2013.01.20 19:00 - Fresh and clean like a blank page

Wol Euler recovered this session from the autologging database.

Aphrodite Macbain: OMG!
druth Vlodovic: exactly :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Is that how you feel durth?
Aphrodite Macbain: grr
Aphrodite Macbain: druth
druth Vlodovic: I'm the great and powerful flying spagetti monster, worship me!!!
Eliza Madrigal's current display-name is "Eliza".
Aphrodite Macbain: pours tomatoe sauce all over you
Eliza Madrigal: look who is flying now :)
Catrinamonblue Resident's current display-name is "Catrinamonblue".
Aphrodite Macbain: I wonder if Cal is coming
Catrinamonblue Resident: I'm here :)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Catrina
druth Vlodovic: hi cat :)
druth Vlodovic: we were looking for the one without the crossbar i think
Catrinamonblue Resident: sorry tired not seeing straight4
Catrinamonblue Resident: thought you said cat :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Calvino - it's normally his session Cat
Aphrodite Macbain: np
Catrinamonblue Resident: ah my appologies
Aphrodite Macbain: lol np!
Eliza Madrigal: just came from a panel with relgious representatives that was really inclusive and interesting....Stevenaia went to check to see if PaB is in "Spirit Gate" and yup... along with Kira and the museum
druth Vlodovic: spirit gate?
Eliza Madrigal: it is a gathering of a huge number of "Spiritual sites"
Aphrodite Macbain: hmmm
Eliza Madrigal: although there are philosophy groups too
Aphrodite Macbain: A gathering of spiritual sites- wonder what the collective noun would be

--BELL--

Aphrodite Macbain: sprites
Eliza Madrigal: Is Cal still traveling?
druth Vlodovic: "hauntings"
Eliza Madrigal: ty Aph
Aphrodite Macbain: yw. That's the second one I've done this week along with mine!
Catrinamonblue Resident: keeping busy :)
Aphrodite Macbain: yes!
Aphrodite Macbain: I did some fencing this afternoon - and won! I think someone was being nice to me
Eliza Madrigal: congrats!
Catrinamonblue Resident: in Rl or SL?
Aphrodite Macbain: lol
Aphrodite Macbain: quite a workout!
Aphrodite Macbain: I realize I still have my sword
Aphrodite Macbain: sword begone!
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Have you had a chance to work on the pavilion druth?
Aphrodite Macbain: Cat?
druth Vlodovic: not in-world,just doing concept work offline
Catrinamonblue Resident: still reading logs :)
Aphrodite Macbain: I like the masks now- they look bigger. We all wore one at the 1pm session
Eliza Madrigal: not like there are that many or anything :P
Catrinamonblue Resident: nice :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Thank you for all your research Eliza - it was an eyeopener
Eliza Madrigal: oh, most welcome
Aphrodite Macbain: I realize a lot of the info I need is in the chronicles
Eliza Madrigal: sorry to gush like that ::flood of nonlinear info::::
Aphrodite Macbain: and I talked to Wol and Blue at my session
Eliza Madrigal: ah, great
Aphrodite Macbain: gush away
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Aphrodite Macbain: enthusiasm is us
Eliza Madrigal: I feel really happy about this project... there is so much there to appreciate
Eliza Madrigal: so thank you
Bleu Oleander's current display-name is "Bleu".
Aphrodite Macbain: thank druth- it was her concept
Eliza Madrigal: I've learned some things too... like, how quickly everything developed
Bleu Oleander: hi all :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Beautiful Bleu!
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Bleu :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Bleu
Aphrodite Macbain: Yes things developed very quickly in 2008 didnt they?
Eliza Madrigal: very!
Bleu Oleander: OMG what happened to druth?
Aphrodite Macbain: Cal!!
Eliza Madrigal: hehehhe
druth Vlodovic: I find it funny the way people talk about the old meeting places when they were used for so short a time
Aphrodite Macbain: welcome
Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Cal glad you made it!
