2011.12.04 _ 94

4:00 AM
waiting for the warmth
of imagined sunshine

Meditated in the evening. Standing meditation.

Tried to pay enough attention to notice everything I was going to let my body do (including relaxing) and then not do it, but just put my attention to that part, maybe a suggestion for movement, maybe just noticing discomfort and asking my body for suggestions, and then let it do whatever was needed by itself, instead of me doing it. This felt right, if I managed to get past the monkeys.

Managed to sit for half an hour, in between getting up at 5 am and getting ready to leave for Osaka airport, to fly to Amsterdam. I'm glad I succeeded to keep the continuity of sitting, even though I could have slept till 5:45 otherwise. It's a relief not to have to think about sitting or not sitting, but to just do it.
Reflecting on Eos' recipe "alert, gentle, wild" together with Luci's secret ingredient "wild as innocent" and O's stock of "little to say" edited 22:20, 4 Dec 2011

The Berlin group sat for ten minutes this morning, in Paradise' room this time. Very warm and affirming and comforting. Gentle, definitely; alert, yes; not so sure about wild. Have to think more about this.

::: In sunny living
::: The amber lights of winter
::: Sipping hot black tea

Spent the whole afternoon in a sunny room drawing a holly branch.
My mind following the tracings of my pencil
as it formed the sharp points, scalloped edgs and round berry shapes.
Totally in the present. Nowhere but there.

Glad to hear from Berlin meetup! :-)

Contemplating "wild", as in "being in the wild".


Not acting out and kicking the frame,

But open doorway, no frame:

'Like a complete unknown'

'Wild as innocent', yes.

Had our annual Tai Chi feast this afternoon, came home, cleared out a few things, well many, actually and did a short standing meditation before doing some Qi Gong followed my Tai Chi, both flowed wonderfully, unusually so... (cat was outside).
A sweet emptiness drapes over me when things flow, balance surrounds my physical moves while a sill mind holds me softly edited 03:32, 5 Dec 2011

Lovely to hear from/about Berlin group. :) Here in Florida a bit of a cold and many chatterings throughout the day, many opportunities to allow pauses to kick in for themselves and drive me along.

Mourning doves call the night..
Fireflies and robins light..
Caught on the hook of mystery..
Released into wild innocence