2013.07.04 19:00 - Free... Wrapped in Love... Full of Curiosity

eliza posted this session from the auto-listener database, extending condolances...

[19:10] Paradise Tennant: hiya cat so nice to see you :)
[19:11] Paradise Tennant: how are you
[19:11] Catrinamonblue Resident: just installed new veiwer so just adjusting everything :)
[19:11] Paradise Tennant: k

[19:12] Catrinamonblue Resident: there much better :) I'm doing pretty well and yourself?
[19:12] Paradise Tennant: sad .. and tired .. my Mom passed this week ..
[19:12] Paradise Tennant: smiles
[19:12] Paradise Tennant: you know life has it hard bits
[19:12] Catrinamonblue Resident: oh no :( hugs
[19:13] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes life is alwasy a challange it seems
[19:13] Paradise Tennant: doing the 49 days of buddhist funeral rites
[19:13] Paradise Tennant: there are chants and visualizations to help them to a good rebirth

[19:14] Paradise Tennant: had a great death dream once
[19:14] Catrinamonblue Resident: really
[19:14] Paradise Tennant: made me experience it
[19:14] Paradise Tennant: and it was lovely
[19:14] Paradise Tennant: much harder for those staying behind I suspect

[19:15] Catrinamonblue Resident: I had one not long ago, was very surprised to wake up alive and in my bed
[19:15] Paradise Tennant: listens
[19:16] Catrinamonblue Resident: oh not much to say really just was very vivid and as I said I was surprised to wake up alive... make you think of what still needs to be done in life, like finding joy in the sadness
[19:17] Paradise Tennant: yes
[19:17] Paradise Tennant: i dreamt I was hovering near a dusty light fixture looking at my body ..which was not is such good shape
[19:18] Paradise Tennant: but the feeling was wonderful felt big .. free .. wrapped in love .. full of curiosity ..
[19:18] Paradise Tennant: I so wanted to go on
[19:18] Paradise Tennant: did not want to go back into my body
[19:18] Catrinamonblue Resident: nods

[19:21] Paradise Tennant: I think we extend beyond our body on some level see little hints of it in every day llife
[19:22] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
[19:23] Paradise Tennant: there is a kind of litte package and a bigger package

[19:23] Catrinamonblue Resident: Hi Korel
[19:23] Paradise Tennant: hiya korel how are you :))
[19:23] Korel Laloix: Heya
[19:24] Korel Laloix: Baby sitting... so not bad... smiles..
[19:24] Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
[19:24] Paradise Tennant: smiles .. oooooo short people .. that can be a lot fo fun :))
[19:25] Korel Laloix: They are all asleep already.. so I finally get some quiet time.
[19:25] Paradise Tennant: amazing how angelic they look asleep
[19:26] Catrinamonblue Resident: fun thing about little ones is they generally go to sleep early :)
[19:26] Korel Laloix: Just nice to help people out really.
[19:26] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
[19:26] Paradise Tennant: yes and I uses to find if you could get one of the little popel to do what you wanted they would all do it .. interesting to watch the group dynamcis
[19:27] Paradise Tennant: smiles yes ..
[19:27] Korel Laloix: Not tried that trick ... yet
[19:27] Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
[19:28] Korel Laloix: The whole baby thing is still a big question mark for me.
[19:28] Korel Laloix: Two hours ago was great birth control... now, sort of the opposite though... smiles
[19:28] Paradise Tennant: listens
[19:28] Paradise Tennant: lol
[19:28] Catrinamonblue Resident: knows :)