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Cal :)
druth Vlodovic: welcomeup fromdown under cal :)
Bleu Oleander: hiya Cal :)
Eliza Madrigal: It is the "first energy" feeling I think
druth Vlodovic: hi bleu
Aphrodite Macbain: yes- a new project, fresh and clean like a blank page
Calvino Rabeni: Hello everyone :)
Eliza Madrigal: I was fond of that place before PaB, so when I learned PaB started there it felt extra nice (tea hut)
Aphrodite Macbain: waves down under
Eliza Madrigal: :)
druth Vlodovic: and new to SL too,which is a big change in itself
Aphrodite Macbain: I remember you are fond of the tea house
Aphrodite Macbain: right- everything was new
Aphrodite Macbain: there are strange eyeshape things floating arund
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Bleu Oleander: you're being watched :)
Aphrodite Macbain: nnoooooooo
Aphrodite Macbain starts to get paranoid
Eliza Madrigal: the eyes have it... between bleu and druth...
Bleu Oleander: hehe
Aphrodite Macbain: snort
Bleu Oleander: hahaha!
Aphrodite Macbain: Cal I claimed the session
Aphrodite Macbain: Feel free to claim it back:-)
Calvino Rabeni: Thanks Aph:)
Aphrodite Macbain: The theme for the week is hidden layers
Aphrodite Macbain: yw
Catrinamonblue Resident: the hidden layers of our personalities, they play games in the streets of our minds
Aphrodite Macbain: nice
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eliza Madrigal nods...
--BELL--
Aphrodite Macbain: layers playing games- sounds like an LSD dream
Aphrodite Macbain: floating colours
Aphrodite Macbain looks at druth and things of very unhidden layers
Aphrodite Macbain: thinks
Aphrodite Macbain: of pasta
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eliza Madrigal: you remind me of a deity Bleu - they are usually depicted with halos of the sort you are wearing... iconographic :)
Bleu Oleander: noodles :)
Bleu Oleander: I like that Eliza :)
Eliza Madrigal: that's a bit of a hidden layer come to light
Catrinamonblue Resident: I sometimes wonder hopw many personalities reside within
Catrinamonblue Resident: the child
Catrinamonblue Resident: the mother
Catrinamonblue Resident: the old crone :)
Aphrodite Macbain: no old crone you CAt!
Aphrodite Macbain: Give yourself 30 years!
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Calvino Rabeni: One for every person you ever got to know well ?
Catrinamonblue Resident: but I think it's there none the less
Catrinamonblue Resident: thinking about death and rest and peace
Catrinamonblue Resident: just as the child thinks of fun and games to play
Bleu Oleander: interesting Cal
Eliza Madrigal: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: like that cal :)
Aphrodite Macbain: death is neither- it's nothing
Catrinamonblue Resident: the end that's all folks?
Aphrodite Macbain: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: I don't think so
Catrinamonblue Resident: I think there's more after
Aphrodite Macbain: livein and enjoy the present
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: I try
Bleu Oleander: interesting ... someone I knew well just died and maybe my personality with that person did too
Catrinamonblue Resident: hugs Bleu
Bleu Oleander: ty :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Wow. Blue. What do you mean?
Eliza Madrigal: mmm, nods (((Bleu)))
Bleu Oleander: well ...
Bleu Oleander: I was a certain personality with that person
Aphrodite Macbain: you are saying you wont be fully that way with anyone else?
Bleu Oleander: and now I don't have a use for that personality if you know what I mean
Eliza Madrigal resonates
Catrinamonblue Resident: I think I understand
Bleu Oleander: was a unique relationship
Calvino Rabeni adds pets to the notion of internalizing others
Bleu Oleander: yes pets!
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes Cal :)
Aphrodite Macbain: My 2 black cats fill up most of my being!
Eliza Madrigal: perhaps there is a unique set of beings that exist between individuals perhaps.. that only exist then
Eliza Madrigal: (-one perhaps ;-)
Calvino Rabeni: when one's parents die, perhaps then the internal version gets more active...
druth Vlodovic: a group mind of sorts
Calvino Rabeni: group personalities Eliza?
