2014.05.21 _ 29

Tonight there is an award ceremony for my daughter's graduating class, leading up to her actual ceremony a little more than a week from now. Unlike her older sister who is in no hurry to be on her own, she will move out and "take a year off" before college - I hope she will return to it, if not me. :)

I'm working to see the big picture - that this is happening. So, although I can express various wishes or point out some things, the main thing is that I want to be supportive. Many of those who meditate shy away from drawing direct lines between meditation and benefits or seeming results, however I'm fairly confident that a stance of present, joyful involvement in her events and celebrations, as well as relative non-attachment to what I may have drawn out for her from the ideas from my life of what is most important or even crucial, does connect to daily cultivation rooted in groundlessness.

I think what I was seeing yesterday, about the laughter, is that amidst 10,000 little and big frustrations and fears and games that do go on; amidst desires to show up and take responsibility and even 'be good', there is something more real... awareness allowing reliance upon/within a strong yet open source net. The forms of connecting with that knowledge sometimes seem to change, but also feed into one another.

Eliza I can relate about your daughter :-) mine wants to take a few years off school as well. And while my opinion is given so is my wholehearted support and love for whatever choice she makes. She has spread her wings on the wind I can never call her back.
There is a closeness now with her, tighter than mother/daughter, an ability to allow, on both sides, each of us to be real with the other.

In my own little place I am smelling the lilacs and realizing this will be the last time I see and smell my own trees. There is sadness in saying goodbye, but joy in the thought of never having to mow the grass again ;-)

I am trying very hard to be slow and breathe in this time of transition, to enjoy and allow things as they come.

So encouraging, Cat. Thanks for sharing about your transition, which you're handling with grace, I think.

Hi Liz and Cat - love to see moms talk about important things <3 You are the best :)

Lately things have been so busy and hectic and all and was not able to get back into my routine for quiet times and exercise. I think tomorrow it will settle so will refocus then.

My SL project Sunvibes has gone through a little drama - and was a bit difficult too I know this is SL but still a bit unsettling.

hugs ty for sharing thoughts about motherhood <3

((Sza))) SL is part of RL, after all. We play and we come to care. We invest. :::wishes for settling:::

Came home after work - a warm, sunny day. Stepped outside, and came to a full stop - physically, intentionally (I was so full of multiple intentions and leanings and agendas). Just stood still, with the pond, the grass, the birds, the sky. Full stop, in all senses.

To the left a bright flowering bush - it and the bumblebees somehow arose simultaneously and suddenly. From whence? They buzz in their short energetic lifetimes, syphoning jet fuel from the flowers, furthering the bush's life. For a moment we're all in the "open source net".

My day took a different twist today - with twisters in the area. And thunderstorms and large amounts of hail. Not quite the 4+ inch diameter hailstones we've had in recent years, but damaging nonetheless.

What fun. Though with a name like mine, you'd probably expect me to say that. Anyway, weaving one's schedule around the storms that were weaving around on my radar screen left no time for reading.

But there's tomorrow. :)

Big hugs and congratulations to Eliza and Red. A year off can be a very good thing, IMHO.

I missed a day, had to get up three hours early to drive to a press conference, and never managed to get back on track.