[19:29] Catrinamonblue Resident: been there :) my kids are 12, 15 and 18 now
[19:29] Korel Laloix: The good thing about this is that I get to give them back in an hour or so.
[19:29] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes :)
[19:29] Paradise Tennant: smiles
[19:29] Korel Laloix: I have always dated girls that wanted big families... but still not sure how I feel aboutt hat.
[19:30] Paradise Tennant: lovely cat
[19:31] Korel Laloix: I still have no desire to get pregnant myself..... but my bioclock still has some ticking left in it I am sure.
[19:32] Catrinamonblue Resident: smiles :) I started young and in a way I'm glad but wish I had had a bit more maturity
[19:32] Paradise Tennant: no need to rush it :)
[19:32] Catrinamonblue Resident: though the kids seem to have turned out ok :)
[19:32] Korel Laloix: Give them time... smiles
[19:32] Paradise Tennant: they should come with manuals :))
[19:32] Catrinamonblue Resident: lol yes :)
[19:33] Korel Laloix: My gf wants to have a few herself... but not sure about that for me.
[19:34] Korel Laloix: But she has told me she would like for me to give it a try..... not a simple question or answer really.
[19:35] Catrinamonblue Resident: pregnancy is different for each person, and each pregnancy is different as well. I loved having my kids but hated being pregnant
[19:35] Paradise Tennant: no a big question

[19:35] Paradise Tennant: really when you think about it .. it is kind of an amazing miracle
[19:36] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes
[19:36] Paradise Tennant: that you can .. give life .. give birth
[19:36] Korel Laloix: And the idea of medical intervention to get pregnant makes me squeemish, but the idea of doing what you have to do to get pregnant naturally makes me want to vomit... lol.. ick
[19:36] Catrinamonblue Resident: lol :)
[19:36] Catrinamonblue Resident: what about adoption?
[19:36] Catrinamonblue Resident: that could be an option for you
[19:37] Korel Laloix: We have talked about that.... but would want to find native.
[19:37] Catrinamonblue Resident: yes can understand that
[19:38] Korel Laloix: And then I sort of have this thought that if I don't at least try it once... I will regret it.
[19:38] Korel Laloix: But i am sure that is a rather shallow thought.
[19:38] Catrinamonblue Resident: not shallow just normal, something we all think at one time

[19:39] Paradise Tennant: should rent a few for a while :)) and see how well you like it :)
[19:39] Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
[19:39] Korel Laloix: Still lots of thought and emotions and instincts in the idea.. that I am in noooooo rush to sort out in my head and heart.
[19:40] Catrinamonblue Resident: nods
[19:41] Korel Laloix: And I do feel sort of a tribal/cultural desire to pass on the genes as we are not a people of great birth rates.
[19:42] Paradise Tennant: there would be .. little dancerrs :))
[19:43] Catrinamonblue Resident: :)
[19:43] Korel Laloix: That thought does please me.
[19:43] Paradise Tennant: smiles .. has a vision of little shawls twirling :)
[19:44] Korel Laloix: I stil have part of my first regalia. I do intend to pass those on.. to someone.

[19:44] Korel Laloix: Another thing that I find... not sure the word... alluring maybe.... is nursing..
[19:44] Korel Laloix: That idea of giving so personally is lovely to me.
[19:45] Korel Laloix: The rest of it though... lol.. not really.
[19:45] Catrinamonblue Resident: :)

[19:46] Catrinamonblue Resident: not sure if this link will work but this was this mornings sunrise
[19:46] Catrinamonblue Resident: http://instagram.com/p/bVvh2EQga5/
[19:47] Korel Laloix: Pretty lagged. so will try it later... thanks though.
[19:47] Catrinamonblue Resident: around 5:30 am or so
[19:47] Catrinamonblue Resident: k
[19:47] Paradise Tennant: wow cat that is a beautiful picture
[19:47] Korel Laloix: I do preffer rizes to sets.

[19:47] Catrinamonblue Resident: which was my way of saying I'm going to head off to bed now :)
[19:47] Catrinamonblue Resident: thanks :)
[19:47] Paradise Tennant: lol sweet dreams :))
[19:48] Paradise Tennant: I think I will turn in too.. kind of popped...
[19:48] Catrinamonblue Resident: night you two :) sweet dreams to you both
[19:48] Korel Laloix: Take care... ciao
[19:48] Catrinamonblue Resident: HUgs Para
[19:48] Korel Laloix: Thanks for the thoughts and chat and company.
[19:48] Paradise Tennant: enjoy your quiet time korel ...
[19:48] Paradise Tennant: thanks cat hugs to you hon
[19:48] Korel Laloix: I am..
[19:48] Paradise Tennant: smiles