The Guardian for this meeting was Eos Amaterasu. The comments are by Eos Amaterasu.

Eos Amaterasu: Hi Barcalona
Barcalona Rhapsody: hi eos
Barcalona Rhapsody: i have long been away
Eos Amaterasu: Like Odysseus
Barcalona Rhapsody: last time i saw koi carps in the fountain
Eos Amaterasu: not too long ago, then
Barcalona Rhapsody: me too
Barcalona Rhapsody: no indeed
Barcalona Rhapsody: last session i dropped by
Barcalona Rhapsody: do u mnna talk about something ?
Barcalona Rhapsody: wanna
Eos Amaterasu: Sure!
Barcalona Rhapsody: what theme ?
Eos Amaterasu: Oh, you are coming to this with a fresh mind, so you suggest something
Barcalona Rhapsody: maybe TAO ?
Eos Amaterasu: Ok - what does that mean for you?
Barcalona Rhapsody: its my way of life instead of all other religions
Eos Amaterasu: can you suggest a way to do the upcoming 90 second pause (in a minute) that's tao-like?
Barcalona Rhapsody: here in netherlands we have scandals too in Roman cath church
Barcalona Rhapsody: just beeing thoughtless
Barcalona Rhapsody: next 90 seconds
Barcalona Rhapsody: so not thinking of other scandals

--BELL--

Eos Amaterasu: yes, thinking fresh
Barcalona Rhapsody: yes like a child
Barcalona Rhapsody: hi zon
Eos Amaterasu: so being tao is like being like a child?
Eos Amaterasu: hi zon
Barcalona Rhapsody: sure
Barcalona Rhapsody: i think so
Eos Amaterasu: without the bad parts? :-)
Barcalona Rhapsody: sure
Barcalona Rhapsody: well i have to go again
Barcalona Rhapsody: its 1033 pm here
Eos Amaterasu: oh, sorry to see you go
Barcalona Rhapsody: have to do other things
Barcalona Rhapsody: bye
Eos Amaterasu: to be continued....
Barcalona Rhapsody: was a pleasure
Eos Amaterasu: Barcalona was talking about the Tao...
Eos Amaterasu: bye zon!
Wol Euler: hello eos
Eos Amaterasu: Hello Wol!
Wol Euler: sorry I'm late
Wol Euler: oh wow :)
Eos Amaterasu: that's fine.... Barcalona was here briefly
Wol Euler: a new look :)
Eos Amaterasu: heh heh
Eos Amaterasu: and yourself as well !
Eos Amaterasu: foxy reindeer!@
Wol Euler: :)
Wol Euler: I've been furry off and on since November
Eos Amaterasu: how does it feel?
Eos Amaterasu: warmer?
Wol Euler: yes :) really it does :)
Wol Euler: which was good in winter

--BELL--

Wol Euler: I feel small and warm and cuddly
Eos Amaterasu: I hope you're having many warm and cuddly moments....
Wol Euler: heheh
Wol Euler: it's been interesting to feel what a difference it makes
Eos Amaterasu: hmm....
Wol Euler: the avatar feels really nice, this is a great body and the fur is cosy
Wol Euler: but I miss being able to "dress up" as humans do
Wol Euler: people respond differently, too, they are more openly attracted to furrywol, more flirty
Eos Amaterasu: more willing to touch...?
Wol Euler: yep :)
Wol Euler: and to be fair Wol does often wear pretty forbidding clothes
Wol Euler: all that leather and spikes
Eos Amaterasu: probably why it's there :-)
Wol Euler: heheheh
Wol Euler: hello chi, scath
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Chi
Scathach Rhiadra: Hello Wol, Eos, Chi:)
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Scath
Chi Aho: Hi, Eos, Wol, everyone
Wol Euler: how do you find your new av, Eos?
Chi Aho: I'll have to leave shortly; have to be somnewhere at 2:00 slt
Wol Euler: well, new to me ;)
Eos Amaterasu: I'm just beginning to be in my new av...
Eos Amaterasu: started out with last minute joining in to Art of Being Self project
Eos Amaterasu: the story of Amaterasu (sun goddess of Japan) is that she was holed up in a cave by her brother (Storm :-), and then was tricked into looking out
Eos Amaterasu: she saw a mirror, with a beautiful woman shining out
Eos Amaterasu: which was her
Eos Amaterasu: and so she came out....
Eos Amaterasu: So when I go a shape and skin and clothes and took my photo for the project
Wol Euler smiles.
Eos Amaterasu: I finally sat down - and looked in the mirror!
Eos Amaterasu: and I'm still looking!
Scathach Rhiadra: :)
Wol Euler: :)
Eos Amaterasu: playing with feeling different mode of being
Eos Amaterasu: it has a lot more to do with how I appear, cause somehow that shapes the world
Wol Euler nods.
Eos Amaterasu: :-)
Wol Euler: it's quite amazing how strong our attachment to appearances (body/face) are
Wol Euler: that they work so well even here, or especially here
Wol Euler: hello korel, nice to see you again
Korel Laloix: Or how strong our resentment is.
Korel Laloix: Heya
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Korel
Korel Laloix: Bozho
Scathach Rhiadra: Hello Korel
Alfred Kelberry: meep!
Wol Euler: alf!
Alfred Kelberry: buu
Chi Aho: hi, Korel
Wol Euler: haven't seen you in that form in ages.
Alfred Kelberry: furry girl! :)
Wol Euler: I'd quite forgotten your radioactive tulips
Scathach Rhiadra: Hello alf:)
Eos Amaterasu: boxy (acts as Rubyist)!
Alfred Kelberry: oh, scath :) nice to see you
Scathach Rhiadra: :)
Eos Amaterasu shrinks from radioactive tulips
Alfred Kelberry: *shines some tulips love on woly* :)
Wol Euler smiles.

