2009.04.15 19:00 - Sidestepping the ego

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    The Guardian for this meeting was stevenaia Michinaga. The comments are by stevenaia Michinaga.

    stevenaia Michinaga: hello aural

    aurel Miles: hi steve

    stevenaia Michinaga: hi Lover, are you here for the meeting?

    aurel Miles: hi everyone

    stevenaia Michinaga: hello Tallulah

    Tallulah Bourjade smiles

    Tallulah Bourjade: hello

    Peer Infinity: hi everyone :)

    stevenaia Michinaga: hello Peer

    stevenaia Michinaga: have you been here before Tallulah?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: Peer has been here before, and Tally is a friend of mine.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: I gave her the notecards and the warning..

    stevenaia Michinaga: welcome

    stevenaia Michinaga: warning, we have warnings?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: umm..Tally..do you mind if we post your words on the wiki?

    stevenaia Michinaga: hello Sophia

    Tallulah Bourjade: not at all -smiles-

    SophiaSharon Larnia: Hi :)

    Corvuscorva Nightfire grins...that warning

    stevenaia Michinaga: oh, nods

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: though perhaps we ought to have others.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire laughs.

    aurel Miles: may be

    SophiaSharon Larnia: I feel really quiet today, I don't know why I come :P

    Corvuscorva Nightfire smiles..sometimes i come here and don't say two words.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: just hi.

    stevenaia Michinaga: I feel the void of empty pockets after paying my taxes, does that count?

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes it does Steve..yes Corvi lol

    aurel Miles: bearing witness is as important as speaking

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes

    SophiaSharon Larnia: it's this Seeing being, Being seeing..... me,

    aurel Miles: maybe more important

    stevenaia Michinaga: doesn't anyone have spare bunny ears, I feel underdressed

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods to Sophia..what about that?

    stevenaia Michinaga: thank you

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: hmm..it was all i could find

    stevenaia Michinaga: more flopsie than perkie

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods

    SophiaSharon Larnia: a pause... a stop... I can't say it in words yet

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods, listening.

    stevenaia Michinaga: but it suits y moment

    SophiaSharon Larnia: but it goes away the second i step into work

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: ah!

    SophiaSharon Larnia: what does being see, looking through my eyes

    SophiaSharon Larnia: the world?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire tilts my head, thoughtfully.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: i don't know.

    stevenaia Michinaga: thinks for a moment

    SophiaSharon Larnia: being is me, so what do I see?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: or is that a backwards way to look at it

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: i don't' thinks so.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: shrugs

    stevenaia Michinaga: it gets crowded in here when being sees through my eyes

    SophiaSharon Larnia laughs

    stevenaia Michinaga: prefer to See Being Seeing

    stevenaia Michinaga: no eyes needed

    aurel Miles: but the third

    stevenaia Michinaga: very much so

    SophiaSharon Larnia: but that feels to me like 'stepping out of the way' so to speak, like trance channelers do

    Corvuscorva Nightfire listens...

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: we've talked alot here about getting ourselves out of the way

    SophiaSharon Larnia: i feel that it's a conscious process

    SophiaSharon Larnia: or should be

    stevenaia Michinaga: more like getting our "stuff" out of the way

    SophiaSharon Larnia: should*

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: getting ourselves out of the way?

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes Steve

    SophiaSharon Larnia: our egos anyway...but something doesn't feel right about that

    stevenaia Michinaga: back to "stuff" the cobwebs that get in the way of clarity

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: can you say more?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: about what doesn't feel right?

    SophiaSharon Larnia: i can but know thins is recorded and hate to ramble lol

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: I've learned more from other people's ramblings than from "experts"

    stevenaia Michinaga: sometime rambling is so much more than you think

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: so..i hope you'll be willing to ramble a bit.

    stevenaia Michinaga: ..listens

    SophiaSharon Larnia: sidestepping the ego seems to me to be not what we are supposed to do

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: like we are to bring being into the physical world, which means in to our conscious awareness

    stevenaia Michinaga: sidestepping? or dropping

    SophiaSharon Larnia: sidestepping in the sense that the ego is disregarded and pushed aside

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: mmm..hmm...

    SophiaSharon Larnia: collectively, it is awareness, being awake, that seems the most important to me

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: awareness! Awake!

    SophiaSharon Larnia: awake in all sense of the word

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: that makes sense to me.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: in physicality

    SophiaSharon Larnia: 3d

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: but! what do i know

    Corvuscorva Nightfire grins.

    stevenaia Michinaga: more and more :)

    SophiaSharon Larnia: bringing something in, inviting

    SophiaSharon Larnia: joining

    stevenaia Michinaga: I see it more like making space for something else

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes

    SophiaSharon Larnia: dropping cultural conditioning etc that hinders the process

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: dropping the sense that "I" begins or stops "here"

    stevenaia Michinaga: dusting the cobwebs away to see the hidden corners

    SophiaSharon Larnia: :)

    stevenaia Michinaga: inside

    SophiaSharon Larnia: still trying to do that I have always gotten way ahead of my self

    SophiaSharon Larnia: ego rather oops

    stevenaia Michinaga: hard to see with stuff in the way, tripping over the tightly held things

    SophiaSharon Larnia: but it is ricocheting in my head again, was glad to go to work