Eliza Madrigal: in a way... but someones you'd only see by being with that person/when with that person
Eliza Madrigal: both a 'you' and a 'them'
Bleu Oleander: interesting to realize how different people bring out different things in you
Eliza Madrigal: that is unique
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Eliza Madrigal: yes
Eliza Madrigal: we catch unique sights of each other
Aphrodite Macbain: yes- the more friends we have the more aspects of ourselves get excercise
Aphrodite Macbain: d
Bleu Oleander: that's true ... never really thought about that
Calvino Rabeni: the circumstances and relationships do evoke us in different ways ... each other like a kind of muse
Calvino Rabeni: Yes Aph :)
druth Vlodovic: so if your relationship with a person changes does that imply the death of the personality you had with them?
Eliza Madrigal: yes... like a muse
Bleu Oleander: that's what I was feeling druth
Catrinamonblue Resident: maybe a morphing of the personality to the change Druth?
Bleu Oleander: not all changes are so dramatic probably but some may be
Eliza Madrigal: rare is the friendship that adapts through many changes and entertain many manifestations.. like a wide potential field...
Eliza Madrigal: *entertains
druth Vlodovic: maybe why the end of relationships is often so traumatic, it is literally a fight for survival
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Eliza Madrigal nods
Eliza Madrigal: abandonment
Bleu Oleander: hmmm yes, a part of you ends also
--BELL--
druth Vlodovic: in order to adapt to a changing relationship you'd have to accept, or even invite, the death, a sort of Shiva experience
Eliza Madrigal: hmm
Aphrodite Macbain: detachment perhaps, rather than death
Bleu Oleander: an easing of boundaries
Aphrodite Macbain: It is a fine line between dependency and closeness
Eliza Madrigal: thinking of things this way, it seems natural to continue talking to someone 'underneath' when they are gone because something unique endures
Catrinamonblue Resident: I still talk to my friend who died in a car accident several years ago
Catrinamonblue Resident: I miss her and like to think she missed me too
Aphrodite Macbain: I am different with every friend I have; which really does implies layers of ourselves that get unearthed like an archeological dig, when someone has the tools to dig that deep
Bleu Oleander: (((Cat)))
Aphrodite Macbain: aww Cat
Eliza Madrigal nods... sorry for your loss Cat
Catrinamonblue Resident: ty
Eliza Madrigal likes your analogy very much Aph
druth Vlodovic: some people say they are the same everywhere and with everyone
Aphrodite Macbain: what's the latest dirt? I ask myself
Calvino Rabeni: thats a tough one .. people can't bear abandonment
Aphrodite Macbain: I wonder if that's true druth. Maybe they only look for people that bring out one aspect of them. Perhaps we select what we get as fiends
Eliza Madrigal: Hello Paradise :)
Bleu Oleander: hiya Para :)
Calvino Rabeni: And yet, many would answer the question - where can I most fully be my true self - with some version of a desert tropical island or unchallenging sanctuary
Aphrodite Macbain: Hello paradise
Calvino Rabeni: Good evening Paradise
Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Para :)
Aphrodite Macbain: hmm I am my true self with one or two friends, none of whom judge me
Paradise Tennant: smiles all round .. hiya cal .. aph ..elliza druth cat :)
Paradise Tennant: cal you are not looking yourself :)
Eliza Madrigal: :) Cal, you mean without any other people to interfere?
Calvino Rabeni: yes i think that is a common idea
Paradise Tennant: nor are you druth now you have rezzed
Catrinamonblue Resident: do you know who your true self is?
Paradise Tennant: was thinking it was a dress
Paradise Tennant: smiles :))) what a great question cat :)
Calvino Rabeni: not looking myself ... ... feeling like a white oval
druth Vlodovic: are we our true selves when nobody is around?
