2014.05.24 _ 32

Rolled out of bed and onto the cushion, still half-asleep. Very muddled head.

Sitting on the front step with things out for a yard sale. Taking deep breaths of the lilac scented air

Couldn't make it thus morning as RL popped in just at sign on time and I didn't want to disturb everybody. Not sure I'm going to make it online this afternoon. But had a great morning just sitting and being. And talking and selling :-) I did very well with my yard sale.

Shifted totally out of the routine ... but thats good too I think. I did start to miss the wiki so I am back. Today had a long 3 hour walk around the rugby fields of south africa ;D it was lots fun and great exercise. When it comes to quiet times ... I totally lost focus on that - but usually I get back to it once all changes settled.

Enjoy the weekend guys and the retreat too :)

One more day of 33 Days, one more retreat session.

"Valuable" is the word that keeps coming up for me, along with "integration". The latter, for me, is about aspiration toward spiritual practice, high dharma, AND deep rootedness in the the mundane. I feel that I vacillate, going through times of high aspiration and times of intentionally relating more to the mainstream (for lack of a better term - this might include intellectual pursuits, social things, even diet).

Yet I know that both are true - that the gusto with which I embrace forms is rooted in openness, and vice versa. Remembering is another matter... not leaving behind one when in the embrace of the other (as though they were 'different').

The word Value arises out of appreciation for the richness and poetry of retreat sessions, cultivated from years of friendship and regard. Showing up is the whole thing. At some point I jotted to myself:


"...feel myself withholding, not sure what I am withholding - feeling challenged - not by a particular challenge but by really BEING together. There is nothing ‘like’ PaB , not in RL or in SL... no posing as "spiritual" but merely genuine. That's it - the genuineness: not trying to work up positivity, bringing all our aspects and messiness, but also getting in touch with a wider, open, underlying context in which that messiness reveals its treasures and there is no need to even spell things out."

Okay...off to X-men with my son. ^.^ edited 00:08, 25 May 2014

Yard sales and rugby fields, and SL retreat space for intersections several times this weekend, and then this, an integration space as well. At the moment feels cheerful and playful Shared pond for our individual ripple creating droplets :-) Also the brevity leaves gentle yet fleeting touch: it's already half gone.