2013.03.12 19:00 - clinging to forgotten source of desire

     

    The Guardian for this meeting was Eos Amaterasu. The comments are by Eos Amaterasu.

     

    Eos Amaterasu: what stops?
    Eos Amaterasu: that could mean, 'what is it that is stopped?'
    Eos Amaterasu: or it could mean, 'what or who is doing the stopping?'
    Eos Amaterasu: the larger context is that of 'stop and drop'

    Eos Amaterasu: Hi Korel
    Korel Laloix: Hyea
    Korel Laloix: What is everyone else doing?
    Aphrodite Macbain: they are observing the Working Group!
    Eos Amaterasu: hmm, yes, I notice that some usual suspects are here but not here
    Eos Amaterasu: "the only person on the scene missing was the Jack of Hearts"
    Aphrodite Macbain: curiosity
    Korel Laloix: Jack of Hearts?
    Eos Amaterasu: (Bob Dylan quote)
    Korel Laloix: I do not understand the reference, sorry.
    Eliza Madrigal: 's current display-name is "Eliza".
    Aphrodite Macbain: Hi Eliza
    Bleu Oleander: 's current display-name is "Bleu".
    Eos Amaterasu: Hi Aph, Eliza
    Korel Laloix: Oh OK. I know who that is at least... smiles
    Aphrodite Macbain: whow was the WG meeting?
    Eliza Madrigal: Hi Eos, Kori, Aph, Bleu :)
    Eos Amaterasu: Hi Bleu
    Catrinamonblue Resident: 's current display-name is "Catrinamonblue".
    Aphrodite Macbain: Hey Cat
    Bleu Oleander: hi all :)
    Korel Laloix: Osiyo
    Eliza Madrigal: Hi Cat :)
    Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
    Eliza Madrigal: Hi Stevie... see you flew
    Eos Amaterasu: meow
    Catrinamonblue Resident: waiting for things to rezz :)
    Eliza Madrigal: (was a WG meeting tonight)
    Eos Amaterasu: & stevenaia
    Eos Amaterasu: & druth
    druth Vlodovic: hi
    Eliza Madrigal: Hi Druth :)
    Aphrodite Macbain: hi druth
    Eos Amaterasu: quite a circle here!
    Eos Amaterasu: & aph's by the water cooler
    Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Aph, everybody :)
    Eliza Madrigal: s: all okay Aph?
    Aphrodite Macbain: I am being rude. I'm sorry. I am poised to fly elsewhere
    Eos Amaterasu looks over at poise
    druth Vlodovic: ah, catch you later aph
    Aphrodite Macbain: :--)
    Eliza Madrigal: :) okay Aph, see you soon
    Korel Laloix: Poised to fly... a good band name.
    Bleu Oleander waves to Aph
    Catrinamonblue Resident: have fun Aph
    Korel Laloix: Ciao
    Aphrodite Macbain: please ignore me
    Eos Amaterasu: hah hah
    Korel Laloix: Impossible.
    Aphrodite Macbain: waves back to all her good buddies
    Eliza Madrigal: :)
    stevenaia Michinaga: lol
    druth Vlodovic: \me ignores aph
    Aphrodite Macbain: :-)
    stevenaia Michinaga: you stuck?
    Eos Amaterasu ignores aph
    Eliza Madrigal ignores everyone ignoring Aph
    Bleu Oleander: Aph? don't see her
    Bleu Oleander: hehe
    Eos Amaterasu: don't think of a blonde aphrodite
    Aphrodite Macbain: I'm just ignorant
    druth Vlodovic: ignores eliza ignoring me
    stevenaia Michinaga: I ahve been know to move immoblized avatars

    --BELL--

    Catrinamonblue Resident: lol
    Aphrodite Macbain: The sim I planned to go to has disappeared. :-(
    Eliza Madrigal: Oh :(
    Eos Amaterasu: it has dropped
    Bleu Oleander: :)
    Eos Amaterasu: whups
    Aphrodite Macbain: out of existence
    stevenaia Michinaga: Wasn't that last week?
    Catrinamonblue Resident: all the better for us to enjoy your company
    Eos Amaterasu: aph was going nowhere
    Aphrodite Macbain: nohow
    Eos Amaterasu: noway
    Bleu Oleander: poised for nowhere

