2013.04.17 _ 92

Meditated in the morning.

First settle into the body, see how it is, then reach out. It's so easy to forget one of the two.

Impatience gets in the way. But patience, as usually understood, is not the answer. What's needed is a waiting without waiting for something.

As we enter our last week or so of 99 days I am aware (again) how I will miss this forum with its various sensitive minds and offerings. Thus beginning to mourn, hopefully creatively, that is feeling the sadness and letting go while quietly having taken in the richness and bounty of our time, and space and presence. I have learned over the years to try not to stay grasping at something about to be lost, such as 99 days, as that causes a frozen, jagged entanglement, just the opposite of the gift from the experience, which mourning can bring.

::: A house in a tree
::: Solar energy glass chimes
::: Giggles and whispers edited 14:51, 17 Apr 2013

Unsure of what's next -
"trying not to stay grasping"
The girl in the cafe

Thank you Maxine for describing how I feel about a number of releasings. "Jagged entanglement" results in painful extraction; the mind/flesh clinging, leaving scar tissue.

Perhaps we can recreate this form of communication - maybe in the mini Monday retreats Eliza suggests - easing the release. edited 05:02, 18 Apr 2013

Yes, thank you Maxine. I have felt so much from all of you during the time I spend here. Thank you all.

I had a miserable day so i took a walk and bought a vanilla malt. It helped a lot :)

While waiting for the grille to light tonight I did some Tai Chi in the back yard just to pass the time. Tis the Season to hear the birds!