--BELL--

Alfred Kelberry: gee, i think i haven't seen scath for at least 2 years :)
Alfred Kelberry: or maybe 3 :)
Alfred Kelberry: *touches furry's tail carefully*
Wol Euler grins and twitches it
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Alfred Kelberry: ding
Scathach Rhiadra: I'm sure I saw you last year Alf, and certainly talked to you:)
Alfred Kelberry: well, a bit overstating maybe, but i haven't seen you at pab for a long time
Alfred Kelberry: how are you doing?
Scathach Rhiadra: i'm fine thanks:)
Alfred Kelberry: ok, glad to hear that :) hopefully, we'll see you more often :)
Scathach Rhiadra: haven't had a slot at PAB for about 6 months, I think
Chi Aho: sorry i have to leave early; bye all
Eos Amaterasu: Bye Chi
Alfred Kelberry: bye, chi
Scathach Rhiadra: so haven't beenaround much
Korel Laloix: Ciao
Wol Euler: bye chi, take care
Scathach Rhiadra: Bye Chi
Alfred Kelberry: *quickly sings scath to all the free slots available till the end of this year*
Scathach Rhiadra: haha:)
Alfred Kelberry: :P
Eos Amaterasu: *signs :-)
Eos Amaterasu: and sings
Alfred Kelberry: buu
Wol Euler: :)
Eos Amaterasu: Satch
Alfred Kelberry: eos is playing as words :)
Alfred Kelberry: swords
Eos Amaterasu: lysdexic dorws
Scathach Rhiadra: :)
Eos Amaterasu: scrambing to be myself :-)
Wol Euler: :)
Eos Amaterasu: Wol, do you encounter furryness throughout the day?
Wol Euler: hmmmm
Wol Euler: if you mean, does my experience of furry-embodiment leave a perceptual residue in RL?
Wol Euler: then actually yes, it sometimes does
Eos Amaterasu: hmm, yes?
Eos Amaterasu: perceptual as in....
Wol Euler: there are times when I feel ... how to explain ...
Wol Euler: I become aware sometimes walking around town, that I am experiencing my presence-in-the-city differently than usual
Wol Euler: more comfortable, more welcome
Eos Amaterasu 's ears perk up
Wol Euler: my RL shape is associated with my awkward teenage years, it carries associations of not fitting in
Wol Euler: quite literally :)
Eos Amaterasu: hmm, how body shapes world....
Alfred Kelberry: so, furries make you a better person? :)
Wol Euler: perhaps it's furry that makes me sometimes a happier person
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Alfred Kelberry: neat
Wol Euler: I'm not sure what better would mean in this context
Eos Amaterasu: playing as being wol, paying as being furry, playing as being furry wol :-)
Alfred Kelberry: i think boxy has a similar effect on me :)
Alfred Kelberry: corel draw is quiet today
Wol Euler: :)
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Eos Amaterasu: ¿
Korel Laloix: When I first joined SL, I really played with my shape... not I try to make my AV look as much like me as possible...
Korel Laloix: IN a few IMs.
Wol Euler: k
Alfred Kelberry: i did the same with this human av

