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    ::: Tick-tack of the clock
    ::: Droplets of crystalline time
    ::: Breathing in and out
    Posted 13:48, 23 Jan 2013
    Amidst the expression of intensely held 'certainties' during a working dinner among colleagues last evening I characteristically became quiet, perhaps seeming sullen, then feeling 'left out' in my withdrawal, all conviviality seeming to be with those 'so certain' others. Doing the dishes after the meal I could re-view my withdrawal in terms of my characteristic caution about 'certainties' as false promises; with this revisioning I could regain my own sense of centeredness and balance seeing my withdrawal not as collapse but as protective caution.
    It feels like this is an example of the sojourn available within the envelope of self-care that I am seeking.Grateful for this project and our quiet mutual support.
    Posted 15:17, 23 Jan 2013
    I just thought I'd share these pictures. Some of you may have wondered why I'm sometimes not around much in Play as Being, despite being involved in a bunch of things like this 99 day project. The attached may go some way to explaining where I am and what I'm doing when I'm not in Second Life...

    I spend a lot of time in another virtual world other than Second life, that of "Microsoft Flight". This is a "freemium" flight simulator which, in contrast to other older simulators, emphasizes stunning graphics rather than air-nerdiness. Like Second Life, it's multiplayer, and I do a lot of flying with a veteran instructor from the US Air Force Academy at Colorado Springs. However, these screenshots are taken when I'm flying alone. The titles are descriptive. They're all taken around dawn, two in Alaska, two in Hawaii. Come join me! :-)

    Normal service will now be resumed... ;-)

    P.S. To see these, or any other pictures on the wiki, at full size, DON'T click on the picture itself! Instead, click on the filename/title below it or in the file list. edited 16:16, 23 Jan 2013
    Posted 16:04, 23 Jan 2013
    Meditated in the evening. Earlier in the day works better, but sometimes I half-forget until it is almost time to go to bed.

    I experimented a bit with moving my vision with my breath, either up in the inbreath and down on the outbreath (regular) or the other way round (crossed). It made me very sleepy, which shouldn't have been a surprise, as I know moving my eyes left-right periodically has the same effect.

    I also experimented with just cutting through both making up stories and waiting. Just drop it the moment I notice it's there. When I notice they're there, I've seen enough of them, I don't need to look at them any further. No fuss, just drop them. And back to the breath and the posture, that is what I was doing after all. Feels good, will try some more.
    Posted 21:07, 23 Jan 2013
    ten minutes measured breathing (count to four on in and 4 on out) followed by ten minutes petting cat meditation

    disturbingly difficult not to let my mind wander during cat petting
    Posted 21:13, 23 Jan 2013
    Hyper aware, off-kilter.
    Posted 22:47, 23 Jan 2013
    Metta time : Today I listened to Stormy's meditation using my phone - I was not able to listen to it all - still its good to know its there and I can listen anytime - thank you Stormy. Listening to the beginning - hearing the water flowing and the bell ringing - brought peace to my moment.

    Quiet time with trees and stars : No time today - as soon as things got quiet - I got busy with preparations for the building class trip in SL - which brought lots of joy of a different kind ;)

    South Africa - a moment of ponder, thanks and musings :

    ::summery winter
    ::wintery summer
    ::wondering how snow feels
    Posted 01:02, 24 Jan 2013
    Can't believe I left the number "75" on the page. Oooops, and thanks to whoever corrected it for me.

    Cat petting meditation sounds pretty fine to me. Noisy monkeys tonight. Tried to just open all the doors and windows and let them run through the house and out into the garden again, watching them but making no attempt to stop them or to hold them back.

    Storm, that looks like fun. I have happy memories of the Flight Simulator from Win3 days. I've been spending a lot of time in a world called "Azeroth" this week, perhaps I'll post some photos of that. edited 01:15, 24 Jan 2013
    Posted 01:13, 24 Jan 2013
    In the mist of watching Private Benjamin w/ Goldie Hawn (don't ask) I turned off the tv and began with 50 deep breaths during meditations with my cat staring at me from the dining room table where he usually sits between me and my computer. 5 minutes passed, then about 10 minutes of Chi Gong with heavy sweater, scarf and fur hat on (forgot to turn up the heat). Both meditation and Chi Gong were pleasantly deep tonight. Began Tai Chi with perplexed cat looking but not participating... untel the second part of the form. Then it was a free for all with cat meandering in and out between my feet until half way through the third part.... finally left allowing me to finish. I believe the cat improves my balance... otherwise I would have fallen over.

    Flight Simulator has come along way, I remember flying into Miggs Field in Chicago and under the Golden Gate bridg edited 02:53, 24 Jan 2013
    Posted 02:50, 24 Jan 2013
    Spirit: One of my daughters sent me a combined belated 60th birthday present (August) and Yule gift (December). It was the book "American Gods" by Neil Gaiman. She said I'd recognize the characters. Of course I did but it turns out I'd read it before while in the UK. On emigrating it went to my ex, and so it was nice to have a copy again.

    But another surprise: we started having a discussion about parts of it. And our various notions of gods, and of buddhas, and of what my teacher has told me on the subject. As a result I had to bring to mind existing teachings I've already transcribed and test my understanding of them.

    Yet another surprise: During a quiet time when I was flying to and landing an airplane at a remote Alaskan coastal airport, the veteran instructor mentioned above came online, and amazingly we ended up talking about spiritual and philosophical topics. He has a personal take which, though unusual and idiosyncratic, is I suspect far from unique, and is not a million miles away from Buddhist ideas. We agreed on so much. Again this got me to think of teachings already transcribed, but also to observe different ways of reacting to ideas.

    And when a Pentecostal Christian joined in on the conversation with a dream he seemed begging to have interpreted, I could observe just how much and how many people are controlled by fear, and in so many subtle ways that they don't even realize is fear.

    Argghh - I have so much to do!
    Posted 06:03, 24 Jan 2013
    Note to Szavanna: You are welcome!

    Note to Steve and Wol: Microsoft Flight is a free download from https://microsoftflight.com/en-US/home/ You get Big Island in Hawaii for geography, scenery, airports and buildings, and you get three aircraft: the amphibian, a biplane and (separately) a red tail Mustang warbird, all for free. Those are tasters. You can pay incrementally and separately later (or not) for the rest of the Hawaiian Islands, the whole of Alaska, the cargo plane, the homebuilt, two STOL highwings, and a bunch of other warbirds. I went for two months with just the free stuff, and paid halfprice for the rest during a Steam special offer. The free stuff is great, but paid stuff is amazing. Of the photos attached, the amphibian is free and the two observatory pics are taken on free download areas. The other two aircraft and the first two scenes are part of paid DLC.
    Posted 06:31, 24 Jan 2013
    newspaper headlines, scrap of print reading for the day
    Posted 17:10, 24 Jan 2013
    Reading all your beautiful entries, I am inspired, humbled and in love with you all. Maxine - what you said above rings so true with me. I didn't realize someone else went through that too- like a little girl hiding from her friends and no one comes to look for her.
    Posted 01:22, 25 Jan 2013
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