The Guardian for this meeting was Eos Amaterasu. The comments are by Eos Amaterasu.
Eos Amaterasu: Hi Eliza!
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Eos! :)
Eos Amaterasu: You look nice 'n fresh!
Eliza Madrigal: Thank you. I thought it was time to change clothes... had been a few weeks ;-)
Eos Amaterasu hesitates to look at himself...
Eliza Madrigal: hahah
Eliza Madrigal: Well, you seem to be just fine. Maybe fresh is in the mind :)
Eos Amaterasu: Fresh is where things come from...
Eos Amaterasu: I often feel it in that point in the atmosphere where ice is turning to water and water is turning to mist and air....
Eos Amaterasu: that's where all the mermaids come from :-)
Bleu Oleander: hi Eliza, Eos
Eos Amaterasu: wow - out of the blue: bleu!
Eliza Madrigal: that's an interesting idea. Water isn't fresh until we splash in it perhaps :)
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Bleu! :)
Eos Amaterasu: hi druth
Eliza Madrigal: And Hi druth!
druth Vlodovic: hi y'all
Eos Amaterasu: druth, you've been at Play as Being before?
druth Vlodovic: a few times
Eos Amaterasu: okay...
Eliza Madrigal: druth was a book the last time I saw her :)
Eos Amaterasu: anyone have a way to play as being tonight?
Eos Amaterasu: oh yes, now I remember... (the book)
Eos Amaterasu: Wol did a summary of her Windhorse Farm retreat experiences:
"blueberry lions enoughness"
Eos Amaterasu: Do you want to give a commentary, Eliza? :-)
Eliza Madrigal: Mmm yes. I bought blueberries today, thinking of that...
Eliza Madrigal: Well, my summary would be blueberries=total satisfaction
Eos Amaterasu: blueberries were to NS RL retreat what almond cookes were to Malta retreat
Eliza Madrigal: lions=what wakes you up to see that satisfaction is in some sense, a choice to see what is
Bleu Oleander: have had a craving for blueberries since you all mentioned that
Eliza Madrigal: enoughness=corvi's word for what is
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eliza Madrigal: and all of that being what we can share and explore and celebrate together
Eos Amaterasu: The lions are interesting... can u say more?
Eliza Madrigal: Ah, well Wol told a story of someone who basically met a lion... whose life was upturned or undone by its roar...
Eliza Madrigal: the fear that startled enough to change everything
Eliza Madrigal: to make a person ask whether they are alive
Eliza Madrigal: or just going through motions
Eliza Madrigal: So, for me... I related the lion to an illness I went through. Another might relate it to a loss of a career or loved one...
Eliza Madrigal: but in some sense the lion is always roaring :)
Eos Amaterasu: startled into fear, startled into waking up to life and death, into waking up
Eos Amaterasu: i think some kind of lion is necessary
--BELL--
Eliza Madrigal: Indeed, startled into waking up to life... and death
Eos Amaterasu: enoughness becomes more than enough
Eliza Madrigal: Is it?
Eos Amaterasu: I wonder - it takes a lot to scare past the usual defenses and ignorings
Eliza Madrigal: it does seem to
Eos Amaterasu: a deep cough in the middle of the night in the African plains will do it
stevenaia Michinaga: hello Eos and Druth
Bleu Oleander: hi steve
Eliza Madrigal: Hi Steve :) I guess Ruth is still with you
druth Vlodovic: hi steve
stevenaia Michinaga: oh more prople rezzing, better wait to sit
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eos Amaterasu: golly osky zero, it's bat Steve!
stevenaia Michinaga: yes, may the ruth be with me
Eliza Madrigal giggles
Bleu Oleander: :)
Eos Amaterasu: the ruth will set you free
Eliza Madrigal: you'll be free, only if you want to be...
stevenaia Michinaga: smiles, I'll keep you posted on that one Eos
Eos Amaterasu: I'm curious myself
stevenaia Michinaga: try it, you'll like it
Eos Amaterasu: freedom tastes of reality
stevenaia Michinaga: right ladies?
stevenaia Michinaga: sorry, didn't mean to interrupt
Eliza Madrigal: the lions will set you free...
Eos Amaterasu: perhaps every rite of passage needs a good lion's roar
Eliza Madrigal: :) Not at all Steve. Would you like a note to catch up?
stevenaia Michinaga: sure
Eos Amaterasu: I forget who said, "I fear the man who has read but one book"
Eos Amaterasu: likewise, "I fear the one who has not jumped out of their skin"
Eliza Madrigal: Interesting thought...
Eliza Madrigal: That is one thing I've been turning over since the retreat... and it made me think of the book you suggested to someone here Eos... "Smile at Fear"
Eos Amaterasu: We've been talking about Wol's summary of the NS retreat: blueberry, lions, enoughness
Eliza Madrigal: I enjoyed the fear of walking through the forest at night...
Eliza Madrigal: it was definitely fear, but it was exhilarating, enlivening
Eos Amaterasu: yes, interesting those little flickers of fear...
stevenaia Michinaga: it must be a universal fear
Eliza Madrigal: yes "Oh no, I lost everyone"
Eos Amaterasu: in the woods, in the dark, sounds of animals....
stevenaia Michinaga: loss of light, in the thickness of the enveloping dark
Bleu Oleander: must have been scary
Eliza Madrigal: just flashes of white flags, quick turns...
Eos Amaterasu: ghostly whisper of white, hope she doesn't make a sudden turn....
Eliza Madrigal: yes
Eliza Madrigal: the exercize included stopping at times, too...