--BELL--

Alfred Kelberry: korel, did it work for you?
Korel Laloix: I have to say, playing around with shape was fun...... but trying to make your AV look lik you RL is realy difficult.
Alfred Kelberry: yes, especially face
Alfred Kelberry: and picking the right hair :)
Korel Laloix: Getting the right skin tone was silly difficult..
Wol Euler: mmhmm, very tricky
Alfred Kelberry: *watches furry girl looking around*
Korel Laloix: I changed my RL hair to match some SL hair I found.
Eos Amaterasu: our face
Wol Euler: ha!
Wol Euler: nice, korel.
Alfred Kelberry: haha
Korel Laloix: THis one.
Alfred Kelberry: maybe i should try the same, korel
Wol Euler: actually I've heard that a few times :) people do carry SL into their RL
Eos Amaterasu: I can feel that impulse
Korel Laloix: I use SL to look at new looks for RL.
Eos Amaterasu: I look at RL with new eyes after SL
Korel Laloix: I modeled my new tatoos in SL first as well.
Wol Euler: yes!
Alfred Kelberry: wait, i thought you had a ponytail in rl, eos :)
Wol Euler: definitely.
Eos Amaterasu: heh heh
Eos Amaterasu: yeah, virtuality playing with reality, love it
Eos Amaterasu: reality hacking
Korel Laloix: YOu can sort of see one of htem like I have on right now.
Alfred Kelberry: blue hair, korel?
Korel Laloix: I do the gun metal black as they call it.
Eos Amaterasu: nice sheens
Korel Laloix: I am naturlly a dirty blond.... but very wirey.
Wol Euler: the tribal motif on your back?
Alfred Kelberry: tattoo is painful. not doing it.
Korel Laloix: No, that was an old one.
Korel Laloix: I got the crest of St Margaret on my left upper arm and the cross of St Peter or my right upper arm.
Korel Laloix: Yes... painful.
Korel Laloix: But worth it.
Korel Laloix: I had my orrigional tramp stamp and toe ring tat done a few years ago
Wol Euler: ;)
Korel Laloix: Had a bunch of piercings done as well...just got it out of the way.
Korel Laloix: All at once.
Alfred Kelberry: ouch
Eos Amaterasu: Sorry I have to leave....
Scathach Rhiadra: I have to head off now, It was great seeing you Wol, Eos, Boxy.
Wol Euler: bye eos, nice to see you again
Wol Euler: bye scath, ditto :)
Eos Amaterasu: (I got (or will get) the log - was Maxine's session)
Alfred Kelberry: ok, be well scath, eos :)
Wol Euler: take care
Scathach Rhiadra: nice to meet you korel
Eos Amaterasu: bye!
Korel Laloix: Ciao
Korel Laloix: do na da go hv i
Alfred Kelberry: a good thing to remember is to never tattoo someone's name :)
Wol Euler: heheheh
Korel Laloix: NOt been that stupid yet.... lol
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Wol Euler: except perhaps your own, and maybe even then ...
Alfred Kelberry: yea... like john, then jennifer... may be awkward
Korel Laloix: lol
Korel Laloix: My new tats have meaing for me....
Wol Euler: true story: there was a robber in London when I was a student, many years back now, who was caught immediately after robbing a bank, like minutes later, though he had got away
Korel Laloix: The old ones were just part of me slutting around really
Wol Euler: the cops reported laconically that he was easy to find, since he had his name tattooed on his forehead :)
Alfred Kelberry: gee
Korel Laloix: That does not surprize me.
Wol Euler: immediately after that an irish joke went around, about the robber who thought he could evade detection by having *somebody else's* name tattooed on his forehead :)
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Wol Euler: cruel but so funny :)
Korel Laloix: Let sjust say that the tat crowd is not known for our percent of PhDs.
Alfred Kelberry: you never know
Korel Laloix: Oh I know... my frist RL gf was an MD.... and she has a few.
Korel Laloix: So you don't have any?
Wol Euler: nope
Korel Laloix: WHy not?... smiles
Wol Euler: far too cowardly, and also too indecisive
Korel Laloix: Any pierciings?
Korel Laloix: Besides your ears?
Wol Euler: also no
Wol Euler: not even them
Wol Euler is plain vanilla.
Korel Laloix: I had 15 piercings done all in one sitting a while back.
Korel Laloix: Had to let most of them go as they interfeered with my running....
Korel Laloix: Was great fun for a while though.
Korel Laloix: And a great look.
Alfred Kelberry: korel is hardcore
Korel Laloix: Was.
Alfred Kelberry: :)

