2012.08.27 19:00 - Theme: Echoes and Reverberations of Awareness

The Guardian for this meeting was Eos Amaterasu. The no comments are by Eliza Madrigal, posting the log for Pema Pera...

Eos Amaterasu: Hi Eliza
Eliza Madrigal: Hello Eos :)
Eliza Madrigal: :)

--BELL--

Eos Amaterasu: (whups, we lagged.... heh heh i hadn;t noticed you'd claimed the session )
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eliza Madrigal: Notice you are fidgeting with the droplet app...
Bleu Oleander: hi Eos, Eliza :)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Bleu :)
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Bleu

Eos Amaterasu: https://wiki.playasbeing.org/Guardian_Pages/Droplet

Eos Amaterasu: Yes, now when you click the "share droplet" button, it lists who's there with you and pauses for 9 seconds
Eos Amaterasu: but then after 30 seconds it checks again to see who's there,
Eos Amaterasu: and does that 5 more times
Eliza Madrigal: ooh... so when someone joins in, there may be overlaps
Eliza Madrigal: clever
Eos Amaterasu: it will show when someone else joins
Eliza Madrigal: enjoyed reading the commentary again

Eliza Madrigal: btw, Pema isn't able to make it tonight

Eos Amaterasu: One theme/sub-theme could be how PaBing in SL can find echoes in RL....
Bleu Oleander: how were the first 3 sessions? I wasn't able to attend
Eos Amaterasu: I found myself doing that somewhat....
Eos Amaterasu: Well, I think we used a slightly tighter format, so for example for most 90 second breaks
Eos Amaterasu: we did go around one by one (clockwise :-) asking for "reports"
Eos Amaterasu: that creates a kind of special container feeling
Bleu Oleander: yes
Eliza Madrigal nods

Eos Amaterasu: another pattern is to have an explicit framing or suggestion for how to approach a 90 second period
Eos Amaterasu: doing it once, all reporting, and then doing it again is another pattern
Eos Amaterasu: Can you add to that, Eliza?
Eliza Madrigal: I really do find that when we are so deliberate, even when awkward at first, it carries over
Bleu Oleander: did you find the explicit framing worked better?
Eos Amaterasu: I personally found it did.... not that we always have to do that, but it raises the energy a bit
Eliza Madrigal: I've been a bit tired in these sessions (busy week last week) and it has been interesting to notice the edges of focusing when in a kind of hazey place... strange to describe
Eos Amaterasu: and also allows a lot of space and listening
Eos Amaterasu listens

Eliza Madrigal: really liked comments you made about energetic rest, Eos...
Eliza Madrigal: trying to rememember the way you described that... jazzy....
Bleu Oleander: speaks to how we are affected by our physical embodiment
Eliza Madrigal: indeed
Eos Amaterasu: Actually I was thinking of something like that, re the image of the tiger (on my t-shirt)
Bleu Oleander zooms in

Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eos Amaterasu: which in East Asia is often associated with being gentle, walking through jungle quietly
Eos Amaterasu: yet there being a whole lot of energy inside that skin
Eos Amaterasu: watch, but the energy of pounce rests
Eos Amaterasu: and pounces!
Bleu Oleander: potential energy
Eos Amaterasu: rest without ignoring, I think that's what allows the energy
Eos Amaterasu: not necessarily "happy"
Eliza Madrigal: difference sort of 'environmental' awareness quality ?
Bleu Oleander: a wide awareness but no specific attention?
Eos Amaterasu: including oneself in that
Bleu Oleander: yes
Eliza Madrigal: that was my thought too - wide, panoramic... hm...

Eos Amaterasu: [rest in wide attention....]
Bleu Oleander: :)

--BELL--

Eos Amaterasu: Shall we go around?
Bleu Oleander: sure
Eliza Madrigal: sure

Eos Amaterasu: I'll start.... I went with "wide attention", which quickly ran into the switcheroo of being attended, watched
Eos Amaterasu: there
Eos Amaterasu: 's a wide world of awareness, which lets me off the hook so I can let go, just relax
Eos Amaterasu: (done)
Eliza Madrigal: how interesting, ty...