Eos Amaterasu: listening with all senses
Eliza Madrigal: so one would have to measure if they were stopped, or separated
Eliza Madrigal: alert
Eos Amaterasu: coming back to our own wilderness aliveness
Eliza Madrigal: I really have been thinking, how to stay 'in touch' with that sense in particular...
Eliza Madrigal: that 'on the edge' ness
Eliza Madrigal: I think exploring reality, yes, definitely has that taste if you really do it....
Eliza Madrigal: really question and observe ...
Eos Amaterasu: the 9secs pause can be a dip into and from that freshness
--BELL--
Eliza Madrigal: dropping one's skin can be scary....
stevenaia Michinaga: :) on the other hand , it;s only what others see
Eliza Madrigal: :))
stevenaia Michinaga: how important is that?
Bleu Oleander: one never really knows what others see
Eliza Madrigal: You Seeing Being Seeing can be pretty frightening... dropping 'what you have for what you are'
Eos Amaterasu: and we probably have years of seeing ourselves through others' eyes....
stevenaia Michinaga: only if we listen
Eos Amaterasu: what's the frightening part?
Eliza Madrigal: I meant to write... somehow dropped the 'see'
stevenaia Michinaga: wonders the same thing Eos
Eliza Madrigal: vastness
Eliza Madrigal: both frightening and completely comforting
Eos Amaterasu: ah
stevenaia Michinaga: have you ever switched avatars with someone?
stevenaia Michinaga: it's so much more than "being ruth"
Eliza Madrigal: neat idea Steve, no I've never done that
stevenaia Michinaga: aside from the finding someone who trusts you enough to let you be them
Eliza Madrigal: well it must play with your ideas of 'what is me'
Eos Amaterasu: Eliza, re the vastness...
stevenaia Michinaga: and what you are to the people you meet who know the "other person" they think yu are
Bleu Oleander: interesting experience steve
Eos Amaterasu: so you get in their driver's seat, so to speak?
Eos Amaterasu: it's not just their avatar, it's their world
stevenaia Michinaga: I did that once in college, cut long hair and beard... no one recognized me (until I spoke) lost many friends that semester as they could not figure out where I went
Eliza Madrigal: oh, wow Eos. Thank you for that link
Eliza Madrigal: Did the friends change the way you felt as you, by not recognizing you?
stevenaia Michinaga: made for some very comical encounters
Eos Amaterasu: :-) blueberry and lion are one
Eliza Madrigal: :)
Eos Amaterasu: playing as other
stevenaia Michinaga: walking in another shoes
stevenaia Michinaga: a learning experience
Eliza Madrigal: if one really does it... really explores, it can seem unhinging... like reading a book and being so immersed that that world becomes more real...
stevenaia Michinaga: like a dream
Eos Amaterasu: or meeting an author thru their book, or poems, and feeling they are so real
--BELL--
Eliza Madrigal: mmhmm..
Eos Amaterasu: Li Ch'ing Chao Complete Poems
Eos Amaterasu: someone in the T'ang dynasty can feel side-by-side with you
Eos Amaterasu: timeless time leaking through
Eos Amaterasu: enoughness cheats, because it includes everything :-)
Eliza Madrigal: what lines she writes in "Sorrow" ... the first I clicked: I pine and peak And questless seek,,,
Eliza Madrigal: :) "Enoughness cheats"... Hm hm hm...
Eliza Madrigal: yes, I think that's part of the fear thing too... that one is alert second to second... micro second to micro second...
druth Vlodovic: gtg, have fun guys
Eliza Madrigal: Bye druth :)
Eos Amaterasu: ciao,druth!
Bleu Oleander: bye druth
stevenaia Michinaga: n ight druth
Bleu Oleander: nite all .... take care :)
Eos Amaterasu: 'night Bleu
stevenaia Michinaga: night bleu
Eliza Madrigal: Night to Bleu
Eliza Madrigal: (from the log) :)
Eliza Madrigal: the logs speak...
Eliza Madrigal: hah :)
Eliza Madrigal: when did you last switch avs with someone Steve?
Eos Amaterasu: the log rots
Eliza Madrigal: aye, that it does :)
stevenaia Michinaga: not for quite a while
stevenaia Michinaga: trust seems to go only so far, someone was cleaning out my inventory so I borrowed their avatar while they were me
Eliza Madrigal: I suppose that is the experience some twins give each other...
stevenaia Michinaga: most of their friends knew who I was so a short introdction was all that was necessary
Eliza Madrigal: Ah :) It seems a fun experiment
stevenaia Michinaga: I couldn;t "become" them
stevenaia Michinaga: jsut move their parts and speak their words :)
stevenaia Michinaga: my words, rather
Eliza Madrigal: but perhaps it made you very aware of what the friend's rhyhms were, what they were 'like'
stevenaia Michinaga: but I did adore their avatar...grins, you can easilly become a narcicist
--BELL--
stevenaia Michinaga: not sure how much of them I senced from it
Eliza Madrigal: yes I suppose one would learn most with someone they were quite familiar with...
stevenaia Michinaga: nods
Eliza Madrigal: in a community where others were familiar as well
Eliza Madrigal: I can imagine it though...
stevenaia Michinaga: could make an interesting guardian meeting experiment
Eliza Madrigal: would make an interesting book
Eliza Madrigal: :)
stevenaia Michinaga: instread of switching seats, we can switch avatars
Eliza Madrigal: I'd better go... beyond bedtime now :)
Eos Amaterasu: Beyond mine too :-)
Eliza Madrigal: Glad to have signed on tonight though. Thank you Eos , Steve. My mantra before bed is "the lion winks and laughs"
Eos Amaterasu: Thanks Eliza and Stevenaia
Eos Amaterasu: :-)
Eliza Madrigal: :)