The Guardian for this meeting was Catrinamonblue Resident. The comments are by Catrinamonblue Resident.

Arisia Vita: 's current display-name is "Ari".
--BELL--
Bhelanna Resident: 's current display-name is "Bhelanna Blaze".
Arisia Vita: welcome Bhe!
Sunshine Zurivost: Hi Bhe
Arisia Vita: looks like this will be a slow session...
Arisia Vita: sometimes we have 15 or 20 here
Sunshine Zurivost: everyone slept in
Arisia Vita: not quite, two special people are here...and me :)
Sunshine Zurivost: so sweet of you to say ㋡
Arisia Vita: May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
Sunshine Zurivost: aww nicely said
Catrinamonblue Resident: 's current display-name is "Catrinamonblue".
Arisia Vita: welcome Cat
Sunshine Zurivost: Hello Cat
Catrinamonblue Resident: hello :)
Bhelanna Resident: hello
Arisia Vita: so now I have 3 good friends here...the session is looking up... :)

--BELL--
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Arisia Vita: Only in quiet waters do things mirror themselves undistorted. Only in a quiet mind is adequate perception of the world. - Hans Margolius
Arisia Vita: :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Sunshine Zurivost: ㋡

On Solitude

--BELL--
Arisia Vita: usually we need that 90 seconds of quiet because of so much talk, but today not so much :)
Sunshine Zurivost: giggles
Catrinamonblue Resident: smiles
Catrinamonblue Resident: sometimes lots of quiet is very good too
Bhelanna Resident nods
Catrinamonblue Resident: I have been reading "Gift From The Sea" by Anne Morrow Lindbergh In the book she talks a about finding moments of solitude and how these moments are very important to feed our souls
Arisia Vita: Loneliness is a word to express the pain of being alone... Solitude is a word to express the glory of being alone. - Paul Tillich
Catrinamonblue Resident: this quiet time is like that for me this morning even though it is shared with you gentle souls
Catrinamonblue Resident: Yes Ari :)

Hello's and goodbyes :)

Arisia Vita: well, I'm all talked out and have some rl stuff to tend to so will say be well and happy, and it was great being with you all
Arisia Vita: :)
Sunshine Zurivost: have a great day Ari!
Catrinamonblue Resident: Bye Ari have a good day
Arisia Vita: what made this session nice was not the talk, but the company :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Sunshine Zurivost: awww
Bhelanna Resident nods
Catrinamonblue Resident: I must be off as well
Sunshine Zurivost: ok Have a great day Cat
Catrinamonblue Resident: it was great sitting with you guys :)
Sunshine Zurivost: nice meetng u
Arisia Vita: welcome Lila
Sunshine Zurivost: Hello Lila
Lila Darkmatter: Hello, thanks
Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Lila :)
Bhelanna Resident: namste
Lila Darkmatter: everyone going I guess :) just thought I'd peek in
Sunshine Zurivost: nice of you to do so
Arisia Vita: glad you did
Catrinamonblue Resident: was just going but can stay a bit if you like
Sunshine Zurivost: Have a good day Bhe
Arisia Vita: it was a quiet session

Restlesness

Lila Darkmatter: well it is nice to have company... a bit restless this morning
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Lila Darkmatter: Does anyone else get that way at times?
Sunshine Zurivost: oh yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes I do
Bhelanna Resident: poofing
Sunshine Zurivost: wave to Bhe
Catrinamonblue Resident: Bye Bhelanna
Arisia Vita: see you all again soon
--BELL--
Catrinamonblue Resident: Bye Ari
Lila Darkmatter: bye Ari
Catrinamonblue Resident: just got to check on something brb :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: back
Lila Darkmatter: What was the, albeit quiet, discussion so far?
Lila Darkmatter: wb :)
Sunshine Zurivost: wb
Catrinamonblue Resident: mostly we just sat quietly :) contemplatively
Lila Darkmatter: lovely when that happens ... hard to do when one is restless :))
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes :) anything you can talk about? or just general restlessness?
Lila Darkmatter: well there is a lot going on with me... but I might say that is always the case...
Catrinamonblue Resident: it seems to be in most peoples lives now a days
Lila Darkmatter: why it is bothersome today I'm not sure
Lila Darkmatter: true
Sunshine Zurivost: very true
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes, yesterday was like that for me
Catrinamonblue Resident: build up of pressures and poof release
Lila Darkmatter: release due to something you did, something that happened, or just naturally lifting?

Temper Temper

Catrinamonblue Resident: though my release wasn't the best way to do it, adult melt downs are not good :)
Lila Darkmatter: ahhh, no.... maybe there are better ways (she says having resorted to melt downs many many times)
Catrinamonblue Resident: I had a good old fashioned temper tantrum
Lila Darkmatter: lol
Sunshine Zurivost: smiles
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes better ways for sure :)
Lila Darkmatter: sorry to smile about it but it CAN feel good
Sunshine Zurivost: yes it can
Catrinamonblue Resident: well it did release the pressure a bit
Catrinamonblue Resident: but caused some strife as well so not the best thing to have done
Lila Darkmatter: ah, nods
Catrinamonblue Resident: but we are only human and sometimes fall flat on our faces :)
Lila Darkmatter: that's the thing about temper tantrums... affect on others and also hm, if it becomes a cycle I guess
Catrinamonblue Resident: and today is a new day, how can we help Lila?
Sunshine Zurivost: very true need to accept the human in us
Lila Darkmatter: this helps actually :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: maybe I should have more tantrums for entertainment value ;)
Lila Darkmatter thinks about safe ways and places to have tantrums
Catrinamonblue Resident: go for a walk would have worked
Lila Darkmatter: think so?
Catrinamonblue Resident: maybe
Catrinamonblue Resident: or not :)

