2014.05.19 _ 27

Rolled out of bed and onto the cushion, still tired but with a clearer and calmer head than in recent days. Occasionally lost in recollections of last night's dream, but at least no shouting monkeys.

I was up very early this morning and had the pool to myself. After swimming back and forth a bit I lay on my back and floated in the water. My ears under the water all I could hear was my breath and the occasional swoosh of water as I slowly moved my arms.

I slowed my breathing, closed my eyes and just existed within the moment. Words fail in describing the almost endless moments between each breath. The feel of the water as I raised my arms above my head and circled them down to my side. I can't describe it so I'm not even going to try. I do wonder though if that's what meditation is. I stayed there like that for almost half an hour and yet it felt like no time had passed at all.
I'm filled with joy and happiness.

Beautiful description, Cat, even if you didn't try. ^.^

Reading the story "The Rainmaker," an addendum to The Glass Bead Game, and the first of three "Lives" written by the protagonist.

Thankful to stop here now, try to recollect the day that still feels as though it is rushing past as I sit here typing. Slowing down breathing... allowing a yawn. Mindful breathing and playing with google doodle for a long while, is what I'll manage today (always loved Rubik's Cube and was really good at it as a teen .^^), but want to note having added sit ups to my daily routine as well.

In PlayasBeing we've talked a lot about not falling into mindless routine and questioning our assumptions and patterns, seeing through them, but so often I'd really love to stick with things in a linear way. I think Stevenaia's advice to me to find a group, might be the only way I can step into the vision that I'd hoped to pull off in these 33 Days. I take some comfort in the side effects and 'other things' that spring up and take place when I do try to focus on just one... but alas.

This practice of accountability to oneself in the presence of others is humbling but also empowering in unexpected ways, and there are some events coming up in RL that might provide similar opportunities... a conference and a few days visit from a lama that will allow me to see friends I've only connected with on FB for a few years.

Feeling very yawn-ful. Nothing much to say except to note ongoing interplay of occupation/pre-occupation with some kind of ventilating space, the latter often being noticed only through its absence :-) Ha hah, a little humour peeked through.

Such interesting postings, but at this hour and after long plane flight back and full day, as eos, I feel very yawn-ful.