2011.12.03 _ 93

::: With clairvoyant eyes
::: "It's difficult to explain"
::: He says and I see

Meditated just before going to bed. Standing meditation.

I focused a bit more on the subtleties of bodily movement. This made for a quite different "feel". Trying to see intention, and then actually adjusting my posture as separate from that. It seems to me that when movement flows directly from intention, it feels natural, but usually there is something between it that makes it too slow or too fast. I haven't worked out what exactly that is yet.
I did manage to let straighten and let relax my legs simultaneously, something that had worked with my back and arms before, but not with my legs yet.

pulling best advice on how to be out of this moment:
alert
gentle
wild

This quiet Sunday morning I spent quite a bit of time writing dream notes and reflections it triggered, before finally doing my half-hour morning sit. A different feel, sitting after prolonged reflection, versus sitting after rolling out of bed. Settled, restful, calm, at ease. Appreciating the presence of appearance as Being.

At the wall, body feeling a bit like a tin man's... stretching and stretching... tickle in my throat, bit of fatigue, many many ideas wanting to be acknowledged, responded to. Also somehow joyous, all included, thankful for body which seems to store so much, ask so little ... thankful somehow, in this context, for age and integrations.

Musing too, on Eos's report: Alert Gentle Wild

Alert and Gentle
Wild is confusing for the time being
maybe it is innocence?

Numb from the nebula. Taken by a friend from his observatory.

My Lojong practice goes on ... it´s often really hard for me - so many hindrances : i can´t and don´t want believe anything, in general not. I prefere experience (!) ... and that is what even the Buddha should have said : that we shall not trust blindly but proove and only take, what we can accept as correct and true and so on ... so : the tibetan buddhism ( vajrayana ) is in some aspects so far away from the earliest textes, the pali kanon, so much mixed with the ancient tibetan bön religion ... but - that is "allowed" so to say, really kind and good, things change in time and space and so it does now in our days as well and it´s so interesting and exciting - i would love to write more, but our pab berlin meeting calls - breakfast - meeting time ! so later, will be continued ... :-)

Alive.. thankful.. with you.. with little to say.. ~.~

On day 93 the Berlin meetup crew sat for eight minutes (as it turned out) in Bertram and Satia's hotel room. Sitting with a group is so much more satisfying than sitting alone, I was gratefully aware of the presence of the others around me. I'm very glad that we sat together each day.