--BELL--

Korel Laloix: My priorities are much much different now.
Alfred Kelberry: yes, running
Alfred Kelberry: and girls
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Alfred Kelberry: buu
Korel Laloix: No.... those were still priorites back then as well.... but I was just off teh ADHD drugs and being a royal slut then.....so it worked into things perfectly.
Alfred Kelberry: the advantage of being a human av is that you can hold stuff in your hands :)
Korel Laloix: lol.. true.
Alfred Kelberry: mmm, royal slut
Alfred Kelberry: sounds exciting :)
Korel Laloix: It was bad.
Korel Laloix: Took a lot of risks.
Korel Laloix: It was stupid.
Korel Laloix: Hurt some people.
Wol Euler nods.
Alfred Kelberry: with a whip?
Korel Laloix: Have no idea how I kept my grades up.
Wol Euler: including yourself, I guess...
Alfred Kelberry: korel, obviously you dated the right people :)
Korel Laloix: No really.
Korel Laloix: I was seriously taken advantage of looking back.
Korel Laloix: But I have to admit I enjoyed it.
Wol Euler smiles.
Alfred Kelberry: you should write a book about your early years. i'd read it :)
Alfred Kelberry: with pictures please :)
Korel Laloix: I was 19, petite and agressive.... so I was sorta popular.... in all the wrong ways.
Korel Laloix: You can look on the internet.... Ia m there in all my glory.... frowns
Alfred Kelberry: yay!
Korel Laloix: No.. it is bad.
Alfred Kelberry: wait, did facebook exist back then?
Korel Laloix: lol
Korel Laloix: No... nothing so inocent.
Korel Laloix: Had soem perve take pictures at a party I was at.
Alfred Kelberry: ok, urls please :)
Korel Laloix: And I am 4'9 and weighed about 75lbs then.
Wol Euler: Korel, feel free to tell him to fuck off.
Alfred Kelberry: haha
Korel Laloix: So you can imagine what I looked like.
Alfred Kelberry: i knew it was coming :)
Korel Laloix: Some seriouls sickos out there.
Alfred Kelberry: wasn't sure from who :)
Wol Euler: you also know that it's justified, you are sailing very close to the line.
Korel Laloix: My own stupidity.
Alfred Kelberry: um...
Korel Laloix: However.... that is well past me now.
Wol Euler: yep, shake it off and move on, as they say
Korel Laloix: And life is so much more fulfilling now.
Wol Euler: can't change the past, but you don't need to be its hostage either.
Korel Laloix: So many things that really held me down I was able to at least loosen their grip on me.
Korel Laloix: Comming to Christ was really a major transformation for me.
Wol Euler listens.
Korel Laloix: I can't even describe it.
Korel Laloix: I look back at what I did and why I ddi them and it just frightens me.
Korel Laloix: But as you said... was able to push them asside and move on .
Korel Laloix: And growing up in a militently anti religious house....
Korel Laloix: Having to unlearn EVERTYING that I knew about relgions was a rollercoaster just by itself.
Wol Euler nods.
Korel Laloix: Major transformation in my understanding and world view.
Alfred Kelberry: as we grow we become more aware of the danger around us
Korel Laloix: I had been sheiled from so much of human expereince....
Korel Laloix: That being said.... I still have some really fond memories..... lol
Korel Laloix: The tricky part is just being able to forgive yourself someteims and move on.
Wol Euler: yes, and yes.
Korel Laloix: That is one part of the whole Christian thought process that I have the hardest time with.
Wol Euler: how so?
Korel Laloix: I have a hard time forgiving.
Korel Laloix: A big stumbling point to my faith.
Korel Laloix: But something to work and pray about.

