2015.01.21 01:00 - Stability, to me is...

The Guardian for this meeting was No Self. The comments are by No Self.

Liza Deischer: good morning sweet
Avaline DeCuir: Hey Stuk
Liza Deischer: hehehe
Avaline DeCuir: Are you a guardian?
Liza Deischer: yes
Avaline DeCuir: ahh ok good

--BELL--

Liza Deischer: you see, points above her head, Darren is a fake one, I'm real ... grins
Avaline DeCuir laughs
Liza Deischer: you have a topic for today?
Avaline DeCuir: no .. do you?
Liza Deischer: what about stability?
Avaline DeCuir: stability ... hmmmm not something I am good at
Liza Deischer: well, maybe that's a good reason
Avaline DeCuir: It is hard to be stable when there is so many things that catch my attention
Liza Deischer: what does stability mean, when do we feel 'stable'
Liza Deischer: ah ... yes, distraction?
Avaline DeCuir: yes distraction

Liza Deischer: do you feel stable at work?
Avaline DeCuir: no
Liza Deischer: somehow that surprises me
Avaline DeCuir: I think that it depends if you are a reactive or a pro active person
Liza Deischer: at my work I always felt stable somehow
Liza Deischer: my work was pro active
Avaline DeCuir: if you are reactive you never feel stable .. you always feel as if you are running to keep up instead of being in control and having everything planned
Liza Deischer: that is the same at your work?

Avaline DeCuir: I have tried being pro active but I have found that in my life no matter how much I plan ... something unexpected always comes along to change things and so I am back to playing catch up
Avaline DeCuir: yes the same at work ... when you work with people it is much harder to plan because people are unpredictable
Liza Deischer: yeah but you're well-trained and very experienced
Avaline DeCuir: for example .. when I am doing anaesthetics .. I try to anticipate everything I will need for the list ... and have it available .. yet no matter how well I plan .. there is always something that messes the plans up ... cases cancelled so stuff gets put away .. patients not turning up .. or patients added unexpectedly
Avaline DeCuir: it is impossible to fully plan and have it all work out the way is is supposed to

Liza Deischer: for me the feeling of stability also has to do with how secure you feel dealing with those situations
Liza Deischer: how easy can you handle change

--BELL--

Liza Deischer: ?
Avaline DeCuir: Ohh I feel perfectly sescure in my knowledge and ability to handle any situation that might come up at work
Avaline DeCuir: In many ways stability can be boring too ... I like being unpredictable
Avaline DeCuir: I like being impulsive too
Liza Deischer: ah ... :)
Avaline DeCuir: I would like to be able to get up one morning and see it is sunny and say .. lets drive to Paris for lunch
Liza Deischer: but I don't see why you can't feel stable within those situations, but maybe we need to define stable
Avaline DeCuir: to me that is impulsive and exciting
Liza Deischer: erm ... you need to take the plane for that, but I get your drift

Avaline DeCuir: yes maybe we should define stable
Avaline DeCuir: stable to me means being predictable, doing the same things and having plans .. not deviating from them without other plans
Liza Deischer: I like the feeling, but maybe you don't

Liza Deischer: stable to me means that I know what I'm doing, can anticipate or respond on unexpected situations in an appropriate manner
Avaline DeCuir: for me stability is just a lull in the exciting bits

Avaline DeCuir: I like to find out by doing ... I don't feel the need to know what I am doing all the time before I do it
Liza Deischer: I don't disconnect stable and excitment in a way
Avaline DeCuir: I remember the day I met Talisman ... he is so much like me it is eerie .. he just packed his bag on a whim and got on a plane to Sydney ... with no plans made on where to sleep or eat or anything . it didnt matter to him .. that is what I like
Avaline DeCuir: stability also means responsibility at times

Avaline DeCuir: As I get older I need some stability though .. I can't live a fully reactive unpredictable life .. it affects my health too much
Avaline DeCuir: I suppose that is why I do things that make me sicker at times .. because I refuse to give in and stop being impulsive just because of my health

--BELL--

Liza Deischer: damn I'm boring