2011.10.28 _ 57

Meditated first thing in the morning.

Standing meditation. Felt a bit sluggish, and tended to forget I was meditating. Those days happen too.

::: Living in the dark
::: His soul fragrant with lilac
::: He breaks up his chains

Thank you, Wol, for phrasing yesterday so clearly what really is a problem for all of us. For some, it is very hard, almost impossible, to bring ourselves to sit. For others, it is very hard, almost impossible, to avoid getting completely lost in our usual thinking when sitting. For yet others, it is very hard, almost impossible, to avoid falling into distractions time and again, no matter how often there are moments of clarity in between. So we're all in the same boat, really. And for all of us, making daily lab notes, like we are doing here, is already half the solution. Holding up a mirror to ourselves, every day, can't help but slowly let the message sink in that we have to change. For me it feels like a fermentation process. Imperceptibly, very slowly, without fathoming (as Eliza wrote) we grow and become more tasty. :-) edited 13:41, 28 Oct 2011

Discovered, excavated time... long'er' practice today, thankful. _/\_ edited 16:27, 28 Oct 2011

Small dream circle this morning
Made the day
Grow like grass
Extending upward

Recliner sit after a full day: doctor appointment in one town and pharmacy in another, banking in a third, winterizing the camper, and writing a long letter to my prison inmate friend Mike. Happy to just sit for an hour before this afternoon's delightful 13:00 PaB session -- during which I felt so embraced by and comfortable with friends that I actually cried.

Nice talk of time at Paradise's session last night....
This morning, while in practice when I usually focus on the movements, I thought of time and that it took an entire year to work though the moves I just did in the first part of my Tai Chi form (am beginning to learn the third part now, almost 3 years later.) All the move that I continue to get better at, moves that seem to take but a few minutes now, I have invested years of my life learning..... and so much more to do... and how lovely it is to continue to do and learn

..listening to pre-sleep and waking.. like trusted advisors.. liberating body body, from body of thoughts..