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods

    stevenaia Michinaga: what sort of work do you do that quiets yo

    stevenaia Michinaga: you

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: I feel that way sometimes, too, Sophia.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: it doesn't quiet me it distracts me

    SophiaSharon Larnia: makes my mind too busy for anything else

    stevenaia Michinaga: quiet can be a nice distraction, distraction can be a nice quiet too

    SophiaSharon Larnia: so i am conflicted on what drop means too

    stevenaia Michinaga: I seem to to be able to find quiet most places, sometimes even when the yelling around me is the loudest

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes I'm anurse i do that too

    SophiaSharon Larnia: brb

    stevenaia Michinaga: oh, a nurse

    stevenaia Michinaga: must be this hat

    SophiaSharon Larnia: what must be the hat Steve?

    stevenaia Michinaga: that I thought anurse was a something I didn;t understand

    SophiaSharon Larnia: lol

    SophiaSharon Larnia: my typing gets worse the harder i try sorries

    stevenaia Michinaga: well mine never gets better

    stevenaia Michinaga: (typing)

    Corvuscorva Nightfire grins.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: all that practice...and still..

    aurel Miles is falling asleep - not feeling well tonight, i think i'll be off

    stevenaia Michinaga: thanks for joining us

    SophiaSharon Larnia: night :)

    aurel Miles: goodnight all

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: g'night, Aurel!

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: Sleep well.

    stevenaia Michinaga: night Aurel

    SophiaSharon Larnia: i am just so angry, at the state of the world, humanity etc etc...and sense this divine presence which for some reason makes me angrier

    SophiaSharon Larnia: what to do

    stevenaia Michinaga: to start, let go of the anger

    stevenaia Michinaga: my tai Chi teacher told us a story

    stevenaia Michinaga: she called it "kick the cat"

    SophiaSharon Larnia: ill kick something but maybe not the cat

    stevenaia Michinaga: Starts like this....

    stevenaia Michinaga: driving to work someone cuts you off.... so you get angry

    stevenaia Michinaga: so you drive a bit faster , cut someone else off

    stevenaia Michinaga: the get to work annoyed and make their staff miserable

    stevenaia Michinaga: miserable staff has a bad day, goes home angry, yells about dinner and the kids

    stevenaia Michinaga: the kid run upstairs and kick the cat

    stevenaia Michinaga: the point is... not being angry has profound and far reaching benefits

    SophiaSharon Larnia: yes i understand

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods to Sophia

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: understanding does NOT make it different

    SophiaSharon Larnia: not all of the anger in mine

    SophiaSharon Larnia: is*

    SophiaSharon Larnia: no it doesn't

    stevenaia Michinaga: and the inverse works too... smile lightens the hearts of many

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: it's not that easy for most of us, Stevie.

    stevenaia Michinaga: nods, but telling stories is just a start

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    stevenaia Michinaga: I always wonder how much gets solved through anger

    SophiaSharon Larnia: this is what happens when the walls start to thin, angry

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: nothing does

    stevenaia Michinaga: but to listen to the quiet when you are angry, take that 9 second break and see, sometimes help

    stevenaia Michinaga: s

    SophiaSharon Larnia: :)

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: so..when the walls thin, you feel angry.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: do you mean..as you meditate?

    SophiaSharon Larnia: not at the time, but it does make me feel closer to my feelings

    SophiaSharon Larnia: later

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: ah!

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: i do have to go :)) talking about this right now is difficult

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    SophiaSharon Larnia: hopefully will be clearer later

    stevenaia Michinaga: thanks Sophia

    SophiaSharon Larnia: have a great night!

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: bye!

    stevenaia Michinaga: what did she mean about walls thinning?

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: you'll have to ask her..i can tell you what I'd

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: ve meant if i said it.

    stevenaia Michinaga: the separation between things.... nods

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: but not what she meant.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: letting my emotional self be.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: experiencing myself.

    Tallulah Bourjade: emotions are hard to deal with though, so it is safer at times to ... separate from them. Sometimes they are so overwhelming it is suffocating

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods.

    Tallulah Bourjade: ^suffocating -has fingers faster than her mind-

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: yes.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: 9 second meditations have been helpful to me that way.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: because three breaths isn't so long to experience tough things.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: i can stand that.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: and...eventually..i have let go of some of them.

    stevenaia Michinaga: tough things?

    Tallulah Bourjade: but it takes ... longer than 3 breaths to calm again

    Tallulah Bourjade: for me

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods...it took some practice.

    stevenaia Michinaga: calm is something that the more you se it, the easier it is to et there the next time, yes

    stevenaia Michinaga: *get

    Tallulah Bourjade: hmmm

    Corvuscorva Nightfire nods to Tally.

    stevenaia Michinaga: of course, it took Corvi only 4 words to say the same thing

    Tallulah Bourjade grins

    Corvuscorva Nightfire laughs and hits you with a pillow.

    stevenaia Michinaga: that was a compliment

    Corvuscorva Nightfire smiles, nods.

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: i know..but you were due a little pillow hitting.

    stevenaia Michinaga: Time for me to go

    stevenaia Michinaga: thank you for coming

    stevenaia Michinaga: feel free to stick around

    Tallulah Bourjade: time for me to go as well

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: ah

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: bye, Stevie, Tally

    Corvuscorva Nightfire: See ya later, Peer?

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