2011.10.11 _ 40

Meditated right after bringing the kids to school.

There was a lot of resistance to starting the meditation, probably because I was feeling a bit down. Yes, when I need it most, it's hardest to start meditating. I knew that. That is exactly why I need to find a good meditation routine, and why it is so hard to get one going, and that's why it's so wonderful to have this 99 days project.

I did 10 minutes of prostrations. I thought today was a day to focus on acceptance, and allowing acceptance.

Ultimately... I have to sleep... so there is this practice.. always waiting. If I wake up.. the practice waits for me. Aware of the vagaries, I love myself fully in this moment, and let it radiate through my whole being. I appreciate being in such fine company with all that is.

We disappear into your
Sunbeam Tentacles

Portaled through
on the way to school

Good Morning, Octopus

::: Sunset of pure gold
::: Almost full moon hovering
::: Over our dreams

cat watches the letters appearing
the cursor blinks
the keys click
outside the wind blows
and the rooster crows

Walking meditation this morning
The pause between the steps
A place of nothingness and everything.

Sat for ten minutes after the Dreams session, at Eliza's encouragement (hello, thank you). Did a body audit, discovered knots of tension and tiredness everywhere; then sat amid the streaming of thoughts and images like a boulder in a stable yard full of horses (not monkeys). They kept running off, I kept calmly and kindly calling them back.

Recliner sit:
George Lakoff says metaphors are myths; Douglas Hofstadter says creativity is a myth; Marvin Minsky says intuition is a myth.
Yet. . ., Lakoff uses metaphors brilliantly to make his point about metaphor; Hofstadter is astoundingly creative in making his point about creativity; and Minsky is profoundly intuitive in identifying the subtlest agents and operations of the mind.

So, perhaps "myth" is a mythical notion. edited 23:51, 11 Oct 2011

Tonight was Tai Chi class... same as last class, after 2 hours I completely forgot the next move, which, it you remember last time I mentioned this, I predicted would happen at least one more time :)

However.... during class meditation I had a wonderful emptying of my my mind, the window A/C was on and blanketed the room with lovely white noise, a perfect sound to draw your thoughts out of you leaving sweet calm in its wake. Also seems to do a nicely in keeping a flood of new thoughts to take their place......

Then, this morning at 2:45 am I woke up and remembered the the next series of moves. Seem it pays to eat spicy Thai food to wake yourself up in the middle of the night every now and then. edited 11:10, 12 Oct 2011

Eden's comment yesterday really resonated with me, the idea of greeting each new day with a thankful heart. Ever since I learned to do that, my life has become so much easier, simpler, happier . . . . and when I then saw Eliza's suggestion to list five things to be thankful for, the only thing I could think of was:
this new day
this new day
this new day
this new day
this new day

stevenaia's white noise carried over into SL session last night
with color commentary by Eliza's geko
I don't always hear the colors hum