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Travelling with oOOOo through ( ( ( (( ** concentric rings of spaciousness ** )) ) ) ) in the heart, between my social anxiety and a burning desire to share and participate and cooperate with others. Imagining Pema taking a 9 seconds pause, in The Hague, under the subtle influence of the "Girl with a pearl earring" smiling mysteriously in the small room of the Mauritshuis where she follows you with her gaze as you move. Following Eos's gaze up in the sky seeing Being a crow, shaman of our tribe. Feeling Wester in the vicinity of the old bridge in Utrecht, reflecting on her commitment to write, I'm considering my own willingness to open up about my writing process, mulling my fears, letting the rebirth energies of the winter solstice carry me through as she does. It's 5:18 now and I'm wondering if Eliza, who's in the same time zone as I, is exploring, in her sleep or in her wake, parallel corridors of all Being, dreaming, "tasting the moon" as says her young son, luring (((Wol))) into this amazing 99 days project of hers. #timestamp

Day zero!

I am starting writing with my piece about thinking mistakes in diets, and am working to make it more about the thinking mistakes and making the diet more of a case study. 15 minutes goes by pretty fast like that. edited 15:12, 19 Dec 2011

Delighting to begin. Again fresh. I woke early, though not quite as early as my brave and panoramically-heart-eyed friend Eden. :) I seeded my intention (on the main 99 days page) to Rest, then laid down for just a few minutes, which became a very deep nap. Now turning on Omm Writer. edited 17:22, 19 Dec 2011

Beginning again, another reboot. I'm sitting with my favourite cousin, talking about mindfulness and being in the moment, about letting oneself be seen, about the harder and more rewarding task of seeing oneself. I am so sorry for having been such a poor companion in meditation during these months, and more so for my shameful inability to reply meaningfully — or at all — to well-meaning friends who tried to help me with it (waves to Pema). I want for the coming 99 days to be a better friend to you all, and to myself.

Wol, you've already been the best friend of us, by starting these pages! And yes, of course, if you'd also join us every day we would be *even* happier than we are already. :-) Seriously, thank you again. This is such a nice complement to PaB in SL, as well as to PaB in RL. (yes, I do hope to show up more in SL after I've finished my current couple weeks of intense traveling).
So much fun to read Eden's happy visualizations of all of us, thank you, Eden!
This morning I just let my thinking think, letting myself be led astray in a calm way, for a change; felt healing in the context of having had so many conversations in the last two weeks.

First comment. The song 'River' by Joni Mitchell is haunting me today...'I wish I had a river I could skate away onnnnnn....'
Tinges of sadness
Heightened expectations
Slushy sentimentality
But yet...underlying new warmth edited 23:33, 19 Dec 2011

Feeling kind of zero, but then reading through the comments feeling that 0 kind of warming up and more richly presencing. Looking forward to further happy/sad, however they may characterize themselves, integers with you all. (Now that song is echoing, Zen :-)

So glad to reconnect with all of you - you have become one of my sanghas; nurturing. aligning, supporting me with the poetics of your words and the openness of your sharing.
Sitting this morning, in Original Face with Zen, Cal and Bruce, my meditation became calm and focused and I noticed my back is no longer demanding my attention they way it used to 99 days ago.
Skate on Zen, your mind is a river. edited 05:43, 20 Dec 2011