Bleu Oleander: looking a little "ruthed" to me Cal
Eliza Madrigal: I see you as Calvina with many similar characteristics :)
Calvino Rabeni: I see :)
druth Vlodovic: or are other people necessary to us to be who we are?
Bleu Oleander: to a certain extent I think so druth
Aphrodite Macbain: are you truly yourself when you travel Cal?
Calvino Rabeni: my avater must have come partly apert over the pacific ocean somewhere
druth Vlodovic: she looks cute with the five o'clock shadow
Eliza Madrigal: hehhe
Bleu Oleander: ha!
Paradise Tennant: smiles bleu you look amazing tonight :) so creative
Bleu Oleander: oh ty Para :)
druth Vlodovic: actually, how are you finding that cal?
druth Vlodovic: are you different people in different places?
Calvino Rabeni: i find it evokes changes to the limits of my flexibility, then I find out where the rigid places are
Aphrodite Macbain: there are o expectations of you when you go to new places. You can reinvent yourself
Paradise Tennant: I think we reinvent ourselves a little every day
Bleu Oleander: "whereever you go you take yourself with you?"
Paradise Tennant: kind of have to ..bits of us wear off no longer fit
Calvino Rabeni: for example I find bargaining takes effort and if I am tired I don't want to... if one had to bargain for food I'd probably have lost a lot of weight
Aphrodite Macbain: yes- a bit like SL
Calvino Rabeni: :)
Aphrodite Macbain: You can act and dress the way you want -
Aphrodite Macbain: lol Cal
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Aphrodite Macbain: You get used to it
Calvino Rabeni: I missed one boat by not pushing to the front
Bleu Oleander: interesting ... bargaining kinda related to sales which really is like becoming a separate personality in a way
Aphrodite Macbain: was it urgent?
Eliza Madrigal: indeed, Bleu
Bleu Oleander: a forced personality
Aphrodite Macbain: a foreful personality
Bleu Oleander: never really came naturally to me
Aphrodite Macbain: forceful
--BELL--
Santoshima Resident: 's current display-name is "San".
Aphrodite Macbain whispers "Hi San"
druth Vlodovic: I wonder if it is related more to people in big families having both the need and "safe zone" to be aggressively themselves
Bleu Oleander: hi San :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi San
Eliza Madrigal: Hi San
druth Vlodovic: hi san
Santoshima Resident: greetings everyone
Paradise Tennant: hiya san
Calvino Rabeni: Hi San :)
Aphrodite Macbain: I always separatd myself from my family - perhaps it has something to do with being the eldest
druth Vlodovic: San Walton
Bleu Oleander: birth order issues perhaps?
Catrinamonblue Resident: I'm the eldest too Aph :)
Bleu Oleander: me too
Eliza Madrigal: me too :)
Aphrodite Macbain: never put it that way , but maybe
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eliza Madrigal: well... more like an only with a 10 yr gap
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Aphrodite Macbain: the eldest seems always to be the one who has to take charge
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: take care of the siblings :)
Aphrodite Macbain: and since I dodnt always feel like taking charge; I ckinda took 2 steps backwards
Aphrodite Macbain: or 100
Eliza Madrigal: hmm
Aphrodite Macbain: layers upon layers
Catrinamonblue Resident: mmmm I had no choice but to take charge and so have continued to take charge
Aphrodite Macbain: of built up history
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes Aph I agree
Calvino Rabeni: the eldest learns the "rules" from parents and the younger ones by watching what happens with the older ones
Eliza Madrigal: and if there is a breakdown of parents then oldest springs into a new way of being to fill the space
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: I did
Catrinamonblue Resident: taking care of everyone mother included
Santoshima Resident: big responsibility
Paradise Tennant: that must have been hard .. when you are young to have so much responsibilty
Aphrodite Macbain: they become adult far too soon
druth Vlodovic: lacking the background and strength of character to watch how their experiences are warping them
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes but not necessarily mature adults
Eliza Madrigal: good to revisit perhaps and see what has changed, from time to time
Eliza Madrigal: if there is room that wasn't there before
Eliza Madrigal: for things like play :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: pillow fights :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: (hits Druth)
druth Vlodovic bites back
Catrinamonblue Resident: tickles
Aphrodite Macbain looks for a pillow
Eliza Madrigal: nice to spend Sunday night with you all, thanks!
