2011.12.01 _ 91

Meditated in the morning, after breakfast. As it gets later in the day, it progressively gets more difficult for me to start meditating. This means that whatever the time of day is, it is easiest to meditate right now, if there are no other things that can't bear postponing.

Standing meditation. Immeditately when I was standing right, a very interesting thought popped into my head. It took a few minutes until I got back to the breathing. In-breath, let the breath fill my upper half so it floats up. Out-breath, let my feet and hands be pulled down by gravity.

::: Deep deep deep under
::: Blue ray of motherly love
::: On this spaceship earth

sry - i caught a quite huge cold and continuity is really heavy to me - so my writings here are not so permanent - but my lojong practice i do strictly permanent so far, because i fear when i let/ leave (?) one day out / off - the whole practice may be in danger - i mean my "discipline" ...

but it´s so ridicoulous, after only so few days - so intense hindrances often, inner ones ... heavy ... edited 19:09, 1 Dec 2011

Meditation after dinner, cookies and tea and a few moments of quiet before I stood meditating for a bit followed my Tai Chi. tonight it was fluid and calm, peaceful as cat watched but did not join me.
Actually cat never joins me, usually tries to take over the movements by placing his body between my foot and the ground, which is actually very useful as any foot that is not on the ground has no weight on it... so the cat is safe and I do not fall... usually

water color scene
three thin little trees standing
still in no wind.

Another two-stage contemplation/exploration this morning. The first happened when I woke up quite early, still lying in bed. I decided not to get up, but to start my practice, lying on my back. After a while I fell asleep, and when I woke up again a couple hours later, I got up, went to my cushion, and started my half-hour sit as a direct continuation of the earlier practice. Starting with "emptiness is form, form is emptiness" I first saw all that appears in its space/openness/emptiness aspect, and from there I moved to watching the appearing of what appears in its time aspect. Just as we can shift our attention from figure to ground and back again in space, we can do the same in time, shifting from what appears to how it appears and back again. I wound up with a light focus on time, as the engine that makes space come alive with the coming and going of forms, in our normal modes of thinking, while also providing a portal to timeless time. edited 04:19, 2 Dec 2011

Breathing into physical pain.. finding breath, and watching thoughts before sleep. So easy to be self oriented. Morning and finding space. Spaces in the non-space. Certain bodily pains are such a nuisance to who I think I am.. and later, just patience speaking.

My brush moves from alizarin crimson to windsor violet;
the sun sets leaving me alone with a black sky
and formless, timeless emptiness. edited 07:04, 2 Dec 2011

Fresh as the new day, in some sense, emerging out of vanishing cobwebs of entanglements, slightly highlighted.

Taking a deep breath
waiting for the next