    Catrinamonblue Resident: well pull up a cushion and see what stops drops :)
    Eos Amaterasu: so...
    Eos Amaterasu: [19:06] Eos Amaterasu: what stops?
    [19:07] Eos Amaterasu: that could mean, 'what is it that is stopped?'
    [19:07] Eos Amaterasu: or it could mean, 'what or who is doing the stopping?'
    [19:07] Eos Amaterasu: the larger context is that of 'stop and drop'

    stevenaia Michinaga: monkey mind stops
    Eos Amaterasu: ah
    stevenaia Michinaga: always a good thing
    druth Vlodovic: why is monkey mind bad?
    stevenaia Michinaga: the clouds in the mind
    Bleu Oleander: who knows a monkey's mind anyway?
    Eos Amaterasu: "I'm not really bad - I'm just drawn that way" - Jessica Rabbit
    stevenaia Michinaga: like white noise, hard to see details in there
    Eliza Madrigal: I like this question because when I hear it/ask it of myself, I look to see what is going
    druth Vlodovic: so monkey mind means reacting to clutter?
    Eos Amaterasu: going from banana to peel
    stevenaia Michinaga: sometimes it's easier to see in others than youreself
    Eliza Madrigal: there is a story actually.. has to do with how to trap a monkey, which is to put something in a jar
    Eliza Madrigal: and when the monkey reaches in and grabs it, it cannot get its hand out
    Eos Amaterasu visualizes
    stevenaia Michinaga: monkey mind is the clutter you create
    Eliza Madrigal: because it won't let go, which would be necessary
    Bleu Oleander: that's a terrible story Eliza hehe
    Eliza Madrigal: but a true way monkeys were trapped... the jar was sort of glued to the ground
    Eos Amaterasu: gad, poor little monkey!
    Bleu Oleander: exactly
    Eliza Madrigal: so monkey mind is sort of like that
    Bleu Oleander: at least make it a rat
    druth Vlodovic: rats are probably smarter
    Catrinamonblue Resident: your mind gets trapped in a jar?
    Eliza Madrigal: quite applicable to clutter!
    Bleu Oleander: yes
    Eos Amaterasu: it's not the goodie that trapped the rat I(or monkey)
    Eliza Madrigal: there is a stuckness because the monkey wants the treat
    Eliza Madrigal: and may also want to be free
    Eliza Madrigal: but not as much
    Catrinamonblue Resident: running circles around the rim
    Bleu Oleander: no monkeys were harmed in this experiment :)
    Eliza Madrigal giggles
    Bleu Oleander: hehe
    Eliza Madrigal is very fond of monkeys and wants them to be free and happy
    Eos Amaterasu: maybe the monkey notices that she is hanging on
    Eos Amaterasu: and relaxes
    druth Vlodovic: then they must let go of their attachment to a source of happiness in order to be free
    Catrinamonblue Resident: ouch
    Catrinamonblue Resident: hard to do
    Catrinamonblue Resident: let go of me
    Eos Amaterasu: maybe the monkey just gets distracted
    Bleu Oleander: like we do
    Eos Amaterasu: :-)

    druth Vlodovic: find greater unhappiness by clinging to a forgotten source of desire
    Catrinamonblue Resident: desire is not happiness
    Eliza Madrigal: forgotten source of desire... intriguing phrase
    Eos Amaterasu: clinging to a forgotten source of desire sounds very painful
    Eos Amaterasu: the clinging is there, banana forgotten
    Eos Amaterasu: monkeys r us
    Bleu Oleander: banana mind
    druth Vlodovic: ifit were painful maybe we would do it less
    Bleu Oleander: doubt that hehe
    druth Vlodovic: :)
    Catrinamonblue Resident: maybe we don't realize the pain the the desire for the treat

    Bleu Oleander: what about desire for happiness?
    Bleu Oleander: we cling to that?
    Eos Amaterasu: that's the virtue of boredom, that maybe subtler and harder to see ignoreds get more visible
    Catrinamonblue Resident: happiness comes from within not by clinging or desire it just is
    Eliza Madrigal: perhaps feel we are owed that and if we don't feel it we panic (in US promised life liberty etc)
    Eliza Madrigal: although I guess we're really only promised the pursuit of it
    Eliza Madrigal: :)
    druth Vlodovic: in canada we got security of person, happiness is your own look out
    Eos Amaterasu: Madison, eh
    Bleu Oleander: so desiring happiness for one's self .... hmmm seems self centered?
    druth Vlodovic: thinking that leads to desire to be unhappy
    stevenaia Michinaga: usually desiring isn't having, and having isn't desiring

