2013.02.14 _ 30

So grateful for a beautiful day spent in one of my favorite places.
A walk shared with my soul/heart mate. So much peace and happiness.

::: Some trafic noises
::: In the back of a still mind
::: Nestling in its coils edited 22:02, 17 Feb 2013

did the meditation today, not much to say

Meditated in the evening.

"If you can practice even when distracted, you are well trained". Still working on my reaction to interruptions and distractions.

butterfly wine glass full of snow and interruptions, breathing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2L7iCOpRDjM edited 03:56, 15 Feb 2013

There's a different kind of mindfulness I'm experiencing. At the risk of seeming contradictory, I don't normally think about the every-second awareness I have because it's so part of me; kind of not being mindful about being mindful and still being mindful! @_@

Well that's different today. I'm getting more mobile after surgery, and I can do more. But I have to plan ahead, moment to moment. For example, suppose I'm emptying the dishwasher. Instead of taking the dishes in one hand and opening the cupboard with other, stacking the dishes with the first hand (perhaps aided by the other) and then closing the door, it's a new sequence. First open the cupboard, then get the dishes - but not too many - then maneuver them into place and then close the door, but all with one hand, and all slowly.

Thus even everyday living has become an object of focused awareness. For everything I do, the mind plays a sequence forward, finds the problems, then rewinds the sequence and works out a new plan, which I then execute. Then it's on to the next thing. But that's OK, because the mind is fairly good at it, and I'm happy to keep it occupied. ;-)

Back with my friends! What happened to yesterday? How do I understand the experience of a day rolling by such that I was sure I had just written here...but that was the day before! Time slipping by? Mind's awareness of time slipping...? Unsure, part of my wondering

But seeing my good friends still healing, searching, earnest in efforts. A warm hearthstone as I check out my relationship to time.

Beautiful photographs Cat. It must have been a nice walk.

A hard day today. Remembrance of things past + failed hopes for the future intruding on the present. Everything changes; everything changes; everything changes. A mantra for hope and despair.

Began a painting of a yellow lily, carefully following it's delicate curves with my pencil, concentrating on its concavities while Leonard Cohen sang about loss.

Thinking how nice it would be to have dinner with Maxine. edited 05:17, 16 Aug 2014