard: :)
Mickorod Renard: we could all go down to the build place?
Bleu Oleander: sure
Wol Euler: sure
Catrinamonblue Resident: I'll see you guys later...
Mickorod Renard: anyone resting cud sit on swing seat
Catrinamonblue Resident: no energy for such today
Mickorod Renard: ok great
Wol Euler: bye cat, take care
Bleu Oleander: ok Cat take care
Mickorod Renard: u could watch or chat with us
Catrinamonblue Resident: mmm well maybe
Catrinamonblue Resident: just don't expect much from me today....

Mickorod Renard: has anyone been doing the listening exersize?
Bleu Oleander: we can watch Mick build :)
Mickorod Renard: no worries cat
Catrinamonblue Resident: I'm way way behind
Mickorod Renard: yeh,,I may make a disaster
Bleu Oleander: on a break from the exercises
Mickorod Renard: there is no rush Cat
Mickorod Renard: i have been trying tsk for years
Mickorod Renard: he he

Catrinamonblue Resident: rl has sabotaged me
Wol Euler: awwww
Mickorod Renard: anything U wanna share?
Catrinamonblue Resident: too many things happening far too fast
Mickorod Renard: i bet we all been there sometime
Wol Euler nods.
Bleu Oleander: :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: and all are "supposed" to be happy but really is stressful
Catrinamonblue Resident: Yesterday I wanted to punch the next person who said "you must be so excited"
Mickorod Renard: I often find birthdays or xmas like that
Wol Euler nods
Bleu Oleander loves a good party :)
Wol Euler: parties are great fun if you are neither the organizer nor the cleaner-up

Catrinamonblue Resident: I can't explain my feelings but they seem not to be in line with expectations
Mickorod Renard: you raise your hopes and expectations and it gets hyped up and then the fear of failure gets thrown in and then its a mad runaway train
Bleu Oleander: I'm often both hehe
Wol Euler: I'm always in the kitchen at parties
Catrinamonblue Resident: first the wedding and now buying a house....
Bleu Oleander: I think expectations get us into trouble sometimes
Wol Euler: and not just because that's where the food is
Wol Euler: yes, bleu
Catrinamonblue Resident: everyone seems to think I should be happy
Mickorod Renard: my kids cant understand why my best enjoyment or present is to do nothing
Catrinamonblue Resident: but I'm not
Wol Euler: pro tip: what "everyone thinks" is often wrong :)
Bleu Oleander: exactly

Catrinamonblue Resident: I'm tired and stressed and hurting.... moving away from my kids..... leaving behind what has been comfortable for a long time......
Wol Euler nods.
Mickorod Renard: yep..i can understand that
Bleu Oleander: are you far from your kids? can they visit often?
Catrinamonblue Resident: and I feel blocked, my usual outlet on fb is not there in a way because I feel like I can't
Catrinamonblue Resident: others have far worse to deal with
Wol Euler shakes her head.
Catrinamonblue Resident: a close friend lost her husband suddenly last month
Catrinamonblue Resident: and I feel almost childish to complain about buying a house....
Catrinamonblue Resident: my feelings are all over the place......
Mickorod Renard: well, buying houses and moving are recognised as the most stressful events in life
Bleu Oleander: new homes can be wonderful canvases for expression
Bleu Oleander: mine could use a little expression ... lol ... but its just too hot here for that ... will be 120 this weekend
Catrinamonblue Resident: If he was on the same page as me perhaps bleu... but there were a lot of compromises
Mickorod Renard: I liked moving house,,I am a bit of a gypsy I think
Bleu Oleander: easier to redecorate in sl these days :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: I'm sorry, I'm whining..... I should probably go now......
Mickorod Renard: not whining
Bleu Oleander: ok take care Cat
Mickorod Renard: makes me reflect on my problems too
Mickorod Renard: :)
Mickorod Renard: we need to let it out a bit
Wol Euler: no cat, not whining
Wol Euler: being alive
Wol Euler smiles.
Catrinamonblue Resident: take care guys... see you later....
Mickorod Renard: c ya later
Mickorod Renard: take care
Wol Euler: bb

--BELL--

Mickorod Renard: its funny, when I am away from my g kids on holiday I miss them
Mickorod Renard: but if |i go away and call it a retreat,,thats ok
Wol Euler: :)
Bleu Oleander: :)
Mickorod Renard: I ran away from home a few times ,,as a kid
Mickorod Renard: it became lonely after about 20 minutes
Mickorod Renard: but i could go and play with mates for hours and hours
Mickorod Renard: and that was ok
Wol Euler nods.

Mickorod Renard: the last time I ran away i did stay with a girl friend,,that wasnt so bad
Mickorod Renard: :)
Mickorod Renard: then the police found me
Mickorod Renard: my poor parents
Bleu Oleander: end of holiday!
Mickorod Renard: yes
Mickorod Renard: my bros and sisters and friends thought I was so brave to be such a rebel but really I was the oposite as I ran away from whatever it was
Mickorod Renard: not that I knew what i was running from
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: but you knew or at least felt that it wasn't right

Mickorod Renard: I dont know,,it may have been I didnt like reality
Bleu Oleander: not too many options there :)
Mickorod Renard: seemed so contrived and mechanistic
Bleu Oleander: reality seems to follow us where ever we go
Wol Euler: ha yes
Mickorod Renard: he he ,,it does,,maybe thats why some say dont look back
Mickorod Renard: I might get my shape out ,,in the build area
Bleu Oleander: ok will watch you create something :)
Mickorod Renard: he he ..I doubt I will succeed

Wol Euler: I'm going to head off actually, it
Bleu Oleander: the process is the fun part
Wol Euler: it's been a long tiring week
Wol Euler: good luck Mick
Bleu Oleander: ok take care Wol
Mickorod Renard: ok Wol, nice to see ya
Bleu Oleander: see you soon
Mickorod Renard: cheers
Wol Euler: <3
Mickorod Renard: :)