2011.11.30 _ 90

Meditated first thing in the morning. Then had a very busy and tiring day, so no further comments today.

this morning, during my half hour sit, I saw myself cycling through three phases: lost in distractions, pulling myself together, reminding myself that there was nothing to pull together and resting in that, until finding myself again lost in distractions again, and so on.

30 minutes, at the wall, half lotus. 55 breaths. Like a cold shower. At some point I caught myself composing my 99 days entry :), came back, saw myself then composing about having caught myself composing my 99 days entry :), smiling smiling, can't help it. Posture, Posture, Posture, into a little dream, Alarm.

::: A Tibetan meal
::: Tsampa, steamed vegetables
::: Warm goji berries

I'm delighted to read about Eliza's self awareness of her self awareness. Our minds and our brains really seem to operate separately, one observing the other. Round and around.

I have begun a new drawing and am looking forward to getting lost in the red berries and the green leaves of a prickly holly branch. edited 06:03, 1 Dec 2011

Noticing tired thoughts, and patterns at end of day. Noticed replacement patterns, in some way, imagined needed.. reassurance while dropping tape loops, leaving open, but gentler connected space. Awakening, and looking at clock.. still more time to sleep. Agendas slipping in there.. in the half awake fields. Seen.. offered a place to rest.

Skin has always been an interesting sign post. Bounding ways of inner/outer. Many skins of appearances.. changing. The me that I imagine. Hard to keep up with anymore.

Sitting straight. Sense of bottom, on seat, on earth. The internal conversations continue. Including with this page :-) Differences, changes, motions, trigger attention & awareness. Sitting among the changes, inside them, as them, outside them, not them. Still and zooming.

Noticed while making lists for children..."Hat, Scarf, Mittens, Coat, Backpack, Lunch"
I need lists too..for certain parts of the day
phone keys lunch purse or
practice,move,practice, move

Missed today, make-up day tomorrow :)