Eliza Madrigal: for me "rest without ignoring" struck me just as the bell rang....
Eliza Madrigal: and did have that wide quality... taking in, in a sense, many situations and conversations of the day (inside and outside of my head so to speak)....
Eliza Madrigal: and just letting all that relax.... then pause was over and I felt a bit of 'wait..."
Eliza Madrigal: (done)
Bleu Oleander: :)
Bleu Oleander: ty both

Bleu Oleander: I started with a personal awareness and watched it slither out to a wider awareness, noticing my personal context blending with a wider one
Bleu Oleander: almost like a stone in a lake
Bleu Oleander: the ripples spreading out
Bleu Oleander: wider and wider
Bleu Oleander: (done)

Eos Amaterasu: ty Eliza and Bleu
Eliza Madrigal: beautiful image... reverberates just to hear it
Eos Amaterasu: that's part of the quest, how to reverberate the kind of quality of being that perhaps you find here, into RL moments

Eos Amaterasu: I found myself doing that a bit over the past week
Eos Amaterasu: particularly with "be with no agenda"
Eos Amaterasu: very helpful
Bleu Oleander: yes, me too ... many times
Eliza Madrigal: please say more?
Eos Amaterasu: Bleu?
Bleu Oleander: oh me :)
Bleu Oleander: ok
Bleu Oleander: yes, find myself stretching my awareness beyond my immediate context
Bleu Oleander: slips into many minutes
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Bleu Oleander: creative moments for me
Eliza Madrigal pictures slippery minutes...
Bleu Oleander: yes!
Eos Amaterasu: :-)

Bleu Oleander: hi Paradise :)
Eos Amaterasu: hi para
Paradise Tennant: hiya eos eliza .. bleu nice to see everyone :))
Eliza Madrigal: I so rarely even notice when I am operating under agenda... if I can, that seems automatically relaxing
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Paradise :)
Bleu Oleander: yes, agenda can nudge in and take over :)
Eos Amaterasu: yes, that's the interesting thing: a little experience with practiciing "be with no agenda" here
Eos Amaterasu: and it's easier for an echo of that to find a minute you're in

Eos Amaterasu: PaB SL as a kind of incubator
Eos Amaterasu: inception
Eliza Madrigal: hah....
Bleu Oleander makes note to rent that vid
Eos Amaterasu: that in itself makes for a kind of instrument
Eliza Madrigal: (came up this morning too ;-)
Bleu Oleander: haha, the universe is telling me to :)
Eliza Madrigal: :))
Eliza Madrigal: all three reports had some feeling of giving up, in a way...

--BELL--

Bleu Oleander: for me it felt more like adding space
Eos Amaterasu: How to go around the semi-circle?
Eos Amaterasu: hi O
Eliza Madrigal: mmm... yes just as we dropped I thought "no, recognition"
Bleu Oleander: hi Sam
oO0Oo Resident: Hi all :)
Eos Amaterasu: Maybe start with Sam,and go clockwise (you can always pass)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi oO0Oo
oO0Oo Resident: Sorry I'm late.. what is circling?
Paradise Tennant: hiya O :)
Eos Amaterasu: Ah, we'll go around and report on the latest 90 seconds episode
Eos Amaterasu: maybe Paradise?
oO0Oo Resident: me nods .. thanks
Paradise Tennant: smiles
oO0Oo Resident: Para

Paradise Tennant: sigh I am often at a loss when it comes to dropping agendas :))
Paradise Tennant: so very programmed to focus on outcomes :)) it is still a struggle I am afraid to just be :)) still without one :)
Paradise Tennant: done :)
Eos Amaterasu: thnx, Para
Eliza Madrigal: :)

Eos Amaterasu: At first I noticed how this time box was like a protected space, where it's okay to not have to do or be anything.
Eos Amaterasu: a few seconds at a time
Eos Amaterasu: and recognizing that, as a kind of confidence (no need to justify or anything), is something in itself -
Eos Amaterasu: you can then recognize it more easily. Again echo of SL/RL back and forth....
Eos Amaterasu: (done)
Eliza Madrigal: nice, ty Eos

Eliza Madrigal: I would have liked to have dropped thoughts a bit more... but was still sort of lingering in just how pervasive agendas are... in my life... waking my son in the morning for instance, with some promise of worthwhile schedule leading to wider possiblities and satisfactions 'later on'
Eliza Madrigal: this space indeed is often a place to practice cart before horse... or maybe the other is, but hm... satisfactions first...
Eliza Madrigal: (done)
Bleu Oleander: :)

