2013.01.25 _ 10

Meditated in the morning. Started out in a very annoyed mood, but during the meditation it hardly came up, although I did catch myself trying to remember what exactly I was so annoyed about. When you catch thoughts when they are still this small, it is easy to stop them.

To Storm, another thing: If you start eating like you did before, you will probably start gaining the weight that you gained before.

Not just to Storm: Plateaus happen, in the body as well as the mind. It might just mean the changes are not visible to you at the moment.

Shoes with silver linings.

::: "Under the table"
::: On the soft back of a whale
::: Singing an old song edited 20:31, 25 Jan 2013

Today's Gratitude
My SISTER :)
The only person on the this earth who knows and accepts me just as I am.
The most amazing woman I know who meets hardships with a smile and knocks them over

Had some difficult times yesterday - was not able to focus on my points. Today is still a bit slow hmm.

Metta : was not able to focus on it - hope I can refocus from tomorrow.
Time with trees : little quiet time this evening - the sky was very clear - really enjoyed .

South Africa : I have discovered an amazing Detroit artist, called Rodriguez, who has become a supertar in South Africa without him being aware of how much he is admired by so many people in SA. A documentary called Searching for Sugarman tells the story of this unbelievable artist. As someone in the film said "Rodriguez was not aware that he composed the sountrack to our lives here in South Africa".

After talking to Hana at my 1am session this morning, I decided to do something different: a kind of sally but to a real place. I went back to a temple that Kiremimi took me to when I was in Kyoto (description in today's 1am log), to see how much of its appearance I could recover with certainty - and perhaps even its name. It was a strange experience, it didn't flow as smoothly as "invented" sallies often do because of my determination not to invent or fill in when there were images missing from my memory. I think I managed to reconstruct it fairly well (but didn't find the name). It was a great experience, very involving and evocative, quite calm. I had no monkey trouble at all, they seemed as delighted as I was.

To Wester: "If you keep on doing what you've always done, you'll keep on getting what you always did." So of course I won't be going back to old habits! But I won't be staying on strictly low carb either. As I said on Day 0, I'll be migrating to Big Breakfast. If you want to know why, read this quick article: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/7460729.stm

Mind: Books previously mentioned here have started arriving. Also found that one of the openings I'd be best at is one of the most complex, but also it has the seal of approval from many experts. And I've also been scripting in Second Life - ssshh, it's top secret! All good for mental health.

did the metta near the pavillion, couldn't raise the emotions i was intended to, wondering about the utility of improving one's compassion by imagining people undergoing awful things lol

Love your voice Storm

End of the day
No thoughts left
?under the table?
Or out of gas

not for happiness