2015.10.06 13:00 - Fatigue and Bunnies

The Guardian for this meeting was Darren.

Aphrodite Macbain: Hi!
Darren Islar: hey Aph
Aphrodite Macbain: How are you feeling?
Darren Islar: you brought a bunny?
Aphrodite Macbain: :-)
Aphrodite Macbain: A gift.
Darren Islar: ah ....
Aphrodite Macbain: Thought I'd rez her to see what she's like
Darren Islar: ok, but still a long way to go
Aphrodite Macbain: Any suggestions for a name?
Darren Islar: peanut?
Darren Islar: dinky

Aphrodite Macbain: Are you tired all the time? Is that the main problem?
Aphrodite Macbain: I like dinky :-)
Darren Islar: fidgety because of too many streshormons, sleepingproblems, tired, heart pumping very fast and tangible
Darren Islar: Pully?
Aphrodite Macbain: sounds awful
Darren Islar: it is
Aphrodite Macbain: Pully?
Darren Islar: it's actually not the chronic fatigue, but some sort of burnt out, caused by it
Aphrodite Macbain: This is my other rabbit. Much bigger
Darren Islar: fluffy?
Darren Islar: darbit?

Aphrodite Macbain: What does the burn out feel like?
Darren Islar: as I descreibed
Darren Islar: the chronic fatigue makes a burn out never far away
Aphrodite Macbain: I thought burn out was fatigue
Darren Islar: a chronic fatigue makes you getting tired easily and not regenerating well, most of the time you feel tired, but in itself it can be a relaxed tiredness, sleepy, droopy etc
Darren Islar: a burn out is not
Darren Islar: it makes you feel you need to move, but you can't since you are too tired
Aphrodite Macbain: Does it mean you cant work?
Darren Islar: I can't work period
Aphrodite Macbain: That must be hard.
Darren Islar: not that the ones paying my bills believe that, since it's not a medical disease
Darren Islar: for now I'm
Darren Islar: 'rescued' financially because of my cancer
Aphrodite Macbain: Hard way to get rescued....
Darren Islar: the chemo, operation, the visit to the ict unit etc
Darren Islar: grins

Darren Islar: my chronic fatigue is worse than the cancer was
Darren Islar: including the chemo, operation, ic, ets
Darren Islar: those are moments,. chronic fatigue is there always

Darren Islar: they multiply fast :)

--BELL--


Aphrodite Macbain: they're rabbits :-)
Darren Islar: yup
Aphrodite Macbain: I've been keeping these rabits in my plot
Darren Islar: I see
Aphrodite Macbain: but they keep straying onto other's land...
Darren Islar: hmmmmm
Darren Islar: you can't give them a range?
Aphrodite Macbain: I am limited to my plot - I dont own any other land
Aphrodite Macbain: They are also very demanding
Aphrodite Macbain: They need food, wather, things to play with
Aphrodite Macbain: This one in foront of me just sits quietly
Darren Islar: yeah breedables
Aphrodite Macbain: so far they haven't breeded and it's been over a month
Darren Islar: oh ok :)
Darren Islar: we have breedables, big cats, though we don't breed them anymore .... but those rabbits would drive me crazy
Darren Islar: they better don't show up when it's almost Christmas ;)
Aphrodite Macbain: They are beginning to do that to me
Aphrodite Macbain: why?
Aphrodite Macbain: People might eat them?
Darren Islar: well, I'm a vegetarian, but otherwise they would end up in the pan

Aphrodite Macbain: Do people eat rabbits at Christmas in the Netherlands?
Darren Islar: they can be yes, nowadays
Darren Islar: we don't have thanksgiving, our first Christmasday is something like that
Aphrodite Macbain: I ate hare in Italy
Aphrodite Macbain: in a pasta dish
Aphrodite Macbain: nice!
Darren Islar: hmmm, I don't like it much
Aphrodite Macbain: very gamey?
Darren Islar: gamey?
Aphrodite Macbain: When is Ava coming?
Darren Islar: in 2,5 weeks
Darren Islar: I like the rabbit in front of you better
Aphrodite Macbain: Yes- it sits still!
Darren Islar: it only moves his ears and eyes :)
Aphrodite Macbain: :-)

Aphrodite Macbain: What are you [planning to do when Ava arrives? Travel?
Darren Islar: you wonder when those two others are going to sleep
Aphrodite Macbain: they do sleep
Aphrodite Macbain: I have a hutch
Darren Islar: we will have day-trips, but I can't do much
Aphrodite Macbain: Do youo have a car?
Darren Islar: we bought one together yes
Aphrodite Macbain: Good-
Darren Islar: and probably going to visit my teacher
Aphrodite Macbain: ?
Darren Islar: he will be in the Netherlands in November
Darren Islar: teaching here
Aphrodite Macbain: who is that?
Darren Islar: Gelek Rinpochee
Aphrodite Macbain: Does he come to Holland often?
Darren Islar: twice a year, if possible, his health is not good
Aphrodite Macbain: Oh dear

--BELL--

Darren Islar: I asked him how he was last time and he said he was still alive
Aphrodite Macbain: :-/
Aphrodite Macbain: Is he sick?
Darren Islar: he's on dialysis now, means he has at most about 5 years to live left
Aphrodite Macbain: liver cancer?
Aphrodite Macbain: kidney cancer?
Darren Islar: no, kidneys, but not sure what
Darren Islar: not cancer
Aphrodite Macbain: Good
Aphrodite Macbain: You can learn from him
Darren Islar: more just ... not working properly, they don't for as long as I know him
Aphrodite Macbain: How to face physical adversity
Darren Islar: yeah
Darren Islar: he's better in it than I am
Aphrodite Macbain: are yoou sure?
Darren Islar: his kidneys also gave him a lot of pain, I forgot the name of that disease, but it seems to be quite painful, he keeps on teaching though

Aphrodite Macbain: I think you are dealing with this marvellously
Darren Islar: thank you
Aphrodite Macbain: Is this your pavilion?
Darren Islar: no, it's an in between, looks a bit like a Bleu's design with Storm's pagode on top
Darren Islar: well, part of it
Aphrodite Macbain: I was wondering....
Aphrodite Macbain: It's very simple
Darren Islar: yes
Aphrodite Macbain: Has the voting been completed?
Darren Islar: though I think those are all prims, it takes a bit of craftsmanship
Darren Islar: not yet
Aphrodite Macbain: nods
Aphrodite Macbain: simplicity can be hard :-)
Darren Islar: it's obvious which I prefer :)
Aphrodite Macbain: He he

Aphrodite Macbain: I like these birch trees here
Darren Islar: yes
Darren Islar: I think I have them too
Aphrodite Macbain: they make a nice contrast against the green
Darren Islar: true
Aphrodite Macbain: I should get back to my studying
Darren Islar: ok
Aphrodite Macbain: Take care Darren
Darren Islar: I need to go as well
Darren Islar: take care
Aphrodite Macbain: hugs
Darren Islar: hugs