2008.10.31 01:00 - Roles and playing

Wol was guardian and commentrix. 

Gaya Ethaniel: _/!\_
Gaya Ethaniel: how are you Wol?

I noticed Gaya investigating the scale model of the new Hall, as I had done earlier. 

Wol Euler smiles. It's a great model.
Wol Euler: quite well, thanks, and yourself?
Gaya Ethaniel smiles. yes
Gaya Ethaniel: well also. ty
Faenik loves wells!
Gaya Ethaniel: Francis Bacon didn't affect me as much as expected
Wol Euler: ah. is that good or bad?
Gaya Ethaniel: good perhaps... before I used to be really sucked into things
Wol Euler: mmhmm
Wol Euler: you were able to stand back a little from the content?
Gaya Ethaniel: quite surprisingly yes
Wol Euler: probably a good thing :)
Gaya Ethaniel smiles
Gaya Ethaniel: and also pondered how some of his works represent something a lot of us do
Wol Euler: mm?
Gaya Ethaniel: negative forms of energy... how powerful they are
Wol Euler: ah, true
Gaya Ethaniel: wondered how one learns to change the forms
Wol Euler: it seems you have done so :)
Wol Euler: because you didn't respond in kind as one usually does.
Gaya Ethaniel is lost for words
Faenik: could be
Gaya Ethaniel: you know the log I've mentioned before called 'Moral Matters'
Wol Euler: mmhmm
Gaya Ethaniel: I've been pondering on 'meanings'... and realised how I associate/gave meanings to things with certain feelings/emotions, how old some of those associations go back
Wol Euler: mm?
Gaya Ethaniel: Bacon probably associated love with violence to an extent as an example
Faenik: indeed?

Claire arrives.

Wol Euler: good morning Claire, I haven't seen you in a while.
Gaya Ethaniel: _/!\_
Claire Beltran: Oh!
Claire Beltran: Hello to you both! ^-^/
Wol Euler: table full of toys today :)
Wol Euler: and a new look!
Gaya Ethaniel: how are you Claire?
Gaya Ethaniel smiles
Claire Beltran: Um... I've been having a problem recently.
Faenik: なるほど^^
Wol Euler: sorry to hear it. Is it anything you can talk about on-the-record?
Claire Beltran: I think so.
Gaya Ethaniel listens

The title becomes apparent.

Claire Beltran: You see... I've been involved at an RP sim for several months now.
Gaya Ethaniel: new clothing Claire. lovely ^^
Claire Beltran: Oh, thank you.
Claire Beltran: I saw this and I had to buy it. ^-^
Gaya Ethaniel smiles
Wol Euler smiles. It is very nice.
Claire Beltran: Anyway...
Gaya Ethaniel: I remember the first time we met here Claire. you were upset by a friend at an RP sim...
Claire Beltran: I have been coming to realize recently, that I am deriving less and less enjoyment from this sim.
Claire Beltran: Do you remember what I said, specifically?
Gaya Ethaniel: overall you felt bad about yourself by interacting with this person I believe
Gaya Ethaniel: almost in panic... IIRC
Wol Euler: hmmm
Claire Beltran: Hmm... I might recall.
Faenik: なるほど^^
Claire Beltran: You see, I feel tied down there because I have a bunch of projects going there... and some friends... but interacting with most of the others is, for me, unpleasant.
Claire Beltran: You see, it's a place where one is left open to bullying, in-character at least... and it's not at all enjoyable for me because it makes me genuinely afraid and angry due to my experiences.
Wol Euler nods
Gaya Ethaniel nods...
Wol Euler: what is the appeal, then?
Gaya Ethaniel: Wol... same theme here... negative forms of energy
Wol Euler: mmhmm
Gaya Ethaniel: _/!\_
Wol Euler: (we were talking about Frances Bacon and his terrible (full-of-terror) paintings earlier)

A Visitor passes through slowly enough to leave traces, but too fast for me to ask permission to quote. 

Wol Euler: hello Random
Random Visitor: sorry for just 'dropping' in
Gaya Ethaniel: welcome Random Visitor, have a seat if you like
Wol Euler: have you been here before?
Random Visitor: never, new to town
Wol Euler: oh you are new, born yesterday.
Wol Euler: welcome to second life
Wol Euler: and to play as being
Gaya Ethaniel: because Claire, imo Bacon associated love with violence/hate to an extent
Random Visitor: thanks
Wol Euler: that notecard tells you the basics of who and what we are.
Claire Beltran: What is the appeal... some aspects of play... like I said, I have some friends there now... and, really, the other part is playing around in the environment, with the devices and the landscape. If I am honest with myself... that's it, really.
Random Visitor: well, i'm still looking around. Nice to meet you and I will catch up with you again soon.
Wol Euler: ok, take care. enjoy SL.
Gaya Ethaniel: which can be obtained in other sims I'm sure Claire... must be something else there you 'like'
Gaya Ethaniel: _/!\_
Claire Beltran: Hmm... I don't want to lose these specific things.
Faenik: could be
Claire Beltran: Also, I am worried that if I leave the sim... people will be obliged by the plotline to consider me dead or missing in-character and mock my character for it.
Wol Euler: hmmmmm
Gaya Ethaniel: the specifics... why? because you're attached to them perhaps?
Gaya Ethaniel: familiar... assuring?
Claire Beltran: I think so. I like them as people, and I like the characters they have made.
Wol Euler: I'm reminded of my far-distant youth in RL :) wanting to be with friends at the same time as being uncomfortable about what they were doing.
Gaya Ethaniel: ah...
Wol Euler: well, friends are valuable.
Faenik is a hairy black ball with eyes and ears.
Wol Euler: "people will be obliged by the plotline to consider me dead" -- so leaving is forever, as it were?
Gaya Ethaniel ponders on Claire's RL neighbourhood...
Claire Beltran: Why are you wondering about my neighborhood?
Gaya Ethaniel: just wondering if there is some sort of parallel between the two, the sims & neighbourhood
Claire Beltran: Not at all.
Claire Beltran: My home is, as far as I can tell, safe and happy... thought growing up and going to Sunday school, I was bullied more or less continuously.
Wol Euler nods.
Wol Euler: and yet you RP in a world that repeats that experience?
Gaya Ethaniel: and would I be correct in saying that some of your friends in the RP sims are bullies?
Claire Beltran: Only in-character. But yes, in that context that is true.

There followed a fair extent of conversation that was deemed private. 

Wol Euler: ok, I declare the meeting over :-)