2009.04.02 07:00 - Aloha Gecko

A singing gecko, ... - CH

stevenaia Michinaga: Hi Caledonia, I'm kind am here multi tasking, nice to see you
Caledonia Heron: hi Stevenaia :)
Caledonia Heron: nice to see you also
stevenaia Michinaga: quite the parties last week
Caledonia Heron: :) yes, a lot of build-up :)
Caledonia Heron: I came by yesterday at 7 and there were a lot of people
stevenaia Michinaga: hmmm, I think I was here (my guardian slot)
Caledonia Heron: 7am - I bet you are 7pm?
stevenaia Michinaga: or do you mean am
Caledonia Heron: yes :)
stevenaia Michinaga: yes

Caledonia Heron: did many people come by?
stevenaia Michinaga: I will be posting many pictures on the wiki, at least a full inner ring
stevenaia Michinaga: I need better video export from SL :)
Caledonia Heron: :)
Caledonia Heron: so a lot of people came?
stevenaia Michinaga: yes, and lots of fireworks, party hats , sprinklers, and drinking
stevenaia Michinaga: Absynthe
Caledonia Heron: :)
Caledonia Heron: any discussion?
Caledonia Heron: hey Adams :)
stevenaia Michinaga: light discussion, and lots of falling down
Adams Rubble: Hi. Just have time to say hello. I received an email on the way
Adams Rubble: hehe
stevenaia Michinaga: /stop
stevenaia Michinaga: stop
stevenaia Michinaga: did I do that?
Caledonia Heron: oh, ok Adams

Caledonia Heron: I was asking Stevenaia about his goc slot yesterday
Caledonia Heron: the one in the morning was kind of strange imo
Caledonia Heron: a Lot of people but no talking
Caledonia Heron: I should have guessed people were in IM or multi-tasking
Adams Rubble: Yes, the 19:00 lots of lights
Adams Rubble: I wasn't in IM yesterday morning. Just didn;t know what to say
Caledonia Heron: oh good ... to me that is better
stevenaia Michinaga: the log is up but the pics will be loaded shortly
Adams Rubble: I was feeling everyone
Caledonia Heron: I wasn't sure what to say either
Caledonia Heron: ok, so just kind of being together I guess
Adams Rubble: I have more pics on my other computer Steve that I could add if you need any. I will look tonight and see if I have anything you don't
Adams Rubble: yes Cal
Adams Rubble: excuse me a sec

stevenaia Michinaga: sure, email them to me when you have a chance, many from me and Pila
Caledonia Heron: that's great about the pics Stevenaia, you are good about that :)
stevenaia Michinaga: I must be off, RL arrives, see you soon
Caledonia Heron: bye :)
Adams Rubble: Sorry I am not much fun this morning
Caledonia Heron: it's ok I understand
Caledonia Heron: here comes a plane... to the right
Adams Rubble: We just migrated 120,000 images to a new software and we have been trying to get the mapping right. They just sent me another version to check
Adams Rubble: a plane?
Caledonia Heron: the plane disappeared
Caledonia Heron: that is a lot of images .... you will be checking the versions a few times :)
Adams Rubble: No it looks like a go this time
Caledonia Heron: ah, excellent!
Adams Rubble: but now I have a doctor's appt. to go to
Caledonia Heron: ok, we'll see each other another time :)
Adams Rubble: bye for now :)
Caledonia Heron: bye :)
Caledonia Heron: nice tail :)

Eliza Madrigal: Hi Caledonia :)
Caledonia Heron: hi Eliza :)
Eliza Madrigal: Everyone must be partied out :)
Caledonia Heron: yes, maybe so :)
Eliza Madrigal: heheh
Caledonia Heron: I was about to leave :)
Caledonia Heron: have a seat
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eliza Madrigal: Don't let me keep you though!
Caledonia Heron: it's ok, I scheduled this time to be here :)
Caledonia Heron: how are you?
Eliza Madrigal: Oh :) I'm well. Very.
Eliza Madrigal: You?
Caledonia Heron: good! thanks :)
Eliza Madrigal: I'm feeling unusually bold lately...sharing things normally wouldn't...had brought a note this morning if there was no other topic...
Caledonia Heron: would you care to share it?
Caledonia Heron: ah, thank you :)
Eliza Madrigal: Love your picture , btw :)
Caledonia Heron: :)
Caledonia Heron: reading note.... sec
Caledonia Heron: great story!

