2011.09.24 _ 23

I took Eden's references to space, from yesterday, and I sat for a while with the notion of space dancer, or sky dancer, dakini in Sanskrit, while also reflecting on the range of traditions that have been given to us by the geographical range from Egypt through Persia to India and Tibet. Finally I reminisced how an avatar called Dakini invited me to use her tea house to begin PaB, three and a half years ago. edited 09:03, 24 Sep 2011

I wave at Pema as he dances dakini-like through space, and sip my tea down here on earth. edited 12:54, 24 Sep 2011

Last night's meditation, considered the joining of light and love, or insight and compassion... have been musing on You Seeing Being Seeing a bit more lately, and various frameworks of relative/absolute - also 'letting go' or 'offering up' but to *what*. What IS the reconciliation? What do we bring to what seems the wider equation? What I bring most often is my question, confusion, intention... a kind of light of asking and opening. What answers? Love. 'Whatever the question is, the answer has to be Compassion.' edited 13:56, 24 Sep 2011

::: Traffic noise and rain
::: Day folding into stillness
::: Cat dreaming cats dream

Sun pouring in the kitchen
Lighting up thinly sliced plum
Embedded briefly in a sourdough pancake
Could say something that ends in yum....

Great A, little a, today is pancake day! edited 17:12, 24 Sep 2011

Did the meditation in the evening. This is more difficult than in the morning, probably because it is easier not to have to stop doing anything (even if that is only sitting at the computer re-checking my email). In the morning I can meditate after bringing the kids to school, an activity with a very clear end, or right after waking up, also a pretty clearly demarcated moment, or after breakfast. In the evening I have to do it after bringing the kids to bed, and they can and will come out of bed a few times, so that moment is much less clearly demarcated.

I did about 20 prostrations, then standing meditation, mainly focusing on the dantien/hara, keeping the focus light and relaxed.

And thank you, eden, for todays poem. It touched me. The beauty within the everyday situation - I know it's there, but sometimes I can use some help in noticing it.

Tai Chi with the cat outside in the wet grass and soggy ground.... until the cat bit my toe, then I finished alone, Tai Chi is self defense after all... Stevie - 1 Kitty - 0

Recliner sit thoughts: Most of my meditations are mental doodling - the compulsive filling in of all empty spaces with thoughts. It occurs to me that in naive art the entire surface must be filled with intricate designs, as if there were a horror of the negative space so valued by trained artists. Now I'm thinking of impulsive graffiti abuse -- no natural rock left behind.

Very busy day of rest, its warmth and humidity a closer envelopment, its play less separate from mine, already present.