2012.06.07 _ 58

I was reading UG Krishnamurti today. He is very scathing about the use of thought. This passage points out how we use memory to give ourselves a feeling of identity. I wonder what would happen if we didn't keep thinking back to all the events that took place during our lives. To be able to face each new moment in a fresh way, a beginners way, without thinking "I am this sort of person so therefore I should react in such and such sort of way."

"Every event is an individual and independent event. We link up all these events and try to create a story of our lives. But actually every event is an independent event. If we accept the fact that every event is an independent event in our lives, it creates a tremendous problem of maintaining what we call identity. And identity is the most important factor in our lives. We are able to maintain this identity through the constant use of memory, which is also thought."

Krishnamurti, UG (2011-07-11). Thought is Your Enemy (Kindle Locations 708-711). Smriti Books - Imprint of SPB Enterprises Pvt. Ltd. Kindle Edition.

There is hail-ripped debris from trees on the sidewalks this morning. I heard on the radio that in Lakewood, just 10 miles from here, they had to use snowplows to clear the hail that was up to 6 inches deep. Tornado sirens filled the air after midnight, and people sheltered in basements, only for them to be flooded. My wife's hospital lost power for an hour or more this morning. Today is mopping out day for many.

This morning, before my goc PaB session, I sat in the open temple for karuna-metta meditation. And then in PaB I was surprised (as each year I always am) that it was the fourth anniversary of first coming to PaB for Adams. And because of comments by Adams and Raffi, I got to thinking of the rather different style of blog I posted four years ago in 2008. http://stormnordwind.blogspot.com/ I'm reminded of the Ten Bulls: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ten_Bulls What if the main character had blogged through his journey? Would it show a similar pattern? Yes perhaps!

/me waves to Raffi. :)

And reading Zen's cross-posted comment, I have to say I sympathize with Krishnamurti! Each moment is fresh and an opportunity for childlike wonder.

People used to encourage me to me more consciously reflective, and to mine memory, to assess and to learn - and even to keep a journal. But I am very bad at that! For why, I would counter, should I miss even one drop of the experience of Right Now?! edited 18:07, 7 Jun 2012

Mantras, 55 breaths, karuna-metta inworld (so appreciate the guidance to be patient with yourself), as well as noticing many sally-like moments weaving through the day.

As I write this note it is the official last day of the school year and I am watching "summer memory" take place, as two of my children have set up a messy play space in the living room. They so naturally go in and out of stories; the two each have individual stories, then bursts of together tales. Inspiring.