--BELL--

Korel Laloix: Nice antlers.
Alfred Kelberry: thanks :)
Alfred Kelberry: i imitate woly :)
Wol Euler: heheh
Alfred Kelberry: but this bible gun doesn't work for me
Alfred Kelberry: no rights to rez bullets
Korel Laloix: Bible gun?
Alfred Kelberry: yep, shots with bibles
Korel Laloix: lol
Korel Laloix: Silly but fun,.
Alfred Kelberry: *covers woly from imaginable rain*
Korel Laloix: Need to get me one.
Wol Euler: :)
Korel Laloix: wado
Alfred Kelberry: ouch
Korel Laloix: Looks warm.
Wol Euler: heheh
Alfred Kelberry: hare krishna
Alfred Kelberry: take a cookie
Korel Laloix: Cookies are good.
Alfred Kelberry: woly, how do i rez stuff here?
Wol Euler: by asking Storm for permissoin :)
Korel Laloix: I have never actually chatted with a Hare Krishna.
Alfred Kelberry: eh
Korel Laloix: Woudl like to though.
Alfred Kelberry: it's like having an audition at the white house
Wol Euler: y'know, I haven't seenany in ages.
Wol Euler: are they still around?
Korel Laloix: I have seen recently yes.
Korel Laloix: But never cahtted with directly.
Wol Euler: poink
Alfred Kelberry: will you marry me, woly? :)
Alfred Kelberry: let's see if this hammer of love works :)
Korel Laloix: Sounds like a bad rap song.... lol
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Alfred Kelberry: woly, you look really lovely in this dress :)
Wol Euler: can't find mine :(
Wol Euler: what's it called again?
Wol Euler: ty
Korel Laloix: It is a nice frock.
Alfred Kelberry: heartpikopokohammer
Wol Euler: ty
Alfred Kelberry: ah! :)
Korel Laloix: Violins are not the way.
Korel Laloix: This looks familure.... lol
Alfred Kelberry: :)
Korel Laloix: DOn't hate me becuase I'm beutiful... grins
Alfred Kelberry: this is a very loving setting :)
Korel Laloix: I fyou can give backrubs with that thing... have at it.
Alfred Kelberry: backrubs are nice indeed
Alfred Kelberry: woly, you look attractive with a hammer :)
Wol Euler: heheheh
Wol Euler: you'd say that if I were wearing a garbage can and carrying a sack of horse manure though.
Korel Laloix: Given the option, I would rather have a foot rub.
Alfred Kelberry: haha
Alfred Kelberry: *imagines the odor*
Korel Laloix: Speaking of horse manuer... I need to find a new source four our garden.
Alfred Kelberry: horse manure...
Alfred Kelberry: how did you come up with it? :)
Wol Euler smiles. My mother is an avid gardener, my childhood was redolent with bags of the stuff
Alfred Kelberry: oh :)
Korel Laloix: Great stuff.
Alfred Kelberry: you mean it's better than buying special stuff in bags?
Korel Laloix: You mix it with a little dirt and anything will grow well in it.
Korel Laloix: Different uses.
Wol Euler: mmhmm
Alfred Kelberry: eek
Alfred Kelberry: circle of life :)

--BELL--

Wol Euler: what do you think your organic vegetables grow in?
Korel Laloix: Manuer reenergizes the soil.... bags just replace.
Alfred Kelberry: fresh organic tomatoes smell lovely :)
Korel Laloix: I can get tomatoes to grow here so well....
Alfred Kelberry: yay!
Korel Laloix: We end up giving a lot away.
Alfred Kelberry: do you grow plum tomatoes?
Alfred Kelberry: i love them
Korel Laloix: Last year we planted probably 20 varierst from steadk to currant.
Alfred Kelberry: wow
Alfred Kelberry: fancy
Korel Laloix: varieties
Alfred Kelberry: big garden?
Korel Laloix: WE just ordered a variety.
Korel Laloix: The house is on a two acre plot.
Alfred Kelberry: neat
Korel Laloix: And the garden is about an eigth.
Alfred Kelberry: woly, you'd like that
Korel Laloix: But teh pumpkins and squash and watermellon grow way outside teh patch.
Wol Euler: why?
Alfred Kelberry: um, wasn't it your childhood? :)
Korel Laloix: We let them.
Wol Euler: that doesn't mean I hanker after it :)
Alfred Kelberry: :P
Korel Laloix: OK.... need to get back to my homework
Korel Laloix: Take care all.
Korel Laloix: Thanks for the caht.
Alfred Kelberry: alrighty
Wol Euler: bye korel, take care
Alfred Kelberry: thanks for coming, korel
Alfred Kelberry: off to bed, woly? :)
Wol Euler: yeah, it's time
Alfred Kelberry: ok :)
Wol Euler: goodnight alf, take care.
Alfred Kelberry: auf nacht
Alfred Kelberry: :)