2014.05.05 13:00 - Scatteredness and the Cosmic Energizer

Wol Euler was guardian for this session, filling in for the absent Eliza.

Wol Euler: hello zon

--BELL--

Zon Kwan: hi wol
Wol Euler smiles.
Zon Kwan: sorry was af
Wol Euler: hello zon, nice to see you again
Zon Kwan: k
Zon Kwan: rather quiet tonight
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: what's on your mind today?
Zon Kwan: hm
Zon Kwan: scatteredness
Wol Euler: ah :)
Wol Euler: care to say more about that?
Zon Kwan: just a feeling
Zon Kwan: between processes
Wol Euler listens.
Zon Kwan: the moment when you are not yet focussed for the next process
Zon Kwan: when many thoughts float around
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: daydreaming, perhaps?
Zon Kwan: hm
Mornica Resident's current display-name is "Mornica".
Zon Kwan: letting thoughts come and go
Zon Kwan: hi Mornica
Wol Euler: hello mornica, have you been here before?

--BELL--

Mornica Resident: Smiles, Hello Wol and Zon. Nice to meet you. This is my first time here.
Wol Euler: ((90 second pause for meditation/thought))
Zon Kwan: (welcome)
Wol Euler smiles.
Mornica Resident: Thank you
Wol Euler: let me give you a notecard that tells about us
Mornica Resident: thank you
Wol Euler: this is a meditation group called "play as being", we gather here to talk about our practices, and whatever else comes up
Mornica Resident: Fabulous
Wol Euler: we have a website, http://wiki.playasbeing.org/, which has the history of the group and a whole lot of other information
Wol Euler: including the notes of our meetings here. We record these sessions and publish them on the wiki, so absent members can read what was said. May we have your permission to include your SL name and your comments in the log?
Mornica Resident: Yes
Wol Euler: thank you :)
Mornica Resident: My pleasure ㋡
Wol Euler: back to you, Zon :) about letting thoughts come and go?
Zon Kwan: sorry i must go
Wol Euler smiles.
Zon Kwan: waves
Wol Euler: bye zon, enjoy the day
Zon Kwan: you too :)
Wol Euler: wb mornica
Mornica Resident: thank you
Mornica Resident: I crashed
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: it happens :) lags and crashes are the bad weather of SL
Mornica Resident: true
Mornica Resident: when i first arrived in sl I constantly tried to fix that until someone told me it is not fixable, it is the nature of sl, laughs
Wol Euler: hehehe
Wol Euler: yes, like trying to fix bad weather
Mornica Resident: it sure did free up a lot of my time
Mornica Resident: laughs
Wol Euler: better to work around it and use the time for other things
Mornica Resident: yes ㋡
Wol Euler: I could go off on a lecture about that works in RL too, but I'm sure you see the point :)
Mornica Resident: I do
Wol Euler smiles.
Mornica Resident: Change is not necessarily a fix ㋡
Wol Euler: right
Mornica Resident: it is a change
Wol Euler: and as the general said "not every hill is worth fighting for"
Mornica Resident: I have recently began trying to retrain my sub with affirmations
Wol Euler: ah :) do tell
Mornica Resident: are you familiar with Dr. Joseph Murphy Cosmic Energizer?
Wol Euler: no, I don't know that
Mornica Resident: I have been through a lot of changes that have not been for the best
Wol Euler listens.
Mornica Resident: so the idea is to create affirming statements and repeat them several times a day and the change will be forth coming
Wol Euler nods.
Mornica Resident: it can be what ever you want to change

--BELL--

Wol Euler: these would be statements about yourself, I infer?
Wol Euler: changing the story you usually tell about yourself to a positive one
Mornica Resident: yes, This example is about myself
Mornica Resident: since repeating my selected affirmations to retrain my sub thinking
Mornica Resident: i began having nightmares and bizare dreams
Wol Euler raises an eyebrow.
Mornica Resident: nods
Mornica Resident: so i spoke to several people that I used this same technique on and asked if they had the same response
Mornica Resident: Most did not, a few did
Mornica Resident: what i am finding it is cleansing me
Mornica Resident: at least this is how i perceive it
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: that's great
Wol Euler: if it isn't too personal, what have you seen changing?
Mornica Resident: I am a very grounded person. Not a lot will get under my skin. The personal aspects are more personal than I thought
Wol Euler smiles.
Wol Euler: fair enough
Mornica Resident: that is a major change in my perception
Wol Euler: I know from my own experience that the reverse of that is true as well. If you go around saying "oh I'm so unhappy", you will be come unhappy. talking oneself into misery
Mornica Resident: correct
Wol Euler: I was very angry and unhappy as a child, until sometime in my twenties I decided to stop doing that.
Wol Euler: it was that simple :)
Mornica Resident: yes it should be
Wol Euler: I realized once I stopped that it had been a role that I talked myself into playing
Wol Euler: so I started telling a different story
Wol Euler: noticing and paying attention to other aspects of my life, other things around me
Wol Euler: if you look for bad news, you will of course find it. but the reverse is also true
Mornica Resident: nods

--BELL--

Mornica Resident: Did you discover the root cause of your unhappiness?
Wol Euler: because people perceive that, they can tell when you approach them negatively
Wol Euler: to be honest, no :)
Wol Euler: and I say that after several years of therapy
Wol Euler: but I have learned to live with it and with myself
Wol Euler: which was the point of the exercise
Mornica Resident: yes, negative energy is as powerful as positive energy
Mornica Resident: smiles
Wol Euler: a lot of it had and has to do with expectations, and fears
Wol Euler: (for everyone)
Wol Euler: one thing my therapist taught me is that it's okay to talk to strangers :)
Wol Euler: and once you start doing that, you realized how desperately lonely most people are and how grateful for any little attention and kindnesses
Wol Euler: including oneself :)
Mornica Resident: connecting with others is part of our essential being
Wol Euler nods.
Mornica Resident: some do not want to connect but do want to cause a response
Wol Euler smiles.
Wol Euler: big cities are good for that, the anonymous nod as you walk past someone whom you know only as "that guy I see on the 43 bus"
Mornica Resident: smiles
Wol Euler: but the point is the same as a conversation: "I see you, I recognize you as a person"
Wol Euler: we all need that
Mornica Resident: yes
Mornica Resident: it has been a pleasure meeting you Wol. I must log now. Take care
Wol Euler: ((a little warning in advance: I will have to go at the next bell, it's coming up to midnight))
Wol Euler: snap :)
Wol Euler: likewise Mornica
Mornica Resident: smiles, bye bye