2011.10.23 _ 52

Welcome Back Wester. :)

Woke with conviction about the gap between what I think I want and what I see myself do, with regard to meditation... feels like an avalanche sometimes, seeing the the habitual fall in front of heart intentions, and often Scarlet 'thinks about that tomorrow.' :) Will add to this comment later. :)

Evening Meditation: Check

Light, pouring through blindspots
Being friends
Clarifying confusions
Dawning wisdom edited 01:36, 24 Oct 2011

Meditated in the evening. Standing meditation.

The notion of background thoughts and slogans was mentioned on 99 days a bit ago. So I tried "be grateful to everyone" (a lo jong slogan) as background to my thoughts, and watched the difference in quality of my thoughts. Very good during the meditation, very difficult to sustain during the postmeditation.

The Sunday evening session inworld with Bertram has become a regular feature of my practice; to be honest it's the only regular one. Very good session tonight, arrived in a space without thoughts or images or even monkeys, just a few minutes of empty being. It was very refreshing.

::: Clairsentient panther
::: Dancing with subtle bodies
::: Grounding healing hands

Recliner sit at the end of a full day: grateful to have a few true friends. Would love to try practicing being grateful to everyone - and everything.
Getting weary of hearing opinions about "likes" and "dislikes." Opinions divide an individual into disparate parts: a few indulged, the others shunned.

Such a pleasure reading all of your contributions in yesterday's listing! I'm really impressed by the way all of us are showing the power of continuation: Wester sitting even in adverse situations where it would be so easy to convince yourself to "just skip for a day" (followed by slippery slope :-); Aphrodite sharing with us the challenge of continuing with patience; Eos writing about sustaining and continuing; Lucinda also writing about sustained intense activity -- while a similar spirit of continuation is present in all the other contributions as well. (I was *very* tempted to write "no time today -- Wol" at the end of yesterday's report list :-)

Perhaps the last day of sunny and relatively warm weather... Tai Chi in the back yard... warmth rays on my face, light breeze blowing through the trees... began standing meditation before Tai Chi with all of this in place... almost immediately it all disappears and all I feel is the breath and movements.... for the remainder of my practice... where does all this sensation go when I turn it all inside?

No Post yesterday, a series of distractions...

Setting the plastic bowl on the burner above the heating oven can melt it...
trip to good will can replace it...
situations will continue to unfold...
My dream suggests I am to watch for what is to be revealed by
teams specialized in scrabble tiles and pictures drawn.
Just be careful if driving the van right into the meeting room!!!
It may land on its face.

Full work day yesterday
All for love
That still point burning hot