Listening to Ourselves

Lila Darkmatter: well when you feel deep restlessness is it that you feel unexpressed in some way?
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: or unheard
Lila Darkmatter: yes, that's it... unheard even by oneself in some cases
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes, unheard and ignored
Lila Darkmatter: I feel I'm not "getting through to myself"
Catrinamonblue Resident: nods
Sunshine Zurivost: I can understand how u feel
Lila Darkmatter: I notice my tendency is to channel that into some 'spiritual' avenue, and yet some feeling that this too, would be an unhelpful escape
Catrinamonblue Resident: I tend to talk to people :) my sister or my therapist or a trusted friend, just to help process what is bothering me, ut it into perceptive for myself
Catrinamonblue Resident: put*
Lila Darkmatter nods... that can help...
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Lila Darkmatter: what I feel is that although there are problems or issues I could use as a way to come at the deeper restlessness, they aren't the heart of the matter...not quite sure what is
Catrinamonblue Resident: that is hard sometimes, patience I think as things will come up when they need to or so I have found for myself

Dropping Paths (faries in the wind)

Lila Darkmatter: I did wake up this morning to read something that might have touched the edges... which talked about mundane paths and spiritual paths, and suggested dropping them all
Lila Darkmatter smiles at the idea of telling restlessness to be patient :))
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: dropping all paths, is something I have thought about from time to time
Catrinamonblue Resident: when I was a girl I used to play in a field, I used to let the wind push me in any direction it wanted
Catrinamonblue Resident: there was something I don't know how to say but something very fairy like in that game
Catrinamonblue Resident: and sometimes when I'm out walking I close my eyes and feel the wind pushing me along
Lila Darkmatter closes eyes with that idea for a moment
Sunshine Zurivost: excuse me I must go
Catrinamonblue Resident: the possibility that anything is possible even fairies and that I can be/do everything in that moment
Sunshine Zurivost: hope u both have a wonderfu day
Catrinamonblue Resident: Bye Sunshine :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: you too :)
Lila Darkmatter: lovely to see you Sunshine, thanks for lingering and have a good day
Sunshine Zurivost: any time ㋡
Lila Darkmatter: sometimes when out walking or in the midst of activities, do you just stop and think "this doesn't have to go the way it seems to be going" and pay attention to what seems to open?
Catrinamonblue Resident: I think I instinctively do this and have only now begun to understand what it is I do
Lila Darkmatter: an underlying conversation with phenomena you didn't realize you were having?
Catrinamonblue Resident: it is hard to explain I guess but I think so
Lila Darkmatter: I'm happiest that way... but hm, sometimes I think it isolates me... takes me back into feeling like the child playing alone in the yard
Catrinamonblue Resident: I always enjoyed playing alone :)
Lila Darkmatter: did others feel you wouldn't let them in?
Catrinamonblue Resident: I don't know really because I didn't notice them much, was teased a lot as a kid and in that way was alone but I enjoyed it too at times, kinda complicated
Lila Darkmatter: :) nods... thanks for trying to convey
Catrinamonblue Resident: while I was sad and hurt the other kids didn't want to play with me I found my own ways to play and be happy in that play
Catrinamonblue Resident: faeries and wind :)
Lila Darkmatter: :)
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Lila Darkmatter: I wasn't into fairies very much.... more horses and one imaginary friend... lots of making of little hiding places
Lila Darkmatter: am realizing I still do this.. just not in the same way :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: it's harder these days to find those moments of play
Catrinamonblue Resident: but I try to enjoy them when I find them, revel in them with my whole being
Lila Darkmatter: :) when children are small if parents are attentive they give us those fields again for a while
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Catrinamonblue Resident: mine are all teenagers now and I do miss that too
Lila Darkmatter: and SL has a lot of that too...at some periods
Catrinamonblue Resident: I haven't had that experience in sl as yet, but I'm so much an outdoors person finding moments of play in front of a computer doesn't seem to work
Lila Darkmatter: moments of deep play....SL has been full of those for me... though landscape changes

Our Secret Places

Lila Darkmatter: SL taught me to let others into secret places a bit more than I was used to doing
Catrinamonblue Resident: I do that too much and have had to learn to refrain from such in SL
Catrinamonblue Resident: on second thought I think I'm not doing that, I live my life so much an open book so as not to have people look too closely at me
Lila Darkmatter: a shield of openness?
Catrinamonblue Resident: I think of myself as having no secrets and yet I think maybe I do but they are secret even from me
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
Lila Darkmatter: this I relate to deeply.. that's the "getting through to yourself" feeling in a way, too
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes and this talk has made me understand that maybe I have not gotten through to myself yet
Lila Darkmatter: sharing "too much" can be a way of making sure no one pries deeper where you don't want them to
Catrinamonblue Resident: nods
Lila Darkmatter: helpful for me too... thank you Catrina
Catrinamonblue Resident: smiles
Lila Darkmatter: well... the restlessness is softer now, anyway :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
Catrinamonblue Resident: I am glad I could help
Lila Darkmatter: ty... think time to work for a bit
Catrinamonblue Resident: yes I'm off to now :)
Lila Darkmatter: btw, Eliza left you a film list : https://wiki.playasbeing.org/Chat_Logs/2013/02/2013.02.21_13:00_-_Wayne_Wang_and_Leonard_Cohen_in_French
Lila Darkmatter: in comments ^.^
Catrinamonblue Resident: saw that and will look :)
Lila Darkmatter smiles
Catrinamonblue Resident: thank you :)
Lila Darkmatter: wish you a wonderful day with many playful openings
Catrinamonblue Resident: and you too :)