2011.12.16 _ -3

A glitch in the logistics allowed me some waiting time, to be used for standing meditation.

This might have been contributed to me being genuinely grateful that the predicted snow and slippery roads didn't come, and instead we just had cold rain. I didn't even notice this as being unusual until some co-workers looked at me funny for telling this.

Little did I know about snow, at the last day of my astrophysics conference, walking for 40 minutes from my address in downtown through the perennial Dutch drizzle. Before that, I sat for half an hour, in my attic, to the song of wind and rain around the roof. Connections with sounds of growing up in this climate, half a century ago.

Today when stopping, there seemed 'all of a sudden' 'too much' to 'cope' with and I started crying and crying... It can be so strange, feeling fine and 'normal' yet this is why aspiration toward consistency is so crucial. Continuous stopping.

(not to worry anyone, all is okay) edited 02:07, 17 Dec 2011

Sitting in front of computer. Turned on Ommwriter, not to write anything, but because it does such a good job of blanking the screen and turning off notifications. Of course the notifications in my mind keep on keeping on. Not much to report other than those. Rain here as well, but tonight temp goes minus. ((((Eliza)))), in concentric rings of spaciousness.

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