    --BELL--

    druth Vlodovic: desire for virtue
    Catrinamonblue Resident: doesn't like the word desire :( for me has connentations of unhappiness due to unrealistic expectations of desire
    druth Vlodovic: "I surrendered all desire and got everything i wanted" lol
    Bleu Oleander: some desires are ok I think
    Catrinamonblue Resident: what ones Bleu?
    Bleu Oleander: I desired icecream tonight and it tasted really really yummy hehe
    Eos Amaterasu: desire at rest is like honey
    druth Vlodovic: stick and attracts ants?
    Eos Amaterasu: enjoyment and appreciation are
    Eos Amaterasu: in those you are lost (as is oft said)
    druth Vlodovic: I know I'm lost
    Catrinamonblue Resident: as usual ;)
    Eliza Madrigal: "the problem is not desire but that your desires are too small" - Nisargadatta
    druth Vlodovic: lol
    Eliza Madrigal: I hear that as a sort of Maslow's hierarchy
    Bleu Oleander: so we need bigger desires?
    druth Vlodovic: better targets?
    Eos Amaterasu: ah, not just biggify
    Eliza Madrigal: yes maybe we start with baby desires, our own needs and wants etc
    Bleu Oleander: knew I should have had a double scoop hehe
    Eliza Madrigal: lol
    Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
    Bleu Oleander: so focused on wider desires?
    druth Vlodovic: to an infant hunger seems a tragedy (or at least they say it is)
    Eos Amaterasu: elemental
    druth Vlodovic: t an adult it can add flavour to a later meal
    Eliza Madrigal: hmm.. hunger like boredom
    druth Vlodovic: replace boredom with serenity maybe
    Eos Amaterasu: basic ground or earth level
    Eos Amaterasu: keen, even
    Eos Amaterasu: I think such boredom includes pain, too (so the serenity gets quite inclusive)
    druth Vlodovic: boredom suggests unhappiness
    Bleu Oleander: don't really understand how anyone can be bored
    Eos Amaterasu: that might be initial phase
    Catrinamonblue Resident: Bleu I should get you to talk to my kids about boredom :)
    Bleu Oleander: ha!
    Eos Amaterasu: a simple way to get someone (or most people) bored is to have them do nothing for 5 or 9 minutes
    Bleu Oleander: I'd have them doing art projects hehe
    druth Vlodovic: perhaps boredom is what is left if all desire is removed
    Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
    Eos Amaterasu: let's see!
    Eliza Madrigal: there is something about 'our needs and wants' level too, that the wider desires are in there
    Eos Amaterasu: is the goal to remove all desire?
    druth Vlodovic: if you had the motivation of desire you would do something about it
    Eliza Madrigal: I think of boredom as a pre-creative state
    Eos Amaterasu: is that part of "what stops"?
    Bleu Oleander: why remove all desire?
    druth Vlodovic: to me it is, we're talking about what we have before we stop
    stevenaia Michinaga: might end all war:)
    Bleu Oleander: doubt that
    Eliza Madrigal: how to enjoy desire rather than being ruled by it?
    Bleu Oleander: yes
    Catrinamonblue Resident: nods
    Eos Amaterasu: how to appreciate without fixation?
    Bleu Oleander: desire management
    Eliza Madrigal: :)
    druth Vlodovic: equanimity in desire?
    Eos Amaterasu: non-managed desire
    druth Vlodovic: or perhaps stopping learned helplessness
    Eos Amaterasu: desire let loose, like the lilies of the field
    druth Vlodovic: which prevents us from seeking to fulfill desire
    Bleu Oleander: seems unnatural to try to tamp down all desire ... we are human after all ... uh, at least avatars
    stevenaia Michinaga: you can desire that someone have what you have (or what they want)
    Catrinamonblue Resident: desire compassion?
    druth Vlodovic: can you drop the desire to remove desire?
    Eos Amaterasu: let's try
    Eliza Madrigal: somehow the food analogy works for me atm... the enjoyment present in appreciating food, the appreciation is greater when the desire is more subtle... or hm, something
    Catrinamonblue Resident: leaving only compassion ( or whatever the desire is)
    Eos Amaterasu: only the food