Eliza Madrigal: :) It seems to have more relevance lately...so much talk of switching to an appreciative view :) Thanks :)
Caledonia Heron: the way the gecko went from annoying, to celebrity annoyer, to accepted singer and then disappearance is a great take on perspective :)
Eliza Madrigal: yes...funny little experience, and then right after that...for PaB to open up for me....
Caledonia Heron: :) sometimes the universe lines up
Eliza Madrigal: :) Yes, sometimes.
Caledonia Heron: one thing that tapped me as I was reading the note was the sounds in the experience ... some of the interesting instances I can remember about perspective are bound and perhaps stimulated by sound .... I have heard others say that also
Eliza Madrigal: That is something I haven't thought too much about, but then after this, I began to hear music in more and more "ordinary" things
Eliza Madrigal: I'd love to hear more about others' experiences though
Caledonia Heron: yes, I can imagine
Caledonia Heron: (imagine you can hear music in things, not wanting to hear stuff :)
Eliza Madrigal: hehe :)
Caledonia Heron: several unexplainable instances for me related to sound; water, waves, wind, music .... the things in all our daily lives
Eliza Madrigal: MM Water , yes.

Eliza Madrigal: The appreciative view opens up worlds within worlds within worlds
Caledonia Heron: yes, I can see that ... a kind of nesting ... my experience is more kind of flat ... that it's all the same thing ... there is no differentiation, kind of just open space
Caledonia Heron: where it all happens or exists
Eliza Madrigal: Hmmm...flat. I'm picturing what I think you mean.
Caledonia Heron: not flat like a desert (almost typed dessert :) but flat like there are no heirarchies, it all exists together, one thing
Eliza Madrigal: Ah, yes!! That I see.
Eliza Madrigal: One thing doesn't matter more than another...saying hello and goodbye the same, in a sense
Caledonia Heron: aloha :)
Eliza Madrigal: :) Shalom
Caledonia Heron: lol

Eliza Madrigal: It helps one to be a tad "nicer" also...to listen more deeply...I was so annoyed in a teaching the other day..with this girl making comments...
Eliza Madrigal: but then I tuned in better...because the speaker thought her comments were funny and not intrusive...
Eliza Madrigal: realized that he loved her....
Eliza Madrigal: So I haerd from that angle and then she didn't annoy me anymore either :)
Caledonia Heron: wow
Caledonia Heron: yeah, you know I think this relates to what I think of as being willing to give up a position, whatever it is you are thinking is so about a situation, and it frees you up to multiple perspectives ... like the gecko :)
Eliza Madrigal: yes...she was my gecko that day. :)
Caledonia Heron: lol, I think my gecko for the day arrived in my morning email :)
Eliza Madrigal: Oh no....something you have to have a wider perspective on?
Eliza Madrigal: Or just make peace with being annoyed at?lol
Caledonia Heron: well, something I don't have to do but I would really like the situation to resolve well and I have so much mental chatter about this, I am releasing that chatter to see it as an independent phenomena, someone in the world without my chatter and expectation so I can be with that person freely
Caledonia Heron: does that make any sense?
Caledonia Heron: I am allowing myself to not have a story or expectation
Eliza Madrigal: Ahhhh. Sometimes those feelings can take a while to untangle. You'd *like* to allow...
Caledonia Heron: yes dearly
Caledonia Heron: it is hard to let go enough to open perspective
Eliza Madrigal: Oh :( Yes, I do understand that....
Caledonia Heron: so, I will be open, honest, myself, expect nothing, let it create itself
Eliza Madrigal: That's lovely. Let is create itself.
Caledonia Heron: give some room to breathe :)
Eliza Madrigal: And in the meantime....Breathe :)
Caledonia Heron: lol
Caledonia Heron: are we synched up or what?
Eliza Madrigal: heheh

