2011.08.23 _ -9

Running late, as always, managed by luck not planning to start this project on day -9. Sat for about six very uneasy minutes before giving up: struggling every second not to open my eyes and change something or add to the pages of this part of the wiki; also expecting every moment to be interrupted by the doorbell. I was trying to recapture the spirit of sitting at Sunshine House looking at that overleafed window, monkey mind pulling me constantly back to the wiki. Ah well, they say practice makes perfect.

Decided not to draw today. Instead, I sat, meditated and tried to go "deeper" and see what that might mean. I asked myself certain questions, one following the next like Russian dolls. Like a child, I kept asking "but why?" Going deeper. The answer rose reluctantly but felt like a truth. A sad truth.