2011.12.21 _ 2

This morning, a quiet sit, with again a lot of thoughts.
It was nice to have a half-hour time capsule to reflect on the whole complex of human interactions of the last two weeks, with colleagues, friends, and family in Holland, during my last full day here. While in general I try to just watch and let go of thoughts and concepts, while sitting, from time to time it is also interesting to remain a bit involved, while still `letting thinking do the thinking.'

I spent waking time this morning trying to focus but my mind seemed set on playing Alice's White Rabbit again......Last weekend I was given a refresher lesson, becoming very sick with a fever and severe stomach pain. As I was lying there then, occasionally able to focus away from the pain, I thought about how so much of what I do is unimportant. As I recovered I tried my best to remember that..... But here this morning I am mentally rushing around again but I am able to smile at that image of myself "I am late, I am late, I AM.

10:08 breakfast in bed. Fresh fruits, raw organic flakes of oats & rye, nuts, cranberries, almond milk, dash of maple syrup & a cup of black tea called  "Eden rose". Nurturing my soul with love, welcoming the return of the light. Winter solstice later tonite (05:30 UTC) #timestamp

Winter solstice party at Perfect Paradise Island. So many there the sim crashed. Keep feeling dancing is such a frivolous activity - I could be doing something 'useful.' Noticing my conditioned utilitarian traits.

Just be with the music
Just be with everything
No worries, no thinking
No alcohol needed
Strategising mind
Outsmarts itself
Wears itself out
Hopefully sooner than later

Not having a good day. I finally got myself to write, but I am so tired, I really cannot see the big picture anymore. I overreacted to my husband turning on the TV, as well.

I did manage to meditate. As I had to do this somewhere where I was quite visible, I did the prostrations internally. Interesting, but it doesn't work as well as doing them physically.

Off to bed. Tomorrow is another day.

Feeling so alive and well on this blue sky solstice day. A day that only lasts 8 hours. This morning I joined Zen and about 10 other avis, to dance and play games under magical plants and trees in Perfect Paradise. Despite what he says, Zen danced marvellously and showed his skill in doing some very complicated manoeuvres! More playing tonight beginning at 6pm - in the Bower Hall of perfect Paradise. Just look for all the lights. edited 22:43, 21 Dec 2011

Day in the car with children, smooth trip for the most part with lostness at the end ... then many beginnings of conversations with night owls ... eyes sliding down my face, yet, smiling. Harvest of hay everywhere and the last appearances of Fall, bright greens contrasted with bareness...so many contradictions in one spot, darting eyes and questioning: guards up? guards down? Hm, the same records don't seem to play. 55 breaths practice and others... all conducive. edited 04:41, 22 Dec 2011

No sitting today, too much travel and too many faces.

Dawn to wake to work to dusk to children's day lights to big extended family dinner to late night, interspersed with some gaps some short some long: all mutually supportive.