Paradise Tennant: smiles hiya bertrum :)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Bertrum
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Bertrum!
oO0Oo Resident: : )
Bertrum Resident: hi everyone

Bleu Oleander: staying with my "ripples" of awareness I saw the ripples meet others and thought of all our awarenesses overlapping
Bleu Oleander: how we gently cross over each other
Bleu Oleander: and create a wider space of awareness
Bleu Oleander: slippery
Bleu Oleander: could stay there longer :)
Bleu Oleander: (done) hi Bert :)
Eliza Madrigal smiling
Paradise Tennant: smiles
oO0Oo Resident: : )

Eos Amaterasu: tx, Bleu! We've been reporting on experience of the last 90 second pause, Bert
Eos Amaterasu: agendas do seem all pervasive. Maybe taking agendas as the path is easier than taking no agenda as the path :-)
Eos Amaterasu: and brings you closer to the nitty gritty of what's happening
Paradise Tennant: smiles at eos :))) that sounds like a baby step to me .. like it very well :)
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Bleu Oleander: :)

Eos Amaterasu: notice your agenda-izing

--BELL--

Eos Amaterasu: Start with you, Sam?
oO0Oo Resident: Shall i start then?
oO0Oo Resident: k
oO0Oo Resident: was planning to open notepad.. (agenda) for the drop.. then pink ringed.. and sliced into letting go.. kind of splash..
oO0Oo Resident: then
oO0Oo Resident: hm
oO0Oo Resident: aspects of anaylsis.. posture.. thoughts
oO0Oo Resident: melted by crickets
oO0Oo Resident: then analysis kind of pushing back
oO0Oo Resident: counterwaves
oO0Oo Resident: then crickets
oO0Oo Resident: and softening..
oO0Oo Resident: then body following eyes.. searching
oO0Oo Resident: for what?
oO0Oo Resident: center
oO0Oo Resident: breath
oO0Oo Resident: not a glass lake by any means, but still.. okay
oO0Oo Resident: [para?]
Paradise Tennant: smiles

Paradise Tennant: we are in from a long walk in the rain .. both wrapped in terrycloth:) feeling happy to be warm and dry .. just noticed how easy I find it to be still :)
Paradise Tennant: with very quiet thoughts ..
Paradise Tennant: whereas letting go of the need for a plan is hard :)
Paradise Tennant: smiles done :)
Paradise Tennant: eos :)

Eos Amaterasu: I was noticing the wanting to or intending to little agendas
Eos Amaterasu: a kind of hungry somatic quality, jumpiness
Eos Amaterasu: which I don't think is the real agenda of the real overarching it-ness
Eos Amaterasu: energy of rest but twitchy
Eos Amaterasu: (done)

Eliza Madrigal wonders jumpy v pouncy :)
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eliza Madrigal: ... this time I closed my eyes... played a bit with images of awarenesses meeting awarenesses...
Eliza Madrigal: [Bleu...] :)
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eliza Madrigal: (done)
Bleu Oleander: :)

Bleu Oleander: I'm a bit mezmorized by my own awareness
Bleu Oleander: noticed how our choices of words affected my own experience
Bleu Oleander: soundscapes
Bleu Oleander: a kind of awareness journaling
Bleu Oleander: looping back to meet my awareness
Bleu Oleander: ripples meeting ripples
Bleu Oleander: (done)

Paradise Tennant: smiles hiya san :)
Bleu Oleander: hi San :)
Santoshima Resident: :)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi San
Bertrum Resident: hi San

--BELL--

Paradise Tennant: smiles thanks eos . thank you eveyone :) getting sleepy here and sadly my prevaling agenda is bedtime :))
Eos Amaterasu: (I must leave, but please carry on....)
Eos Amaterasu: somatic agenda calls :-)
Bleu Oleander: thank you all ... take care
Eliza Madrigal: Thank you Eos, Bleu, Para, oO0Oo, San, Bertrum
Eliza Madrigal: Night
Bertrum Resident: Bye Paradise
Bertrum Resident: Night everyone
oO0Oo Resident: "awareness journaling" begins to sound like a tool
Bleu Oleander: night all
oO0Oo Resident: ty all