Paradise Tennant: smiles
Bleu Oleander: nite Eliza :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: Bye Eliza
druth Vlodovic: sweet dreams eliza
Paradise Tennant: take care eliza :)
Santoshima Resident: bye, g'nite
Eliza Madrigal: Night and wishing well, pleasant dreams
Aphrodite Macbain: nite Eliza sleep well
Catrinamonblue Resident: Night San
druth Vlodovic: 'night san
Paradise Tennant: nite nite san
Bleu Oleander: nite San
Aphrodite Macbain: bye san
Catrinamonblue Resident: (swings a pillow at Aph) :)
Aphrodite Macbain: Bleu- I think you should design line of clothing. I know PAra and I would buy you out!
Bleu Oleander: ha!
Aphrodite Macbain: catches the pillow aaand throws it back
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Bleu Oleander: that would be a full time job!
Aphrodite Macbain: You should share your creativity with PABBERS
Bleu Oleander: sure anytime :)
Aphrodite Macbain: I STILL think we should do a variety show in the Molecule Theatre.
Aphrodite Macbain: You could dress us!!
Bleu Oleander: yes
Paradise Tennant: ues !
Aphrodite Macbain: maybe a chorus line
druth Vlodovic: isn't that in the works?
Paradise Tennant: yes even
Aphrodite Macbain: nothing specific druth
Aphrodite Macbain: all words at this point
Bleu Oleander: we have a meeting this week?
Aphrodite Macbain: I am trying to confirm times
Aphrodite Macbain: see your email
Bleu Oleander: ok
--BELL--
Aphrodite Macbain: druth is having a hard time
druth Vlodovic sniffles
Aphrodite Macbain: arg- pasta with the sniffles!
druth Vlodovic: that's why it is so drippy
Aphrodite Macbain: @@
Aphrodite Macbain: I should go
Paradise Tennant: sigh me too ..
Catrinamonblue Resident: what can we do to help Druth (hands her a towl to dry off)
Paradise Tennant: :)) another week ..
Aphrodite Macbain: throws a pillow at druth
Paradise Tennant: stays and listens ?
Paradise Tennant: what kind of help ?
Calvino Rabeni: same actually ... I just uncrashed to say bye for now :)
Aphrodite Macbain: OK here's your chance druth...
Bleu Oleander: nite all :)
Calvino Rabeni: be well, dream well everyone
Bleu Oleander: sweet dreams
Catrinamonblue Resident: Night Bleu, Cal :)
Aphrodite Macbain: byee. hope to see you tomorr Cal
Paradise Tennant: nite nite bleu
druth Vlodovic: oh, I was just realizing i have no idea what anyone else in the anniversary group is doing
Aphrodite Macbain: not much druth
Aphrodite Macbain: you are doing most
druth Vlodovic: and it looks like I'm missing this week's meeting too
Aphrodite Macbain: we haven't decided yet
Paradise Tennant: ahh what was the timng for all of this ?
Aphrodite Macbain: Friday is still a possibility except for Storm
druth Vlodovic: and bleu
druth Vlodovic: but paradise seems ok with it! 8-)
druth Vlodovic: let's put her to work
Paradise Tennant: for the anniversary projects
Aphrodite Macbain: I'll send you an IM Para
Aphrodite Macbain: I'm trying to coordinate it
Paradise Tennant: ok fill me in i don't read all the emails
Paradise Tennant: ok :)
Paradise Tennant: well nite nite aph druth cat :)) sweet dreams and easy on those pillows :)
Aphrodite Macbain: I sent out an email 3 weeks ago asking who would like to be on the committee
druth Vlodovic: 'night para
Aphrodite Macbain: we have met once
druth Vlodovic: & aph
Catrinamonblue Resident: NIght all