    --BELL--

    Eliza Madrigal: my mind reached toward checking 99 days, then I pictured the monkey with the jar and didn't go, then took three deep breaths, then went anyway :)
    Eos Amaterasu looks at the jar around her wrist
    Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
    Eliza Madrigal: jar jewelry
    Bleu Oleander: more out of habit than desire perhaps?
    Catrinamonblue Resident: is still stuck on desire and not liking the word but not able to articulte why
    Eos Amaterasu: "it's all about me"?
    Catrinamonblue Resident: it's about expectations
    Eliza Madrigal: yes Bleu, but both.. if curiosity is a kind of desire
    Eliza Madrigal listens
    Catrinamonblue Resident: and that they can be false
    Catrinamonblue Resident: leading to unhappiness when the experince doesn't meet up
    Catrinamonblue Resident: to what we desired
    Eos Amaterasu: the energy of desire has a kind of purity to it
    Eos Amaterasu: the wind aspect of it
    Catrinamonblue Resident: does it?
    Catrinamonblue Resident: for me it doesn't
    Bleu Oleander: curiosity ... desire to know perhaps?
    Eos Amaterasu: desire pushes up flowers :-)
    Eos Amaterasu: tropism
    Eliza Madrigal: :)
    druth Vlodovic: is that desire or joy of being?
    Eos Amaterasu: both
    Eliza Madrigal: reaching
    Eliza Madrigal: connecting
    druth Vlodovic: enjoying what is and thus fulfilling potential
    Catrinamonblue Resident: desire as grasping?
    Eos Amaterasu: not just about oneself in current state
    Eliza Madrigal: nourishment?
    druth Vlodovic: filling each fibre of being
    druth Vlodovic: and just doing
    Catrinamonblue Resident: what you say Druth to me is not desire but just being
    Catrinamonblue Resident: me in the moment
    Catrinamonblue Resident: no past no future just existence
    druth Vlodovic: desire often suggests that you create an image to compare your eventual experience to
    Catrinamonblue Resident: listens
    druth Vlodovic: which is fine if the experience exceeds the image
    Eos Amaterasu: I think that's right, druth, yes
    Bleu Oleander: or at least meets it
    druth Vlodovic: but the image can cause dissatisfaction with a good experience
    Eos Amaterasu: hope and fear move us away from here
    druth Vlodovic: which is either less, or just different
    Eliza Madrigal: isn't that quite a fixed idea of desire?
    druth Vlodovic: yes
    Eliza Madrigal: desire that leaves room may surprise
    Bleu Oleander: want, lust, hope, crave, wish ... many colors of desire
    Eos Amaterasu: "all these emotions of mine..."
    druth Vlodovic: seek, strive
    Eos Amaterasu: desire that leaves room.... self has left that room
    stevenaia Michinaga: :)
    Eliza Madrigal: :)
    druth Vlodovic: accepting then opening desire
    Catrinamonblue Resident: expectations create a narrow vision of what may be, to me desire is expectations :) can expectations really leave room?
    Eos Amaterasu: but desire is not expectations (just) to all
    Eos Amaterasu: expectations fill room
    Catrinamonblue Resident: yes I am seeing that :) trying to understand it
    Catrinamonblue Resident: in the context of my own experience
    Bleu Oleander: desires vary with the strength of the feeling
    Eos Amaterasu: can be dangerous stuff
    Eos Amaterasu: like all elemental forces
    Catrinamonblue Resident: can burn you
    Catrinamonblue Resident: and those around
    druth Vlodovic: can also free you from strictures and rules
    stevenaia Michinaga: expectation are just an arbitrary bar t measure something, set them too low and you succeed, set them to high and you appear to fail
    Eos Amaterasu: that's also true, yes, druth
    Catrinamonblue Resident: like a forest fire that frees the the seeds

    --BELL--

    Catrinamonblue Resident: tried to drop expectations of desire but thinks that will take more thinking about before dropping
    Eliza Madrigal: :) thanks Eos, everyone for a comforting and disturbing session :)
    Eos Amaterasu: :-)
    Catrinamonblue Resident: Night Eliza
    stevenaia Michinaga: night Eliza
    Eliza Madrigal: ((((((((( friends ))))))))) Night
    Bleu Oleander: nite Eliza
    Eos Amaterasu: will also depart, thank you all and good night!
    druth Vlodovic: we seek to please and horrify
    Bleu Oleander: take care
    Eliza Madrigal: lol
    Eos Amaterasu: :-)
    druth Vlodovic: 'night those leaving
    Eliza Madrigal: eyelids dropping :)
    Bleu Oleander: me too
    stevenaia Michinaga: sounds like a good session title, druth
    Eliza Madrigal: night
    stevenaia Michinaga: night all
    Korel Laloix: Cioa
    Bleu Oleander: bye all ... sweet dreams
    Catrinamonblue Resident: night Steve, Bleu
    Catrinamonblue Resident: NIght everyone

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