Caledonia Heron: we humans are such a ticklish lot
Eliza Madrigal: :) Sensitive
Caledonia Heron: to a fault sometimes .... enough with the feelings already :)
Caledonia Heron: jk :)
Eliza Madrigal: No kidding! hahe
Eliza Madrigal: After the bell....(it will be nice to sit a moment with you and think about that) I'll have to be off...dd leaving for NY tomorrow and I've shopping :)
Caledonia Heron: fun in NY! :)
Caledonia Heron: yes, good idea, we'll leave after the chime
Eliza Madrigal: I so would like to go with her...sigh:) She is 16 tho...first trip away :)
Caledonia Heron: oh gosh, big step ..... harder for you than her maybe :) I like the idea of having a notecard ... to help tell the experience
Caledonia Heron: maybe I will try that, so I can directly relate the experiences I have more clearly
Caledonia Heron: may I include the text of the note in the transcript?
Eliza Madrigal: :) In evening meditations at the zen retreat, Isen or Martie give out notes...usually book exerpts...so that's where the idea came from this morning :)
Eliza Madrigal: Sure :)
Caledonia Heron: for sure, a good method

Caledonia Heron: I'm so glad you came this morning .... I am better for it
Caledonia Heron: your are lovely to share, I'm glad you found pab :)
Eliza Madrigal: Thanks so much. This was really pleasant time and nice company :)
Caledonia Heron: :)
Eliza Madrigal: Thank you!!
Eliza Madrigal: Bye for now
Caledonia Heron: bye, see you soon :)

  

Here is the text of the notecard Eliza gave me:

Buddha Gecko

Several months ago a very loud gecko decided to make his home right outside of my bedroom window. Nearly every night, either as I was just falling asleep or had been asleep a little while, he (true, I don't KNOW it was a he but that's my sense) would start loudly creaking out the most horrible and aggravating sound.
The best I can do here is "RwaaaaccKK!" "Rrwaaaaaaaaaaaccck!"
Over and over again he would make this noise, and just when I thought he was done, he's start again. I was so tired, and there was absolutely nothing I could do. When I would go to the back yard, he was nowhere to be seen!

I'm not a violent person, but I pictured myself shooting the little bugger if I could only find him. Of course, I do not own a gun, and that is why.

This went on for MONTHS. He became the topic of conversation at dinners and holidays...a celebrity really. Every night as I neared the bed I would pray "Not tonight...please not tonight..." But he would do his thing that night...and the next...and the next.

Writing a blog for friends one day I remarked that he had to be there to teach me patience, or allowing, or finding the beauty in EVERYTHING..something. At first I wrote in a half joking manner, but as I did, I began to sense that this "problem" might indeed be here to teach me something... if I could just embrace it.

I didn't *feel* that yet, but I <em>began</em> the process of wanting to, which is often all one can do!

Flash forward a week or two, and as I'm lingering in a marvelous wake/sleep state, he begins. In this state though, and I suppose having already made a determination, I decided that there was no other choice but listen to what the gecko was there to tell me.

And I know you won't believe this, but when I did...when I shifted my hearing that little bit, he began to sing the most BEAUTIFUL song you can imagine.
I could hear, mentally, that it was the same sound he'd been making all those months, but now there was music in it....an ethereal and awakening sound that went on and on and on...a cascading melody which gave me chills.

I awoke dazzled and refreshed.

And He was gone within days.

Lots to ponder in there.
   
    -Eliza