2011.10.04 _ 33

::: A lion roaring
::: Solar adamant Aslan
::: In the computer

Lion and Cat
Moving through the swinging door
Last night with the wall
_/!\_

I woke up feeling great stress this morning.My last dream had paralleled the tensions I felt, it was dark and stormy and I was in a flood prone area; trees and wires were down; the flood waters were rising. Sheets of rain were beating against the side of the house. There was a decision to be made whether we should stay or try to make it to higher ground though the dark.

Inspired by you all, I stayed in bed for an extra hour and a half, first allowing the chaotic thoughts of my conscious storm clouds to reorder themselves again and again until I fell back asleep.

Busy Morning, slower afternoon, took a Meditation break..... the moves becoming more and more familiar so the practice of the Tai Chi form seem to be quicker, no mater how slow I attempt to complete the movements. Familiarity with the movements, the breathing, results in time pass quicker as the "next" thing (movement) becomes expected and welcomed

Did meditation late in the evening. Prostrations & standing meditation. Tried to focus on noticing and allowing, not doing.

It's better for me to meditate earlier in the day, because it's easier to actually find a moment for it, and because it makes me more open during the day.

I like this 99 days project. It is good to get and give feedback. And it helps me to really give meditation a place in my day.

I really liked Aphrodite's suggestion yesterday, "opening lungs, opening heart". We think about lungs as a more physical part of our body, and our heart as something much more than a blood pump. But lungs as air pumps and hearts as blood pumps both connect with breathing as letting energy circulate and opening our heart as letting compassion circulate. Thank you, Aphrodite, for an inspiring practice suggestion, which I followed up a few times today, feeling deeply relaxed and grateful afterwards.

After many hearty laughs at today's 13:00 PaB session (which Aph said was the silliest she'd ever attended), I just turned off all electronic distractions and sat -- quiet, receptive, and grateful.

today's metaphor to live by
pretending I'm on a one-day retreat
all this stuff is happening

I feel very much part of your minds and hearts, expanding and pumping, breathing together...sharing being.

This month I am studying colour theory, enlightening my neuron bundles with hues of cadmium yellow, prussian blue, alizarin crimson, and wonder if I will begin to see things differently. edited 05:48, 5 Oct 2011

Sitting still
spine straight
singing espressivo